ahh! omg. my life makes no sense. im confused. unconfuse me. i am confused. techno is funny. its just repetitive beats. i used to like techno. now its just really boring and dull. rock is funny also. its a bunch of power chords and angry people. or sad depressed people. no one is happy. except for pink floyd. but they were 30 years ago. and now everyone is sad. it must because everything makes no sense. did things make sense before 30 years ago? is that why pink floyd was a happy band? hm. why would things suddenly stop making sense? they never did in the first place. what am i talking about? yay. what? i like to eat beef. its better than chicken. i think. i like ice. its better than fire. paper burns at 451 degrees fahrenheit. stupid fahrenheit. celsius is better. paper burns at 232.777777777... degrees celsius. that is 505.77777777... kelvin. i like kelvin because i hate negatives. and i hate fractions. and decimals. why cant this world live on whole numbers? instead they have to make some stupid theory about infinite things between 2 things. so they have to make decimals. life would make more sense if it was only whole numbers. and thats brings me back to my original point of sad or angry music. its because they had decimals. and they got confused. so people either got angry or sad. and most people are sad. because thats how people are. and i hate everyone. bye.

today. i cut bamboo in my backyard. bamboo is a funny word. bam boo. now it doesn't even seem like i spelt it write. is it spelt or spelled? hm. english is funny. i cut my bamboos up. and made long sticks. now i can whack anyone that comes near me. and i also invented an instrument with those sticks. i call it '2 sticks' instrument. in the summer ill write a song.

troy is a funny movie. what a foolish orlando bloom. the whole war was caused because of him. if he just died, then the war would have ended. and he just had to kill achilles. with his bow and arrow. which is stupid because he never uses a sword. what a wuss. has to be ranged. the movie is 2 hours 42 minutes of comedy. i laughed most of the movie, probably because it was late at night and i wasn't thinking anymore.

"helen pwned troy for an extra 100 gold"

right now, i am doing this lovely web design final. the final is to make a site for a space burial company. its very fun. im going to bury everyone in space.

have you ever felt happy and depressed at the same time? like something is so sad, but its happy? or something is so happy, but its so sad? or something? neither have i.

i hate my memory. it sucks. i cant remember anything. if you want proof, look at my english test scores. but then my memory remembers everything that i dont want to remember. so my mind is cluttered with useless junk. i wish i could reformat my brain like my computer, but then i would need to backup important files in my brain, such as my name. that would be fun forgetting one's name for a day.

i hate having medium lengthed hair. when hair is short and the wind blows, theres no hair to be blown around. when hair is long, the hair is too long and heavy to be blown around. but when its medium length, it will fly around then get stuck. i hate hair.

apparently, tomorrow is crazy hair day for spirit week junk.

i had this insanely cool post i was going to post, but then i forgot what it was. so im sad. my life sucks. i cant remember. im sad. ahHH!H!!H. my memory sucks. i cant remember. what am i writing here for!? ahhhh. whatever.

i just saw the saddest song video. and i am shocked to find how they put these kids through such torture. i am not talking about how they have no fathers. i am talking about how they are put into converses. and they are like only 5 years old. they are so innocent. evil band.

Admiral Katay: hey
Auto response from azN xrE taRD BOI: away.
Admiral Katay: you arent really away
Admiral Katay: you are probably right in front of yor desk
Admiral Katay: sitting there
Admiral Katay: starign at hte screen
Admiral Katay: thinking
Admiral Katay: "maybe if I put an away message up someoen will talk to me!"
Admiral Katay: well here I am
Admiral Katay: exaclty what youve wanted
Admiral Katay: dont be shy.
Admiral Katay: ok buddy, your loss.
Admiral Katay: but really putting up an away message is NOT a good way to strike up a conversation

life is like tetris. everything is wonderful. lines are being destroyed, then some stupid piece comes and it doesn't fit anywhere. and then you lose. or if you're really good, you can somehow do something.

happy birthday unpurposed.com

1 year celebration!

because you read my blog, you will die someday. if you don't believe me. ill bet you. stupid butterfly effect. i had a math test today. its going to rain in malaysia. i went to web design class today. the gophers in africa are going insane. my computer monitor is on. people are dying.

if you hate your life so much, why are you still alive? why haven't you killed yourself already? if you hate your parents so much, why haven't you ran away already? is it because you are afraid that your life might get better? and you dont want to miss your life? why dont you people do something if you hate your life so much? instead you accept life is like that and you dont do anything. if you hate the world so much, do something. lazy people.

apparently, every person has a box of matches in their body. well, thats what the movie 'like water for chocolate' thing said. and it talked about love making fire. and some other stuff. it was weird. it made no sense at all. at least to me. oh well. matches are cool. i like fire. its cooler than water. but fire is safer than water. water is more dangerous to fire. but water is more easily escaped. hm. this world is weird.

in english we watched some spanish movie called 'like water for chocolate' or something like that. it was supposed to be like 'bless me, ultima' but it has no similarities besides both being spanish. in the movie, some girl eats a quail and then takes a shower. and then the shower is on fire and she runs out naked. then some vaquero person picks her off and she becomes a prostitute. what a funny story. it makes no sense at all. the food is crazy.

once i had a dream that i won the lottery, and they gave me the prize in postage stamps. but before claiming the prize, i had to run through a safari.

d0Nk3x: hypocrit at its best
d0Nk3x: i worship death
d0Nk3x: but too afraid to commit it

what a sad depressing day. i dont even know why it is. i just state it is. so it is. the sun didn't come up today. actually it did, just covered by clouds. the clouds are stupid. i hate clouds. they are stupid water molecules that are created to annoy the sun from getting rays to the earth. but here comes the sun. its the brightest star of all. it will never fall from the sky. hm. how can it fall from the sky. it cant. its just stating the obvious. what is the sky? if it is the earth's sky, of course not. gravity cant pull a sun towards it. the sun is too big. what holds the sun in its place? or is it really always moving? and the planets just move with it? the universe its infinite. there must be some huge piece of rock to have enough gravity to hold this whole world together. but there isn't. whatever. the world loudly counts to ten

eins, zwei, drei, vier, funf, sechs, sieben, acht, neun, zehn

is the sun coming up today?

ein kleine Herz: of all the changs I know
ein kleine Herz: you are my favorite
ein kleine Herz: or maybe
ein kleine Herz: just the one I hate the least

why do people work hard? why do people try to do well in school? why do parents pressure their kids? why do people overachieve? why do people thrive for better? hm. is there really an answer to these questions? i pondered only to find there really is no point. and then they go into depression. so why do people do so? because people just do this naturally. life is funny. and people complain about things they do naturally. oh well.

originally, i was going write a song, but i decided not to. so here were my lyrics.

there is no deep meaning, stop pondering
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a little boy eating peas
he looks at the tree
and rabid gophers bite him
he doesn't fight back

he is too sad
too weak
too meek
too stupid.

life sucks
im sad
oh well
too bad
cuz im so sad. no one can break me from this depression. people hate me.
im different from everyone. people dont see me. im dressed in black.
oh well. too bad.

he wrapped himself in some cheese
the cold rain heats him up
psycho clowns pop out of the mountain
and start to dance an irish jig
then he fell down
and the birds started to attack
paper airplanes started to fly
and the bananas exploded

life sucks
im sad
oh well
too bad
cuz im so sad. no one can break me from this depression. people hate me.
im different from everyone. people dont see me. im dressed in black.
oh well. too bad.

he swallowed all of his pencils
erasers shards shot out of his brain
german fish turned mexican
the world is collapsing
minor chords take over the world
depression in everyone's mind

life sucks
im sad
oh well
too bad
cuz im so sad. no one can break me from this depression. people hate me.
im different from everyone. people dont see me. im dressed in black.
oh well. too bad.

oh well. too bad.
oh well. too bad.

thanks to ms bergantz, i now have a paper that has a self-evaluation. since it might actually become somewhat useful sometime, i guess ill answer a question a day or something.

6. What experiences have shaped your growth and way of thinking?

Going to high school has changed me. Life is different. yay.

i watched the ring 546 days ago. that means i was supposed to die 539 days ago. but i didn't! ill sue the ring producers for false advertisement! its not fair. this sucks.

yay! i got an 800! no more math 2c sat! im happy.

i drank a 2 liter bottle of dr pepper today.
it was lovely.

my site is back up. i like the new host.

new reality sucks

finally, a new movie about a poor kid that is lost in this world. and has weird happy dreams. made with the pink floyd song "wish you were here"

i feel.. so weird. i feel like im trapped in a room. but im not. i feel like im stuck in a box from which i cannot escape out of. i feel uncomfortable in this little box and i cannot make myself feel better. its weird. it is like i feel uncomfortable in my own skin, but i cant do anything about it. unless i peel my skin off. but that would be unnecessary.

yi san san qi: LET'S PICK OUR DRESSES FOR PROM
yi san san qi: YAY

for mothers day i wrote a song for my mother
i wrote it today.
when i was randomly hitting the guitar.

theres only 13 more days of unpurposed.com before expiration!



non conformist!


new reality sucks

swim meet. yay! dq from 50 fly. apparently i didn't use both hands. but they never gave me my disqualification paper. i want my disqualification paper. those evil people. i want to frame it and put it on my wall. my backstroke was okay. then i eat at lee's sandwiches. good stuff. now swimming is over. and i got sun burnt. oh well. who cares. now im going to teach myself guitar and then start to play my song i just wrote randomly.

if i hadn't moved a long time ago, i would have gone to independence and i would have become a gangster and wore all black. but thankfully im not.

BeatingIt2Hard: IF PEOPLE SAY TV IS BAD FOR YOU!! THEN WHY DO THEY HAVE THEM IN EVERY ROOM IN HOSPITALS?!
BeatingIt2Hard: THAT IS HOW HOSPITALS GET MONIES!
BeatingIt2Hard: THE PATIENTS THINK TV IS OKAY!
BeatingIt2Hard: SO THEY WATCH IT AT HOME!
BeatingIt2Hard: And then.
BeatingIt2Hard: When they get fat.
BeatingIt2Hard: They get heart problems.
BeatingIt2Hard: And have to come back!
BeatingIt2Hard: $$$

on the way back from swimming, i sat on the bus next to some ex-emo kid. he showed me his emo music. so i sat and sang emo music with him. it was like karaoke. he had a spliter and i had headphones, so there were 3 people plugged into this afi cd. and he got out the little booklet and it had the lyrics so we sang along. it was wonderful. the lyrics dont make any sense. but people think they have hidden meanings, thats why emo music is popular. finding a meaning to something that has no meaning at all. im going to write a song.

i have had weird dreams about tetris. i had a dream that i was playing tetris, and it was really detailed. i could see each block falling down and me fitting them together and playing really long games. and i break my high score over and over again. my dreams are weird.

today was last day of swim practice. yay.

new reality sucks

oh my. i have a bee hive starting next to my window. what shall i do? shall i kill it with a stick? or shall i let it grow? if i ever need a dose of honey, i can just stick my hand out the window and get some. life is so lovely.

whenever i read a magazine. i read from the last page. i read in reverse. it seems like magazines put all the good content in the last few pages. the first few pages are always letters and boring junk. so i read from the back of the magazine. i read time magazine today. i learned of this loner guy that writes music. he seems pretty miserable. and hes depressed. oh well. he writes songs and he hates people. then i read more backwards. then there was an article about skinheads and neo-nazi's. what interesting stuff to read. and bless me, ultima is a boring book. silly people talking in spanish. stupid owls. stupid farmers. bah.

swim meets are horrible on mondays. what useless junk. stupid oak grove pool is too shallow. i hit the bottom. on my flipturn. not my dive. weird. stupid santa teresa and their too small pool. making us go to oak grove. nothing to do. so walk to the gas station. buy stuff. swimming is almost over.

at least i got out of bergantz.

my sister talks on the phone for hours at a time. what is there really to talk about for hours? nothing. life gets dull eventually. or maybe im just a loser.

sometimes the people on swim team are really annoying. sometimes they will have heated debates about gay marriage and other political junk. today they had a really hateful debate about mac computers. and they both had no real evidence of anything. the thing went like this:
"macs suck"
"why?"
"uh. they crash a lot"
"thats cuz you dont know how to use them, they are good"
"why?"
"uh. because they are good for running programs"
"they suck for games"
and on and on and on.

what happens when a unstoppable object collides into a unmoveable object? lets ponder on that for a moment.

i think it just goes through it and continues going.

i had some dream that i conquered the internet and saved the whole internet into a server in my backyard. then police were chasing me down or something.

the best things in life aren't things.

yesterday, i went to a swim meet. at pioneer. they have awesome ice cream vending machines. its so cool! a vacuum sucks up the ice cream and drops it for you! so cool.

today i went on a chainsaw fury. i chopped a lot of oak tree today. stupid tree in backyard is huge. so hack away. wood flying everywhere. chainsaw grinding. its a loud sound. i think im deaf.

a new reality sucks