my theory on magnets. why do north and south attract? not north to north or south to south. hm. its because of nonconformity. you see. the north knows its the same as all the other north poles, so in order to nonconform they attach to the south. and so the north seems like a nonconformist next to the south. and same with the south. the south wants to get away from other souths so they go to north. and pretend to nonconform because they are different. !. yay.

its funny how everyone but you knows your own voice. it sucks. i hate it.

so the other day, i was taking a shower, then i got soap in my eyes. and the house burned down.

hm. aol has this top speed thing. it supposedly increases speed. all it does is just lower the quality of an image to a big glob. not a blob. a glob. theres a difference. globs are made up of blobs. yes. and they are spelled differently. i found a thing to do while waiting on 56K now. minesweeper! i must beat expert mode. its hard. i got like 1/2 completed, then some stupid landmine killed me. i hate it. bah. ha. bah rhymes with ha. but they show two different feelings.

the greatest griefs are those we cause ourselves. hm. if thats true. then life sucks. because anything you do is a grief that we cause ourselves. HAHHAHA. this solves all the problems of grief. just dont live and you wont cause any grief on yourself!

56K is so slow! i have to use 56K right now because we are going to move our dsl line onto another line. so they say we will not have dsl for a while. so i went to an old computer and opened it and stole the modem and put it in my computer. and installed AOL. cuz its free! 1099 hours for 50 days. thats about 22 hours for each day. hm. ILL GET IT ALL. I WILL USE THIS FREE STUFF TO ITS MAXIMUM POTENTIAL. I WILL BE ASIAN AND STAY ONLINE FOREVER ON 56K!!! but its so slow. 56K is so slow. but it used to be the best thing in the world. remember back then? i dont either.

i hate shoes. i went to buy new shoes today because the current ones fell apart. the bottom has completely fallen off. so i needed new shoes. so i go to big 5 because they are having a shoe sale and its cheap there. i look at the shoes. they have basketball shoes, running shoes, tennis shoes, golf shoes, blah blah. but no shoes for non athletic people like me. so i dont know which category to look in. so eventually i just bought some cheap 20$ basketball shoes. basketball shoes are so fancy looking. why? shoes are for walking around in. not for show. and running shoes have so many different colors. its annoying. they have better shape of shoe though. basketball shoes have a big back area. and basketball shoes are shiny. shiny is bad. it reflects light and is blinding. shoes are weird. i want to walk barefoot.

yesterday i saw some tv show about crop circles and it was very interesting. some people think its hoaxes and some think its aliens. and some think its a government thing. and they were all weird ideas. and some people saw aliens or something when their fields were all messed up. and some linking to cow mutilations and junk. its very weird. bloodless cows. so my theory about crop circles is that the tv show itself is a government thing. and crop circles dont exist! they are just silly ideas made from the government because they feel obligated to entertain the people of the world. poor cows.

dodgeball is fun. at the retreat i am playing a lot of dodgeball and swimming when it is hot. dodgeball rooms should have air conditioning. it is just a little box room and it gets hot very easily. with a bunch of sweaty people running around, it smells and gets hot. and that is all.

hi, i am at a retreat. this computer is cool. i won on the bellyflop contest. yay. i drink tea here. there is 12 varieties. i drink 2 at each meal. so far, i have drunk 8 varieties. i must drink all 12. caffeine is cool. i got 2 hours of sleep. and i am not sleepy. i woke up at 2:30 and sat outside in the cold playing football on my cellphone. i won 28-7. i am happy. yea. that is all.

random things dont happen. so i played some warcraft 3. i put my race on random. and i got 3 orc in a row. the probability of that is 1/64. im never that lucky. thats impossible. so i conclude that blizzard is against me. and always making my win loss a 1:1 ratio. so i always lose after a win. and win after a lose. oh my. i should just stop playing these stupid games.

What will your Funeral be like? by rashock
Username
You will die by:	Terrible animal attack while you were out hiking in the mountains. Seemed that you made good animal food, definately a closed casket.
Death Date:	April 28, 2022
Number attending your funeral?	3
How much will you leave to friends and family?	$183,000
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hm. three people attending my funeral. yay to psycho animals.

at some point, people run out of things to write. so instead of abandoning this blog to write nothing, i will write about how i have nothing to write about. and thats all i have to say. i dont know what to write because i dont like writing about my life. and things aren't interesting anymore. i need school to think of things to write about. i need my brain to move.

life is remarkably boring. i think im an insomniac. when i feel tired. i dont sleep. i stay awake staring at whatever is above me. which is the ceiling. its very boring. i cant really count anything either, because i cant count. and counting is hard. i cant count holes on the ceiling because there aren't any, but if there were, it would be too dark. sheep are stupid. and i dont know what to do. so i walk around. then eventually i bore myself so much, i fall asleep. but insomniacs dont sleep at all, so im not an insomniac.

i think everyone in the world thinks the same. but people want to be nonconforming so they force themselves to be different. and they suggest to themselves. and they become. and the people that dont nonconform want to nonconform but are too lazy to nonconform and are conformers. and its things like this people cannot disprove. because its just random ideas that make no sense. like evolution stuff. you cant disprove or prove.

heres an interesting way to show how people are stupidly mindless conformists. an example is my sister. she listens to her emo music. then suddenly, because one of her friends listen to metallica, she listens to metallica. she even bought a cd. then shes looking around for some thrice cd. but she cant find. so she buys a slipknot cd. and says its good. just because her friends listen. and also system of a down. and all this emo junk. so, she just conforms to whatever everyone listens to because shes stupid like that. and makes decisions without thinking. and she says rammstein is really popular now, but she wont listen to it becuase i do. stupid non-conformist. but then assuming people are like my sister is kind of making fun of everyone.

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	erotic
Your hugs are...	friendly
Your eyes...	sparkle like the stars
Your touch is...	the only thing I desire
Your smell is...	beautiful
Your smile is...	hypnotising
Your love is...	everlasting
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weird. i smell beautiful. if i smile, i can control the world. and who is this "i" in my touch? hm.

Your Suicide.. by Konstantine
Your Name/Username
Favorite Number?
Favorite Color?
Gender?	FemaleMaleUndecidedBoth
How will you commit suicide?	You will drown yourself
How many tries will it take?	40
When will you commit suicide?	October 17, 2044
What will your suicide note say?	The munchkins made me do it!
Quiz created with MemeGen!

wow. this sucks. 40 tries.

there seems to be people that are too sad, happy or angry. so i cant decide which i should be. if im too sad, people will think my life sucks so much when it doesn't suck that bad. and if i were too happy, people would think im just strange (which is a weird thing, because happiness seems to be the best thing, and people hate it). and then there is hate. people will think im having problems. if i was an equal amount of all 3, then i would be just normal. which is too normal. and people hate normal people. so in order to be different, ill be tripolar. ill bounce between all 3. and be happy, then angry, then happy, then sad, then angry. and blah blah. you get it. i think.

i had a weird dream that i was back in pe again. and when i looked in my locker, since i haven't used it for a while, i saw all my clothes in there. and i was amazed. the dentist is weird. that is where i went today. it is scary with those weird disgusting sounds. but i dont care about dentist work. it just tastes weird after. on the road to dentist i see weird license plates. first i see a license plate with 999. then later i see one with 888. then i see one with 5ex. which is weird. life is weird. so are license plates.

everyone is a hypocrite. everyone hates anyone that does things that annoys them (duh). but people that hate also do those things. because people that hate want to be an individual, and hater people that are like them, so they hate people that do things that are similar to them. so everyone hates themselves. so everyone is a hypocrite.
 
if you believed that, the power of suggestion is strong. but then, everything is suggested. even suggesting things is unsuggesting because some people suggest to themselves that the suggestion is wrong and so they believe it is wrong.
 
i dont get any of my writing.

Step 1: Open your MP3/media player.
Step 2: Put all of your music on random.
Step 3: Write down the first fifteen songs it plays, no matter how embarrassing.

1. Metallica - Nothing Else Matters
2. Cannibal Corpse - I will kill you
3. Final Fantasy X - Contest of Aeons
4. Final Fantasy X-2 - Kinpaku
5. Megaherz - Burn
6. Final Fantasy X-2 - Jiin
7. Rammstein - Das Alte Leid
8. DJ Micro - Light up my life
9. Korn - Divine
10. Ayumi Hamasaki - Boys and Girls
11. Rammstein - Sonne (T.K.O. Remix)
12. Rammstein - Spieluhr
13. Rammstein - Seemann
14. Blink 182 - When you Fucked Grandpa
15. Rammstein - Du Hast

yay. so much rammstein. probability was 125/1135 to get a rammstein song. Probability is flawed!. oh my. and theres all that final fantasy x/x2 junk that already takes up like 165 songs.

are we really who we are? some people say no because people make facades to hide themsleves. but if people do hide themselves, they are what they change ourselves to be. because they are what they are seen to be. people cannot be fake because people are real. people are what they make themselves to be. and since they change their real self, they become their fake self and their fake self becomes their real self. and the real self is them. and they can change all they want. and they change. because they want to. and i dont really get what the point of this post is because i cannot write down thoughts because they are too weird to be put in words. and you are what you eat. so eating is bad.

today, after 2 weeks of summer school i have finally done a very wonderful achievement. i got an A on calculus exam 1. theres only 1 more exam and then final. yay!. but thats a stupid achievement. i did something even better today. i got the high score in tetris on albert's calculator. yay! over 15000 pts! im so happy. whatever

i hate glasses. i went to see glasses. and they are so expensive. i like my current glasses. my eyesight sucks. i hate glasses. but i like my glasses.

i dont understand. in relays, the first and last are supposed to be fastest. but if you add up their times, no matter which position they go, its all the same. so why reserve first and last for the fastest? hm. it makes no sense. its very silly. such psychological junk.

Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates a	5
your best quality is	you dont follow the crowd
your worst quality is	nothing! you rock!
this is because	Of the people you hang around
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i had this really weird dream. i knew i was in a dream when i was in a dream. then i had a dream within that dream. so it was weird. i was on some art class. and everyone that was at my table in chem first semester was there. and i got very confused. then i woke up. i wish i was sucked into a black hole. black holes are weird. how can you know if you are sucked into one? because you cant tell you are moving in space. so we could be getting sucked into a black hole. oh well. life is wonderful.

i had this weird dream i was walking through oakridge mall and then suddenly it was an airport in the middle of the ocean. and i walked out and was climbing through those tubes at mcdonalds and then suddenly i was in a game room and people were playing 'mario cards'. they were like magic cards but they had nintendo characters. i was winning. but i woke up.

yesterday i found my retainer. i put it in my mouth and saw that it didn't fit anymore. so it was very weird feeling. i could not talk and all my saliva gathered between my retainer and my mouth. so it was really weird. my retainer is blue. which reminds me of that blue song. about that alien. its such a silly song. but i think there must be a deeper meaning. i think its about racism and how that band thinks they are superior to blue people. and that they want to kill off all the blue people in this world. even in that old music video, they are hurting all the blue aliens. it must mean something.

oh my.
i.dont.know.what.to.write.in.this.blog
i.have.realized.my.life.is.pathetically.stupid.and.there.is.nothing.to.talk.about.
i.can.only.think.about.what.i.could.have.done.
but.i.do.not.
and.i.am.writing.in.a.very.annoying.fashion.
dont.you.think.that.putting.periods.between.each.word.is.stupid?
i?could?use?question?marks?instead.
or!exclamation!marks!instead!
i,am,a,loser.
stop.making!fun?of,me

i had a really weird dream about the first day of school. apparently the school messed up my schedule and i was taking two apush's, english normal and ap. and mah again. also, my chem ap and calc bc was in the same period. it was really weird. from what i remember my schedule was something like this:

1. apush
2. eng
3. mah
4. apush
no lunch
5. eng ap.
6. chem ap, calc bc.

and what was weird was my apush exam was something like subduing an alligator. and the breaks were really weird. i wish i could have a dream recorder and record all my dreams in video like form. with divx and avi compression. then i could view them all day and analyze them.

why do people like to dig holes? do people find joy in working hard to make a dent in the ground? and later covered up by wind blowing dirt. why do people do this!? you go to a beach and people are digging. digging for nothing in particular. people are weird. they like doing things that make no sense. people like to dig for things that they dont know exists.

oh my. theres an illegal gathering in front of my house. they are setting off fireworks and firecrackers. and all that illegal fun stuff. and im getting a seizure. its bad staring into bright flashing lights.

i watched spiderman 2 and it was very weird. apparently being a super hero sucks because then you cant do things and you feel bad when you dont help people when you could. its stupid. its so stupid it made spiderman go emo and he wore his emo glasses. then he didn't want that because he cant make up his mind and so he got buff in 10 seconds and his vision corrected in that same amount of time. then he ran around killing octopus armed people. and to defeat dr. octopus he just had a serious talk with him. somehow he is a therapist and he corrects dr octopus's problem with his arms. and that harry guy that hates spiderman is schizophrenic and sees his father. and its all emo because there was emo music played in the credits.

id like to end this post thanking danny for his lovely german travel airplane magazine thing.

i hate taking showers during the summer. the water gets hot and then it burns because its already hot. and showering is to remove sweat but its useless if one is already sweating. but showering is bad if it is too cold. it freezes. so i dont like showers in the summer. its very annoying. then water gets everywhere because showers have water. and then i hate showers. heck. im never going to take a shower again.


dont take me seriously.

i had a REALLY weird dream.
one day. school ended. and suddenly i went to roskes house. i was very confused. then suddenly the koreans used their starcraft skills and took over canada. with robotic dinosaurs that looked like the trojan horse in Troy. so i was running or something. and those korean robot dinosaurs were chasing me. and i dont get my dreams.