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Wednesday, December 31, 2003
nothing to do.
its almost 2004. and i have found nothing to do. nothing to do except write in this blog. play ffx2. and listen to wonderful music. i hope 2004 is different. hopefully. my mind is dead. its all because of winter break. but i had no mind. so it cant be dead. im mindless! muahahaha. what has happened to me!? what did i do? oh well. why is it "you were..." not "you was.."? isn't 'you' a singular? and 'were' is a plural verb. how does it work out!? english is stupid. i hate it. it angers me. wow. thats a record breaking 6 posts in 1 day. most ever. reflections
lets have a reflection of this year shall we?
2003. what did i do? er. i... finished freshman year. i finished summer school. i started sophomore year. i reached winter break. thats all i accomplished? apparently so. good job abraham. ur very good. accomplish more abraham! how dare you! you insult me! die! accomplish more! i demand you to. your life is at stake! u better do more this 2004. die. er. dont mind me. big apple thing
the big apple thing was pretty funny.
nothing special. the people in new york would like get overweighed by all that confetti. they would be crushed. so much. oh well. 3 hours left. subject/ titles!?
blogger can have subject/ titles!?
ahh!
my mom bought me socks. im wearing them. they keep me warm.
i hate shaving. its a stupid concept. i shaved my face yesterday. i was dumb. i went into some insane frenzy and almost shaved off my eyebrows. i think that shavers should never be put in my hand. and now my face feels all queer. i hate it. my face is colder. i want my hair back. shaving doesn't do anything. all it does it bring back thicker hair that is faster growing. ahhh! 15 years of facial hair is gone. it wasn't even very long. next time im going to grow it super long. like some philosopher guy that doesn't shave his face. yay. this is stupid. i hate shaving. and i bet you dont want to hear about it.
Now here I go,
Hope I don't break down, I won't take anything, I don't need anything, Don't want to exist, I can't persist, Please stop before I do it again, Just talk about nothing, let's talk about nothing, Let's talk about no one, please talk about no one, someone, anyone You and me have a disease, You affect me, you infect me, I'm afflicted, you're addicted, You and me, you and me what a fun song. its almost jan 1. 2004. wonderful. new year. new beginnings. new everything. not really. eh. no new years resolution. however, danny wants me to do some dr pepper count. similar to his vanilla coke count. so i think ill try that. except ill do it in fluid ounces! not servings! mauhahah. or something. eh. whatever. Tuesday, December 30, 2003
phone booth is a funny movie. the guy is funny. the sniper is funny. the end was funny. the police are stupid. stupid idiots. just look at the glass from the phone booth and they can find the approximate angle of the sniper. bah. stupid people. the movie was stupid. but i didn't watch the beginning part. so i guess its not too bad. oh well.
sometimes, only sometimes i question everything.
im stupid. i dont know what to do. i dont want to do anything. oh well. thats good enough for me. i think. i update too much now. i used to edit and add more. now i just keep on adding new posts. weird me. ive changed apparently. i am silent in real life and talkative on aim. thats what a person said to me. too bad that person met me only once. eh. am i talkative? i dont think so. too bad for everyone. what am i talking about? i dont know. winter break really kills me. i dont like it. i think im going insane. but i was already insane before. i became insaner? sure. that sounds wonderful. im a masochist. weirdos. what a bunch of freaks. yea yea. if this entry begins to confuse and scare you. then... too bad. i talk what i want! this is my blog! my blog! not yours! stop telling me what to do with it! hahaha! i sound so egotistical. stop it!. i hide from everyone on aim. its fun. spying on people and stalking them. making screennames that no one knows. now everyone can feel unsafe. er. this entry is dumb. im going to leave and do something that doesn't require anything. if that means anything. oh well. too bad. im a pathetic fool.
bye. i think.
i ate a grapefruit today. it tasted good. i dont feel like going on aim. no one wants to talk to me. i dont want to talk to anyone. its a mutual relationship. nothing to do on aim. i dont like to start conversations. they are stupid. aim is evil. i hate it. it wastes my time. ffx2 is funner. bye.
i vacumed the house. its very dirty. all the dust is gone! wonderful. its so fun. (that was sarcasm). my room is less dirty! wonderful. the house is less dirty. all the dirty stuff is gone. i think. oh well
eh i think i sucked up a few quarters.. noO!!!
the bathtub in my house is getting very dirty. no one uses it because we all use the shower and thats not the same as the bathtub. so the bathtub is filthy. oh well. thats too bad for the bathtub.
Monday, December 29, 2003
whats with that stupid "stacie's mom" song? its the most retarded song in the world, yet that world loves the song. what a stupid song. talking about fantasizing about someone's mom. even the music video is stupid. its disgusting. i hate it. fountains of wayne or whatever is a dumb band. they probably fantasize about each other's moms all day long. why!? why is it so popular?
JermRiddled: i was walking down the street azN xrE taRD BOI: how come i had no blackout? JermRiddled: and I tripped the wire JermRiddled: and then the whole state went down JermRiddled: cause you're 1337
its raining!
wonderful! its wet everywhere! its freezing cold. i love it! er. thats all. what a nice computer case scarlet shrimp are like little go karts. they dont have reverse settings. so if a scarlet shrimp does a somersault and miscalculates, he can get stuck between 2 rocks. then i have to shake the stupid container to get him out. migicubes are awesome. go to migicube.com Sunday, December 28, 2003
solitude
by abraham chang a raindrop fell from the sky the fall was spry it fell on a leaf filled with grief left alone lost in the unknown solitude. it will not dilute wishing to be set free wanting to flee the raindrop screams out the silent reply causes doubts as the darkness clears the sun is here the bright light burns the searing pain was the least of its concern salvation has come to the poor little raindrop solitude. it will not dilute eh. what a stupid poem. i was thinking of raindrops. i dont even know what this poem means. maybe it has some super deep meaning. but i haven't found it yet.
facades are really easy to put on. i could decieve everyone. they will never know the real me. one great example is that band "rancid". ever hear them? probably not. all you ever see are those shirts with some bloody stuff and scary figures. and stuff. but guess what? probably that happy ska-ish music you hear on the radio is rancid! those fools. making them seem hardcore and angry. they are really a bunch of happy jazzists that swear and like to trick people. dont think those people with mohawks and liberty spikes wearing rancid shirts are hardcore rockers. they are probably paid to wear that stuff.
i return to san jose.
it is wonderful. Saturday, December 27, 2003
my cool poem
by abraham chang my anus is heinous. im too cool for school. i climb my cool rhymes. parachutes hoot when they eat newts. ram is like ham. but beetles walk on needles. CDs dont need to pee. and shrimp are wimps. this world has come to an end. but how did it begin? no one knows. that really blows. some people think of a big explosion or they believe in erosion. maybe in religion. something has to have made all the pigeons. somethings just dont fit. people have big wit. all things will rot. nothing will not. people like to drink wine. does it make them divine. i like to perspire. it makes me feel higher. nothing is the lack of anything. but the lack of nothing is not everything. lack of nothing could be something. and something is not everything.
overly romantic people are stupid. they just sit there all day and dream. they write songs to their special person and post them in their profile. they dont say who because they like to keep it a secret. so everyone that reads it is confused by these weird song poems. and they lyrics in profiles and away messages. and they write those few words in their profile like "still waiting". ugh. then they suddenly have a sudden realization that they have no chance. and fall into an abyss of depression. and they cant get out of that chasm. so they listen to emo music and go crazy. they complain the world isn't fair. but the world wasn't fair in the first place. were they expecting fairness? bah. stupid people. obsessing over people. then they realize it will not be returned and they go obsessing over some other person. dont these people ever learn!? silly people. they should all take zoloft (setraline HCl) for their depression and then some obsessive-compulsive pills. the world would be a much better place.
i saw this very interesting magnet thing. it said "johnny was afraid that his braces would degrade his social life. but then he realized he had no social life." or something like that. it was funny. and another magnet said "you want breakfast in bed? then sleep in the kitchen." funny "magnet max" store.
ok. universal studios was interesting. i liked the stuff. especially the spiderman musical. funny. "get ready to die!" "but wait". *begins to sing* bad guy joins in. so funny people. we walked into hot topic for kicks. its a funny place. scary people. they had a KMFDM shirt. looked interesting. i bought a matrix poster, but not from hot topic. oh well. i come back tomorrow. oh well.
bad religion is interesting. that one song "you and me have a disease". cool. outkast is annoying. especially that hey ya song. punk rock songs are annoying. all american rejects are annoying. swing swing is annoying. lacuna coil is interesting. the end. zoloft is an interesting pill. oh yes. i saw a korn concert on mtv. wonderful. i want to go to south central. this was in my LA profile. i want to keep it lol - leprosy on lemur lmao - leprecuans masticating all over rofl - rabid orangutangs fucking lemons brb - bats ramming bums bbl - bilbo baggin's lint ttyl - talking thorns yelling lentils nvm - nasty vandalizing marmosets btw - blue twirly wombats imo - insecure mammal orifice gtg - gamboling tentacled gibbons wtf - wonderful tooth fairy hmph - hairy mastadons playing hockey hmm - hereterical misaligned microprocessor eh - eel hucking u - umbrellas ur - uber rancid azn - acrid zany necrophiliac meh - masterful electrician harassment -by the abraham, alex, melody chang. time to rip all the cds my cousin owns.
i have decided that i hate lord of the rings. i just watched part of the 2nd one. and its weird. why do they all suddenly talk in elvish talk!? when everyone understands english!? theres no language barrier. speak in english! AHH. engrish speakers. and that army of 10 thousand looked more like an army of 10 million. and it was called the ultimate army or something. and how come in the 3rd one there was an army that was larger than that?! dont the orcs stay dead!? so many of them. and stupid saruman (white wizard) guy. so stupid. dont like him. he doesn't do much to story. and gollum is some stupid psycho. augh. i hate them all. especially frodo baggins. freak. the movies dont even revolve around him. good thing i haven't read the books. it would make me go insane.
true lies is a funny movie. its also an oxymoron. no terrorists can mess with the california governor! Friday, December 26, 2003
today i went to a wonderful place. its called speed zone. a racing place. with go carts. so fun. and an arcade. i like the arcade. not really. it had soul caliber 2. wonderful. then we waited. waited to go 'racing'. then we went racing. and im slow. i like to drive safely. but i still crashed. im too cool for driving. i drifted. accidentally. in conclusion, i think ill fail my driving test and wont learn to drive until im about 25. or something.
i got this weird comment in my xanga thing. holy crap! i'm blinded! by your love!!! Posted 12/26/2003 at 7:53 PM by karlie_fries i dont see love anywhere in my xanga. no implication. hm. confusing. Thursday, December 25, 2003
Afrikaans - Geseknde Kersfees en 'n gelukkige nuwe jaar
Argentine - Feliz Navidad y Feliz Año Nuevo Bohemian - Vesele Vanoce Brazilian - Boas Festas e Feliz Ano Novo Bulgarian - Vesela Koleda i chestita nova godina! Catalan - Bon Nadal i un Bon Any Nou! Chinese - Sing Dan Fae Lok. Gung Hai Fat Choi (Cantonese) Chinese - Shen Dan Kuai Le Xin Nian Yu Kuai (Mandarin) Chinese - Shen tan jie kuai le. Hsin Nien Kuaile Croatian - Sretan Bozic Czech - Stastne a vesele vanoce a stastny novy rok! Danish - Glaedelig Jul og godt nyter Dutch - Vrolijk Kerstfeest en een Gelukkig Nieuw Jaar Dutch - Prettige kerstdagen en een gelukkig nieuw jaar English - Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year Eskimo - (inupik) Jutdlime pivdluarit ukiortame pivdluaritlo! Esperanto - Felican Kristnaskon kaj Bonan Novjaron! Estonian - Rõõmusaid jõulupühi ja head uut aastat! Faeroese - Gledhilig jol og eydnurikt nyggjar! Filipinos - Maligayang Pasko Finnish - Hyvää joulua ja onnellista uutta vuotta! Flemish - Zalig Kerstfeest en Gelukkig nieuw jaar French - Joyeux Noel et Bonne Année! Scots Gaelic - Nollaig chridheil agus Bliadhna mhath yr! Galician - Bo Nadal German - Frohe Weihnachten und ein gl|ckliches Neues Jahr! Greek - Hronia polla kai eytyhismenos o kainourios hronos Greek - Hronia polla ke eftihismenos o kenourios hronos Hausa - Barka da Kirsimatikuma Barka da Sabuwar Shekara! Hawaian - Mele Kalikimaka ame Hauoli Makahiki Hou! Hungarian - Kellemes karacsonyi uennepeket es boldog ujevet! Icelandic - Gledhileg jsl og farsflt komandi ar! Indonesian - Selamat Hari Natal dan Selamat Tahun Baru! Iraqi - Idah Saidan Wa Sanah Jadidah Irish Gaelic - Nollaig Shona duit Irish Gaelic - Nollaig Shona Irish Gaelic - Nollaig faoi shean agus faoi shonas duit agus bliain nua faoi mhaise dhuit! Italian - Buon Natale e Felice Anno Nuovo! Japanese - Meri Kurisumasu soshite Akemashite Omedeto! Latin - Natale hilare et Annum Faustum! Latvian - Priecigus Ziemsvetkus un Laimigu Jaungadu! Lithuanian - Linksmu Kaledu Maltese - Nixtieklek Milied tajjeb u is-sena t-tabja! Modern Greek - Kala Christougenna kai evtichismenos o kainourios chronos! Norwegian - God Jul Og Godt Nytt Aar Pennsylvania German - En frehlicher Grischtdaag un en hallich Nei Yaahr! Polish - Vesowe Boze Narodzenie Polish - Wesolych Swiat i Szczesliwego Nowego Roku Portuguese - Boas Festas Portuguese - Feliz Natal e um Prospero Ano Novo Romanian - Craciun fericit si un an nou fericit Russian - S nastupaiushchim Novym godom i s Rozhdestvom Khristovym! Romanche - (sursilvan dialect): Legreivlas fiastas da Nadal e bien niev onn! Serbian - Hristos se rodi Slovakian - Sretan Bozic or Vesele vianoce Slovak - Vesele Vianoce i na zdravie v novom roku! Slovenian - Vesele bozicne praznike in srecno novo leto Spanish - Feliz Navidad y Próspero Año Nuevo Swedish - God Jul Och Ett Gott Nytt Ar Thai - Suk san wan Christmas Thai - Suk san wan pee mai - Happy New Year Trukeese - (Micronesian) Neekiriisimas annim oo iyer seefe feyiyeech! Turkish - Noeliniz kutlu olsun ve yeni yilinis kutlu olsun! Turkish - Noeliniz Ve Yeni Yiliniz Kutlu Olsun Ukrainian - Srozhdestvom Kristovym Ukrainan - Z novym rokom i s rizdvom Hrystovym! Ukrainan - Khrystos Rodevsia Vietnamese - Chuc mung nam moi va Giang Sinh vui ve Welsh - Nadolig Llawen a Blwyddyn Newydd Da!" Yoruba - E ku odun, e ku iye'dun! azN xrE taRD BOI: M M's are better azN xrE taRD BOI: than skittles mnmsorskittles: um... mnmsorskittles: azns are better than retards. but retards are better than boys. azN xrE taRD BOI: hm. azN xrE taRD BOI: whats an asian boy then? mnmsorskittles: uh...better than a retard boy mnmsorskittles: WOW i'm gOOD
crazy. this guy on kazaa had an upload of 170 kb/sec. and it was only from him. psycho man.
GrizzlyBalla33: there are even less azns at pioneer than gunderson azN xrE taRD BOI: oh no. GrizzlyBalla33: endangered speecies stripped is a cool song. it has no point. Come with me Into the trees We'll lay on the grass And let the hours pass Take my hand Come back to the land Let's get away Just for one day Let me see you Stripped Metropolis Has nothing on this You're breathing in fumes I taste when we kiss Take my hand Come back to the land Where everything's ours For a few hours Let me see you Stripped Let me hear you Make decisions Without your television Let me hear you speaking Just for me Let me see you Stripped Let me hear you Make decisions Without your television Let me hear you speaking Just for me Let me see you Stripped i think it has something to do with conformity. or something. or something on television. how its taking over the world! AH. weirdos.
oh yea. its also christmas.
story of the year's until the day i die song is really annoying.
i have returned from oceanside. it was fun. ocean is fun. i like it. great. happy. i watched a bunch of mtv. its stupid. a lot of rap. yet i continue watching it. im stupid. oh well. i forget what i am to write. someday ill figure it all out.
oh yes. we went fishing. i fished. i caught nothing. neither did any one else. except for this one vietnamese woman nearby. she caught so many fish. and she didn't even use bait. she just used a hook and grabbed fish. crazy woman. she fished all the fish. Sunday, December 21, 2003
i was looking at the favorites on my cousin's computer. so many car websites. i went to the hummer site and made my very own hummer! it costs $62,530. woo. so fun. i like making expensive cars.
i am now at 'insane cousins's house. its... great fun. they are playing need for speed for speed. how fun. i learned to play cello. its fun. i want to learn cello. oh well. good day. wont be any updates for a while. i got a migi cube! its this thing that is a glass box with water. and shrimp. the thing is supposed to be self-sustaining. cool. i hope they live. oh well.
my cousins have an obsession with cars. that 10 year old one knows more about cars than me. he takes a camera and takes pictures of cars that pass by. i saw a rolls-royce. crazy stuff. at this resturant, we saw this one guy trying to pick up the waitress. he's like "ill give you my number and u call me, okay?". and the guy was also like "u seem like someone special to me. its like ive met you before." then he got rejected. ive never seen people try to pick up random people. so funny. ha. i was laughing so hard. i now know to never use those pick up lines.
another early morning awakening. with nothing to do. i dont like getting used to waking up at such early times. its sucks. another morning of nothing to do. another morning of intruding into other's lives by reading xangas (which are stupid). im that bored. another morning of pondering what im going to do today. im going to go with my cousin to some beach and meet my other insane cousins who are 12 years and 10 (?) years old. insane boys. its really hard to explain their insanity. those crazy people. after that i get to depart with my insane cousins to their house and live at their house for one day. while my other cousins do whatever they have to do. then tomorrow morning. very early i hope. they will pick me up and i shall leave this place for some other place. gone for 3 days. or something. with no internet. oh well. too bad. goodbye.
Saturday, December 20, 2003
die elephants. return of the king is very strange. weird movie. dont like much. running around. shooting people. i almost fell asleep. oh well. silly. 3 hour long movies. with never ending. AHHH. so much. running. so much stupidity. so much skinny people named gollum. so much orc people. its stupid. bah. dont watch it.
muahaha
i went with my cousin to this 'peer 9' thing. its the local tutoring thing. i helped tutor kids. i helped this one kid in science. and some kid in math. the math kid was 2nd grade. and he was fast at math! he did his addtion from left to right instead of right to left. but he still got the right answer. crazy.
im an uber hucker. hucking rhymes with fucking. but they have nothing to do with each other!! hucking is mountain biking a bunch of hills with bumps. fucking is something else. i went hucking with my cousin. its fun. suddenly we saw a SUV on the hill. its all dusty and stuff. and it was driving on it! a hucking SUV. they told us they were "testing out the new car". the SUV was soon joined up with an old pickup truck. the pickup guy is vicious. drives up steep slopes. it was interesting. then we biked to baskin robbins. wonderful place. the "battery: tribute to rammstein" cd is very disturbing. but i like it. and all the many cds my cousin has. cool. im going to watch return of the king soon. good bye. another dull entry ends here.
this is weird. southern california has weird nights the darkness doesn't leave! its al bright and day. AHH. couldn't sleep. then since im so used to waking up early, i woke up at 7:30 today. bah.
Friday, December 19, 2003
00457472 633643
just for my references... numbers that u may find no use.
im at the airport. its very weird. they have these internet things where you can pay to go online. hm. the airport is stupid. they took my scissors!! they stole them. i am angry at them. stupid. my belt set off the alarm. thats so dumb. augh. theres still like 45 minutes before my flight. bah bah. i miss home. but im not gone yet. oh well. im happy.
theres this woman has been on the phone for like 1 hour. and its a payphone. she's lying on the ground and talking. its.. a waste of money. i think. i dont think theres so many things to be said for 1 hour. bah whats even gayer is that this thing banned aim!!!! no aim allowed. how sad.
today is christmas. people wear red. i unknowningly wore red. weird. oh well.
i got a paine ffx2 action model thing. thank you kevin. it now resides on top of my ps2. yay! who cares. winter break is hear. way away from here ill be. down in southern california. but i wont be alone. ill believe. anything. doo dooo doo. my hair is weird. it tangles easily. i wake up. its tangled. i take a shower. its tangled. i sit down. its tangled. i walk 10 feet. its tangled. its gotten to a point where i just want to stop untangling my hair and let it grow long into dreadlocks. er. yea. that would be interesting. or i could just cut it. but i dont like short hair. heres my paine thing 
bye yay Thursday, December 18, 2003
my blog entries are too superficial now.
i am too languid.
awaken
the person that had my "a separate peace" book before me left his phone number.. eh. wtf. 
What Type of Villain are You? mutedfaith.com. 
find your element at mutedfaith.com. we are watching "pirates of the caribbean" in pe. its a funny movie. funny queer pirate. i feel sorry for whoever makes the websites for ayumi hamasaki. she makes a new single almost every week. and has a new website layout every week to fit her new single. my god. Wednesday, December 17, 2003
i make no sense at all.
now go away.
mr roske once said that the less friends one has. the happier that person is. less money spent on christmas and birthday presents...
he has a point. complaining people annoy. they complain too much and it annoys. its very annoying at lunch when i hear people complaining. its so annoying. i dont like it. too bad. gossip is stupid. people gossip too much and complain too much. dah. its all you people's faults that i buy a dr pepper everyday to drink away the annoyance... !!!. bah. they sold out of dr pepper today. i had to have a pepsi. i am in a bad mood. not really. sometimes i turn off all the lights and pretend im blind. its pretty fun. kmfdm is a cool band. a german band, but they sing in english most of the time. they have crazy bass. and beat stuff. its cool. i like them. they are a new favorite band. i doubt myself a lot. i think thats why i say "i dont know" a lot on aim. im too cool to be able to think im right. doubtful. yea right. Tuesday, December 16, 2003
when i take off my glasses and look at myself in the mirror. it looks like i have eye liner. or eye shadow. or something. it kinda disturbs me.
i wonder why people put on that stuff. it makes them look depressed and stuff. eh. weird. one example is this one girl. that dresses weird. and puts on like 10 layers of makeup. when i walk on my way from japanese to english. she comes out of bowen's class. all... sad looking? is it bowens fault? i dont think so. bowen didn't even make me that sad looking. then she goes see her boyfriend and she is still sad looking... so. i think that all that eye shadow, liner, whitening crap. makes a person look depressed... unless shes sad to see her boyfriend?. i dont think so. crazy freshmen people. so sad and depressing. i woke up. and my leg was all cramped up. it hurts. i cant move it. augh. pains. shoes are stupid. people have links in their profiles to some stupid shoes that they want. i hate shoes. why do people care? why do they spend so much money for shoes? why do they have so many pairs?! why do they make sure they keep them super clean!? like if a piece of dust gets on their shoes, they bend down and lick their shoes clean. i think its stupid. why do people have a pair of old shoes just for pe? its not like a person is going to run in mud during pe. hell. a person wont even run in pe. so stop buying shoes! go buy some things that you really need. stop wasting money on shoes! omg. i want one! too bad its like 400$! uber ffx2 fans. 200$ for 6 cds. insanity. have you ever noticed that people either love good charlotte or hate them? no one is okay with them. its weird. it doesn't happen with other bands. english is a stupid language. why is there so many stupid pronounciations!? take the word chinese and chemistry for example. why is it CHinese. and kemistry? they both have 'ch' but dont pronounce the same. why is ogre pronounced ohger? what is the meaning of all this? english is stupid. but its really 4 languages put together (as stated by ms. bergantz). stupid. we should all learn german and be cool. or something.. Monday, December 15, 2003
way away. away from here ill be... something.
ahh! annoying music stuck my head. damn you violin. die die. annoying. violin is bad. cello sounds cooler. there should be a band. that has a banjo instead of guitar. bongos instead of drums. double bass instead of a normal bass. and a keyboarder and cellist. celloist? cellost? it would be cool. actually it wouldn't. i think ill just stay with the guitar, drum, bass thing. with a keyboarder. mm. bergantz and aguilera are working together to put a test on the same day. i feel so lucky. memorizing 3 essays question things and basically memorizing a lame book. so fun. suicide seems cool. but then a suicidal person would have to think of a way to suicide. what if a person is afraid of blood. then no stabbing. no shooting. what if the person has problems swallowing pills? hanging would make a person seem stupid. drowning is hard to do. there are so few options. and what if the suicidal person is really pessimistic? always thinks what if the suicide goes wrong? then the person would walk around with a hole in his head. eh. death is weird. one is buried. and then everyone walks around in black. and one gets the most flowers they will ever get in their life. but their life is already over. the most flowers come all at once. too bad that person could not enjoy the flowers. weird people. why do people get a big dinner before execution? its such a waste of money. i wonder if the person could take a long time to decide and delay his execution. thinking of steak. or lobster... 5 years later. decides on steak. asked how he wants it cooked. the person thinks some more... would they just drag him and kill him? or wait till he thinks of something? walk into a gun shop. buy 3 guns and a lot of ammunition. then ask if they sell hockey masks. hockey is stupid. i dont like holding a stick and walking around during pe in the cold. its boring. i dont like hitting a ball around. getting hit in the shins from other hockey sticks. its a dumb sport. Sunday, December 14, 2003
tutoring is fun. especially since that guy doesn't want to get tutored now. good job.
im going to try to describe my life in 100 words. vapid. insipid. wonderful. crappy. stupid. happy. bliss. sleep. awake. exciting. dull. dumb. retarded. repetitive. erg. screw it. i only got 15. good job. they found saddam. too bad bin laden is still running around. f a t s h e e p1: stupid ben azN xrE taRD BOI: gaa azN xrE taRD BOI: what bout ben? f a t s h e e p1: he's like okay call me back f a t s h e e p1: and like 10 min later f a t s h e e p1: i call him and he's sleeping Saturday, December 13, 2003
korn - good god
you came into my life, without a single thing. i gave into your ways. which left me with nothing. i've given into smiles. i fell for all your games. i wish so bad right now. i hadn't let you win... wont you get the fuck out of my face... now! in the sea of life. you're just a minnow. live your life. insecure. feel the pain of your needles as they shit into my mind. i sceam without a sound. how could u take away. everything that i was. made me a fucking slave. your face that i despise. ur heart inside thats grey. i came today to say.. ur fucked in everyway. wont you get the fuck out of my face... now! in the sea of life. you're just a minnow. live your life. insecure. feel the pain of your needles as they shit into my mind. you stole my life. without a sigh. you suck me dry. wont you get the fuck out of my face... now! in the sea of life your just a minnow. live ur life. insecure. feel the pain of your needles as they shit into my mind. you stole my life. without a sigh. you suck me dry... korn - somebody someone i cant stand. to let you in. im just watching you. and i dont know what to do. feeling like a fool inside. feeling all the love you hide. thought you were my friend. seems it never ends... i need somebody someone. can somebody help me? all i need is to be loved just for me... giving you this and that. give and get nothing back. its all related to. all the things i do. feeling like a boy inside. seeming all the things you tried... i am nothing... i need somebody someone. can somebody help me? all i need is to be loved just for me. i look. a sign. i need somebody inside to help me out. with what. im trying. im crying. im frying. in a pile of shit. im dying. im dying. im dying.. i need somebody someone.. korn - bbk so youve seen i got this far. please give me some place to wait. im not trying to go there. so take me away... life sometimes pisses me off. its never a good trip for me. everytime i reach for love. its taken away... night. so i play. give me a sign. this is day. give me some patience. so i pray. its time to die. is that what i want? there's nothing wrong wanting to be loved. is there something wrong with me? for once in my life I'd like to be really set free... let me be me... night. so i play. give me a sign. this is day. give me some patience. so i pray. its time to die. take me away. take it away. take me away. taken away... alkwhgl;h3ngkaahginakjfslgkjsg. night. so i play. give me a sign. this is day. give me some patience. so i pray. its time to die.night. so i play. give me a sign. this is day. give me some patience. so i pray. its time to die. red hot chili peppers - dosed i got dosed by you and closer than most to you and what am i supposed to do. take it away. i never had it anyway. take it away. and everything will be okay. in you a star is born and you cut a perfect form and someone forever warm... lay on lay on lay on lay on.. lay on lay on lay on lay on... way upon the mountain where she died... all i ever wanted was your life. deep inside the canyon i can't hide. all i ever wanted was your life.. show love with no remorse and climb onto your seahorse and this ride is right on course.. this is the way i wanted it to be with you. this is the way that i knew that it would be with you. lay on lay on lay on lay on.. lay on lay on lay on lay on... way upon the mountain where she died... all i ever wanted was your life. deep inside the canyon i can't hide. all i ever wanted was your life.. i got dosed by you and closer than most to you and what am i supposed to do. take it away. i never had it anyway. take it away. and everything will be okay. way upon the mountain where she died... all i ever wanted was your life. deep inside the canyon i can't hide. all i ever wanted was your life.. hm. thats a lot of typing. what a waste of time. oh yes. btw. theres the holiday special movie now. its there. go look for it.
why is everyone at that SCU tournament!?!?!?!?
i feel so lonely.. i made a new layout. life is dull without people. life is dull when there is people.
after finishing "a separate peace". i have decided the book i once thought was interesting isn't as good as i thought. the book is meaningless because there really was no plot. just some psychotic introvert kid having internal conflict. i can summarize the book in one paragraph:
hello. my name is gene. im gay. i really am. i look at people's butts. im an introvert. i hate people. life sucks. i have a friend. his name is phineas / finny. i hate him. but hes my friend. i really hate him. i hate him so much that we made a club called the "super secret society of the summer session" or something. the club is really dumb. i hate it. but im finny's best friend, so we jump off trees for fun at the club. one day i decided i hate finny a lot. so i jounce the tree. finny falls and breaks his leg. i realize i did something bad. so i go save him. finny is stupid. he fails school but hes uber buff. he can swim a 100 meter freestyle in less than 50 seconds. but i dont care. he wont accept that i made him fall. stupid fool. then he comes back and he forces me to do olympic stuff. he wants me to go join the olympics. im a skinny retarded genius boy that studies all day. i have no chance to join the olympics but i just practice to please finny. i feel guilty. another one of my friend / enemies is leper. hes a stupid french guy. he goes to war. he goes crazy. he comes back and he scares me. i fun away. th eonly person i want to talk to is finny. but i hate him. oh well. stupid boy. finally realizes i made him fall off the tree. so he falls off the stairs and dies. the end. im sad. because he was my friend. but im also happy because i hate finny and i hate people. its a long paragraph. Does your weblog own you? i have no plans, and nothing to prove, either. yea! im so cool. different names yield different results. and they seem to all suck. i seem to like to show off a lot. even with "abe". its also showoff. oh well.
its late.
its morning. or early. depends on one's point of view. i think its late. insomnia strikes me down. i ponder too much at night. i should sleep more. but i dont. too bad. speech and debate pisses me off. annoying speech and debaters. talk too much about it. annoying. i dont care about speech and debate. its dumb. who cares about people's TI, HI, DI, OI, or whatever I's. they are just stupid things. i dont care whether one places or something at some big tournament at SCU or some league crap. stop talking about. go practice to yourself. dont go around bragging. nobody cares. at least i dont. dont try to get people to praise you. if u think ur good. then ur good, and shutup. if u think you suck. then practice more. and shutup. stupid speech and debaters. talk too much. but i guess thats the point of speech and debate. funny. i write about speech and debate at 1 in the morning. during weekdays i cant wait for weekends. when the weekend comes, i miss the weekday. i contradict myself Friday, December 12, 2003
eh. nothing important today.
who cares. lets see what to write. i dont like tutoring. actually i haven't tutored at all. my stupid tutee wont show up. hm. i realized i never say goodbye when i leave. does it matter? i dont care. chinese school is stupid. paine from ffx-2 has cool hair. i wish i had hair like her. but im a boy. and shes a girl. so it wouldn't be a good idea to have hair like her. and her hair would be impossible to make because shes computerized and computerized hair can do anything. stay in weird positions. i want cool hair. but my hair is just normal hair. not really. because boy hair is almost nonexistant. why do people cut their hair so short? stupidity. Thursday, December 11, 2003
i wonder. why blogger is weird.
oh well. it will do. screw greymatter.
i have decided to go make a blogger because i screwed up my wonderful greymatter by doing something. now it wont work. blogger will be a good substitute. stupid greymatter. oh well.
Monday, December 01, 2003
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