my website expires in about 55 days. should i buy it again? i could always go back to geocities. and then i could post this blog on blogspot. and then all my movies as downloadable executable files on filefront or something. pondering. maybe ill just keep it. or.. i could buy a server computer and set up my own server. and really really control it. but then a bunch of electricity would be wasted and i would need a dedicated connection. so that doesn't work. what shall i do? i want to change to another host, but i dont know if they are good or not. fuitad.net has interesting stuff. i like it. but then i dont have any reviews. whereas hasweb.com has like a 93% rating on some hosting finder thing. what shall i do? study for aguilera test. that makes more sense. but my mind wanders and i started writing the lab report. and lab reports are so mathy, which reminds me to do math homework. and i dont like derivatives. and derivatives reminds me of asking john jiang for help and then that reminds me of a person that bought my merchandise, which brings me back to my site. so my mind is wandering in circles and circles dont get me anywhere, unless my circles aren't really circles and they have a little angle and ill move slowly. and angle my way around. and that reminds me of angular velocity, which reminds of math, which reminds me of lunch, which reminds me of the class after which is world history. world history reminds me of boredom and art history projects that were started last semester and essays to memorize. then all that reminds me of stress that i shouldn't have because its not going to be done until the last minute anyways. which reminds me of the word procrastination, which reminds me of my parent's wanting of me to memorize vocabulary, which reminds me of their wanting of me to do well on PSATs and SATs and national merit. which reminds me that i have 1 month 1 day before i take SAT II Math IIC test. which reminds me of math again. and the circle continues.

maybe my mind's wandering in circles does go somewhere.

what the. the school called me. that automatic recording thing. it said "the following has been recorded for your student" then it hung up. what a stupid automated machine.

oh my. apparently im doing 100 backstroke for the swim meet on friday. which means. ill never finish the race. and the meet will go on forever. why!? why backstroke!? i cant even do a 25. this sucks. suddenly, my flipturn changed today at practice. i used to turn to the left. now i turn to the right. and its making me get confused.

apparently aguilera's mother in law died today. so the test was postponed. its ironic how the loss of someone else's life saved my life

i decided to release my ich will video. its just like the original rammstein ich will video! except its all drawn out! albert gave me idea. its about robbing a bank if you wanted to know.

i watched romeo must die at my grandparents house. it was on superstation and it was all censored. 'no shoot' funny. then we came home halfway in the movie and then apparently my house doesn't have superstation, so im posting an entry i wouldn't have posted if it weren't for those tv people that decided to not give me my superstation. bah.

a new depressing sad movie. that has no sense. no humor. a boring flash. dont watch it. i released it because i just made it.

hihowistheday: wow a peaceful ending
hihowistheday: scary..
hihowistheday: I was expecting blood

saturdays are boring. i dislike saturdays. and sundays. i dont like school. but i dont like weekends either. when theres not much to do. not much hw. nothing to do. boredom strikes. when theres an english test, i normally panic and study like crazy. but this time theres no book. so i CANT study. and im stuck with sparknotes and junk. then i finish homework. and theres even less things to do. i have nothing to do. nothing amuses me. i cant amuse myself. im tired of myself. amuse me. ill write my own theory. and ill be famous. ill call my theory the abraham theory. it will be in text books. ill be happy.

hihowistheday: why don't you do something productive..
azN xrE taRD BOI: like what?
hihowistheday: find a cure for cancer

i see its friday. and people have plans to go places and junk and go play. instead im stuck here. i feel lonely. dont pity me. goodbye.

kurt cobain killed himself. now some random company is earning money by selling copies of his journal. i guess people like reading journals of psycho bipolar freaks. so i have a plan to get rich. ill start a band. make it marvelous and seem like everything is happy. ill be the one in the band with a bunch of problems and weird issues. then fake a death with a shotgun in the mouth. 2pac style. ill hide somewhere. and have a company sell copies of my blog. of course, then it would have to be taken offline and printed. the company would give me the money and ill be rich!. but then i would have to hide well, and i couldn't spend my money. and i could have a movie about me. i would be super rich in the sewers. and i could emerge one day and people would start a new religion because i would have came back to life. and i will be rich. and then i would really die.

i learned something in math class. "smart people are never bored". does the opposite thing work? does it mean "stupid people are always bored"? does the statement work the other way around or is it an 'if and only if' statement? are people that are never bored, smart? hm. i dont know. i must be stupid though. and i am. so its true. i cant disprove.

how are we going to study for 'things fall apart' without the books? i thought i could just pay for my book because i had a bloody nose and its all soaked up. i even asked the depository. but they said it was okay. and just took the book back. bah. i wish i could have the book. now i have nothing to study with except for lit logs which i dont even write things of sense because aguilera doesn't read them. bah. i apologize to anyone if you get my book. and theres a symmetric blood stain because i closed the book when it was wet and it made a beautiful abstract painting. so apologies if you get it. its not my fault.

career day was interesting. i got both computer career things. so it was a guaranteed boring day. i was in rooms with a bunch of weird nerdy people. they just asked questions about stock options and internships and all this junk i did not understand. i thought they were weird. but then i realized i was part of the group of people in the room, so i stopped thinking they were weird. then suddenly, this indian boy that looked quite nerdy was wearing a 'mastodon' shirt. it was hard imagining this kid listening to raving, angry, psychopathic, killing, masochistic, incoherently screaming psychos. but then i listen to rammstein and korn and an occasional slipknot or mudvayne, so one shouldn't judge another by its cover.

oh my. 'the polyphonic spree' has a new video! lets all hop over to launch.yahoo.com to listen and support this band of 20 hippies singing about happiness and joy. and fighting the emo people of this world! ... or at least thats what i hope they are doing. "follow the day and reach for the sky". they are so inspirational! yea!

cool. im so balanced. they are all so close to 50%.

kevin is retarded. he thinks its pronounced asap and not A dot S dot A dot P. silly boy.

i had a weird dream. i was drunk. then suddenly it was lunch and i was teaching someone derivatives. !!!. then i was ditching swimming. and i went to play badminton on the tennis courts with a pe class. then i was swimming. and i woke up. the end.

kevin is retarded. this class is funny. what a sad waste of a 1/2 day. bah.

i made these 2 images in this class..





its beautiful.
i cant type.
i learned how to add images to my site today.
wow.
difficult.

i had the best dreams last night. i was so happy. everything was going so nicely. i loved my life. everything was so happy. then i woke up. AHH. why couldn't i have been in a coma and lived my fake happy life!?

things fall apart is probably the worst book i have ever read. the only thing i learned about is the culture of africa. and thats about it. its just about some guy named okonkwo. he is a polygamist and has 3 wives. he eats yams. he likes to farm. he hates his son. he wishes his daughter was a male. he hates white people. he likes fighting. he kills a white guy. he hangs himself. theres nothing to learn! besides the fact that most african names either start with a vowel or a 'n'. nothing. absolutely nothing. how can the author win an award?

i am sick. my stomach hurts. the pain. i need to make it go away. i dont want to miss school. school is too stupid to miss. must sleep. must do all the hw that is due tomorrow. then leave the rest of the hw for some other time. pain. ahh.

stop complaining about school you overachievers. you chose your classes. you chose your own suffering. you chose to get all those hard teachers that give tests every other day. you chose to get the hard classes. you chose to get 2 hours of hw from each class. you chose to do a sport and speech. you got yourself into your own mess. so stop complaining. its your own fault. and stop complaining about school if you believe its good for your college transcript. you should be happy. dont think your very asian parents forced you to take the classes. your parents dont choose your classes. you circled the class. you chose the pain and agony. now stop complaining. its your fault. pah. overachievers.

i like talking to people. but at the same time i dont like talking to people. i like talking to people because.. well, it gives something to do and it kills time. i don't like talking to people because theres nothing to talk about. because im a person that cant think of anything to talk about and life is too plain to have anything to talk about. so my knowledge is very limited and i talk about the same thing over and over again. and it bores people and myself. so i dont like talking. but i like talking. and i contradict myself.

its interesting. for 3 years in a row. someone has died from school each year. 8th grade had death from september 11 attack. 9th grade had some guy die from complications from surgery. and this year. today. some guy getting stabbed to death. eh. death is too common now. a little person only pretends to die.

my 2nd attempt at something good. with rammstein's seemann. its a long song.

i have a future career in the field of gardening. i can be a gardener. today i helped my dad dig up all the trees and add better soil and all that junk. my whole hands hurt now from using the pick and shovel. and i like rammstein. the end.

i think all medicines in this world are placebos. they are all fake and the healing is psychological. thats what i believe. especially those feeling medicines designed to break a person free of depression or a.d.d. a person will think taking a medicine like zoloft will make them feel happy. so they will be happy! so pretend my site is a medicine for you to break free of whatever feeling you are feeling. and you wont feel whatever you're feeling anymore! the miracles of placebos.

i had a really confusing dream that i was in a concentration camp or something. then i was rewiring my computer network. and then i was installing hardware. then i was running from a giant bird that was stalking me. my dreams digress.

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swimming is tiring. i swim 50 free, 200 free relay, and 400 free relay. for 50. i swim okay. i beat the time monsees wants me to get by 2 seconds. im happy. 200 relay. i get about the same time, but then i false start. bah. and the 400 free relay, we got first because there was only 3 people. so we win. but it didn't count. not fair. oh well. tired.

d r i f t m r: cry
d r i f t m r: mourn
d r i f t m r: dress in black
d r i f t m r: emo-fied
d r i f t m r: suicide
d r i f t m r: hey it rhymes!

BeatingIt2Hard: Are you depressed?
azN xrE taRD BOI: no
BeatingIt2Hard: Are you sure?
azN xrE taRD BOI: yes
BeatingIt2Hard: Are you going to massacre your fellow classmates?
azN xrE taRD BOI: yea
azN xrE taRD BOI: someday
BeatingIt2Hard: You seem like one of those people.

i killed two birds with one rock. two personal flashes smashed in one. let us applaud for justin and jacek. two in one. double the deal. double the fun. in 1/2 the time. yay.!

i was viewing my site stats and junk. i found out the most people visit on wednesday. not weekends.. but wednesday. makes no sense. and also, the average time spent on my site is 5.5 minutes. most people go on for below 30 seconds. but then total of 9 people since january have stayed on my site for over 1 hour. so averages to 5.5. its really weird. and this site thing also tells me the common links that link to my site and what keywords searched on yahoo finds my site. somehow all my hosted people got linked from animalsex.com or something. really weird.

its funny how the lunch lady knows me.

Q: how do you know michael jackson is having a party?
A: You see a bunch of tricycles in his front yard.

swim meet tomorrow. yay. time to drown. watch people go fast. except me.

so justin gave me a wonderful copy of vater by rammstein. now i can enjoy all the songs in high quality almost cd quality! but the cd sucks! all these silly remixes that are just the song played twice with added drum beats! the only worthy remixes are feuer frei and ich will. then theres serbia and the minimix. 2 new songs! but too bad the cd is bootleg. oh well.

(A scene at City Hall in San Francisco )

"Next."

"Good morning. We want to apply for a marriage license."

"Names?"

"Tim and Jim Jones."

"Jones? Are you related? I see a resemblance."

"Yes, we're brothers."

"Brothers? You can't get married."

"Why not? Aren't you giving marriage licenses to same gender couples?"

"Yes, thousands. But we haven't had any siblings. That's incest!"

"Incest?" No, we are not gay."

"Not gay? Then why do you want to get married?"

"For the financial benefits, of course. And we do love each other. Besides, we don't have any other prospects."

"But we're issuing marriage licenses to gay and lesbian couples who've been denied equal protection under the law. If you are not gay, you can get married to a woman."

"Wait a minute. A gay man has the same right to marry a woman as I have. But just because I'm straight doesn't mean I want to marry a woman. I want to marry Jim."

"And I want to marry Tim, Are you going to discriminate against us just because we are not gay?"

"All right, all right. I'll give you your license. Next."

"Hi. We are here to get married."

"Names?"

"John Smith, Jane James, Robert Green, and June Johnson."

"Who wants to marry whom?"

"We all want to marry each other."

"But there are four of you!"

"That's right. You see, we're all bisexual. I love Jane and Robert, Jane loves me and June, June loves Robert and Jane, and Robert loves June and me. All of us getting married together is the only way that we can express our sexual preferences in a marital relationship."

"But we've only been granting licenses to gay and lesbian couples."

"So you're discriminating against bisexuals!"

"No, it's just that, well, the traditional idea of marriage is that it's
just for couples."

"Since when are you standing on tradition?"

"Well, I mean, you have to draw the line somewhere."

"Who says? There's no logical reason to limit marriage to couples. The more the better. Besides, we demand our rights! The mayor says the constitution guarantees equal protection under the law. Give us a marriage license!"

"All right, all right. Next."

"Hello, I'd like a marriage license."

"In what names?"

"David Deets."

"And the other man?"

"That's all. I want to marry myself."

"Marry yourself? What do you mean?"

"Well, my psychiatrist says I have a dual personality, so I want to marry the two together. Maybe I can file a joint income-tax return."

"That does it! I quit!! You people are making a mockery of marriage!!"

if there is a relationship between two people at school. does it make them pedophiles? becuase usually, people in high school are still considered minors. so if two people have a relationship. they are attracted to each other. and then they are attracted to minors. and then they are pedophiles! pedophiles everywhere!

i just realized yesterday was the ides of march. what a wonderful day.

ich hast kopfleid.
das Messer in mein kopf.
ow. kopfschuss.

translation:
i have headache
the knife in my head
ow. headshot.

yes i know. i have a goggle tan. stop telling me stuff i already know. its caused by being in the sun for 2 hours a day everyday. and the original whiteness is from being inside for 3 years or so. ha. but why is it called raccoon mask? raccoons have black around their eyes. not white. silly swimming people.

"Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do so, you apologize for the truth."
- Disraeli


BeatingIt2Hard: Go get a girlfriend.
azN xrE taRD BOI: fine
BeatingIt2Hard: Rub it in and make Rei feel like shit.
BeatingIt2Hard: Make him feel hated and unloved.

the emo anthem. go listen to it. yay. evil squirrels.

how can one prove they exist? they cant. what if they are just part of the imagination of another person. and they dont exist. and then what if that person person 1 is the imagination of is part of the imagination of another person. and that person is the imagination of another. and this whole world exists of a web of people imagining each other. and then everyone exists in each others minds. but dont exist in reality. and people are imagining others imagining others. and its an endless cycle. and this world is connected through a bunch of imagination. and nothing really exists. so therefore this world exists. and everyone exists. or something.

yi san san qi: I farted and then my dog ran away.

today is pi day. every march 14, it is pi day. march 14 because it is 3.14. it is celebrated at MIT at 1:59 PM. what nerds.

my uncle.. came over from east coast. and we ate dinner and played with fire. we tried to make a crayon into a candle. didn't work very well. thats all that really happens. he is good at flash. the end.

jiang and john has flash now. might want to watch. maybe not.

according the the history book used in bergantz, the berlin wall has not fallen yet. and germany is still divided. russia is still called the soviet union. and there are many countries missing in europe. oh well. i think ms bergantz should start using newer books.

do things really fall apart? of course they do. anything that ages will slowly fall apart. they will disintegrate and slowly break apart and become part of dirt again. everything! some things just take longer to fall apart. colors will fade, then if it is an organic thing, worms will grow and munch away. if its not organic, then it will get weathered and bits and pieces will break apart through erosion. and then everything has fallen apart! what a stupid book. talk about stating the obvious.

my feet are wet. i put on my socks before my feet were dry. and im stuck in computer class. and my feet are wet and fungus are going to grow. mushrooms are going to sprout out of my feet and it will be heaven for mr. bowen. computer class is boring. analyzing feet are cool.

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You are Bruce Lee.
you like to take charge. be an individual and leader. you have the abilities
to do mind boggling feats,

yet you are forever cursed by ur ancestors. you are as wise as the dragon and
as fierce as the tiger.

you also enjoy practicing martial arts and kicking ass!

i seem to always feel like i forget something. i dont know what. i just feel very forgetful all the time. i wish i could figure out what im forgetting. but i cant think of anything. i wish i could just forget my forgetfulness and not forget anything. then i will feel super happy. and stop worrying about the things i forget. but cant remember what they are.

I want to be left alone.
I want to escape to a place where no one knows me.
That I'm wrong about that, that it's my fault,
is all my heart has. I don't need tomorrow.

is it possible to piss like theres not tomorrow? some people think so. however, i believe it will never happen! if a person pisses like theres no tomorrow, then time will freeze and tomorrow will never come. but, tomorrow is always there. its only a day away. so if a person pisses like theres no tomorrow. time will freeze the second a drop of piss drops out and everyone will be stuck in a frozen time. and it would be painful. thats why, people cant piss like that. the end.

i downloaded the last samurai and it turns out its in german. with russian subtitles! more reason to learn german.

my sister is emo. she asked me to burn some story of the year cd. and all the songs are so funny. so sad and suicidal titles. he screams funny. emo music makes me happier. i laugh. its funny.

if you could be stuck with constant feelings of hate or depression, would you rather be hateful or depressed? hateful. always angry. hating the world. or depressed. sad. thinks the whole world dislikes them. i personally would like to be hateful. i would take my anger on others, instead of myself. whereas if one was depressed, they would usually take the sadness on themselves. so better them than me.

would you rather be burned to death or frozen to death? i would rather be burned. instead of slowly freezing to death in a block of ice, i would be charred to ashes. and if i were frozen to death, my image would be forever preserved and my ugly frozen death face would haunt the world forever. thats why burning would be cooler. plus, if i were burned to death, there would be a chance im in a rammstein concert and their pyro just went out of hand, so i die happy. but what if it was super slow death. like burning to death with a match or cigarette lighter in a car and continuous freezing and thawing. then i dont know which i would pick.

you silly people. the milkshake song isn't about any dirty stuff. its about waiting at the local mcdonalds. about the fierce competition of milkshakes between mcdonalds and burger king.

"i can teach you, but i have to charge" - shows that they will not give each other secrets to making good milkshakes.
"I know you want it, the thing that makes me, what the guys go crazy for.They lose their minds, the way i wind,i think its time" - is about the brain freeze from the cold milkshake. thats why people go crazy and lose their minds.
and the chorus "la la-la la la, warm it up. lala-lalala, the boys are waiting" - its obviously about the slow service at the fast food resturant.

its similar to the rammstein "rein raus" (in out) song.

"I am the rider you are the horse I climb on we ride off you moan I whisper to you an elephant in the eye of a needle"- its obviously the guy talking to his pet horse. since he's an amish, he doesn't use cars. so he climbs on his horse and rides off to the local in'n'out. the horse moans because of the obese amish guy sitting on him.
"I have the key you have the lock the door opens I enter life can be so splendorous" - obviously, the amish works at the local in'n'out and has the key to opening the door. he can then earn money and life can be splendorous.
"In, out! Deeper, deeper Say it! Say it loud! deeper, deeper I am well within your skin and a thousand elephants break out" - so people rush into his resturant and buy food to eat. they chant inout because it is the store name. and request for the manager to get the fries that are deeper in the pit, so its more greasy and oily. and what is well beneath the skin are pimples. and they break out from all that fat!

HA. and you thought u understood those people.

its funny how william hung has a "celebrity crush" on ayumi hamasaki as stated in the school newspaper. maybe he has a chance now, since they are both famous. but then ayumi is a lesbian. at least i think so. the cover for "a ballads" has herself kissing herself. and then one of her songs: "M" is about loving some girl named maria. what a weirdo. just like william hung. they are meant for each other.

marc's second flash. is done. the end.

Fate is when you meet the partner of your dreams, write their phone number on the back of a raffle ticket, win a toaster with the raffle ticket and hand in the ticket, therefore losing the telephone number and therefore your soulmate. Fate sucks.

today, i opened up a computer that had been sitting around my house for quite a long time. i found wonderful stuff inside. the computer was a pentium original! 90 mhz! top of the class about 10 years ago, when it was first manufactured. the soundcard was cool. it was the size of the motherboard. by creative. its the super old what would be now audigy.. it was called a sound blaster awe32. and the videocard was really weird. i dont even know what it was. the ram is different. its different sizes. its so cool. i like that computer. i saved all the parts. im going to degrade my computer to that computer.

oh yes. a few days ago. i saw two license plates. one had "KM" somewhere on the license plate. and the car next to it had "FDM". what a coincidence. KMFDM!

how cool. i got spam mail saying i could get three free panties! what a deal! im going to order them!

a quick faq to answer any conversation starting people:
it will be in the format of "saying something" - "my response"

"hi" - "hi"
"how was ur day?" - "decent"
"how do you do?" - "i am fine"
"what was homework?" - "i dont know"
"whats up?" - "nothing is up."
"hows life?" - "decent"
"what are you doing?" - "nothing"

so if ur in doubt about what my reply will be. refer to this.

swimming. is painful. slowest in all races! yea! my dives suck! my turns suck! i freeze in this weather. i cannot swim at all! why does monsees make me do fly? that psycho. makes me feel sad. oh well. i dive too deep. i swim too deep. i couldn't lift my head out for some reason. i was either too tired or stupid. so i swam the first 25 of my fly without breath. and i died. and then when i tried to breathe, i choked and dropped down into the water. so i got last! yea!

and theres a silly boy on the swim team. bringing his 'reading material', which consisted of maxim, stuff, and sports illustrated swimsuit edition. silly boy. so many magazines. what a sick person.

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my dreams are getting really random and stupid now. i had a dream i went on a field trip to some beach, and to get to the ocean, one had to jump over a bunch of logs. and if you fell and missed a log, you went into the water infested with giant flesh eating otters. very weird. i watched people miss and get attacked. i never jumped myself. my dreams are mostly in first person. not third person.. only when something happens to me, such as im flying, or falling, im in third person. when i have a conversation, its in second person. my dreams go crazy. i could write a book. and get rich and famous because of my dreams. i liked my dreams way back then. when i was young. and all my dreams were about flying and i would jump around houses because i could fly. it was wonderful. but now. i am attacked by all these retarded dreams.

ahh! i dont want to swim tomorrow!. its horrible. swim meet. AHHH!. not fly! not all that free. evil junk. oh wait. i get to skip bergantz. wonderful.

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that assembly about boys and girls changed my life. since i was marked absent from 2nd period because of it. i was called into the office. that bookmark was very useful. it was my proof i was at the assembly and not ditching. stupid attendance people.

BeatingIt2Hard: I like to use big words on beaners.
BeatingIt2Hard: They get confused and walk away.

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ha. what weirdness.

it makes no sense!
i get spam emails advertising spam email blocking programs. what a contradiction.