i was going to write some random post about how i should work. but i decided not to. because i didn't know what to write. and i was uninspired to write it. so i deleted it. and started over. and now im writing this. and i am uninspired to write this. my tastes change. my mouth feels weird right now and i dont know why. it feels like the saliva is dissolving my mouth apart, so soon ill have a hole in my mouth. and then ill drool everywhere. and people will think im retarded. some people are weird. like shiina ringo. she covers songs she writes. so its like. the same thing again. its weird.

i like the restroom. but only when i need it. sometimes its just there taking up an extra room. an extra room which could be used for other things. but i cant do anything about it. because everyone likes it sometimes. and what am i talking about. this is an incredibly random thing. yea. whatever. time magazine or newsweek was talking about the randomness of ipods. and i says that its not very random. because it selects some things very often. time talked about green day. and how they are old now and have stopped writing songs that are shorter than 3 minutes. its funny because green day has a bunch of old guys with tattoos and they try to act young by dressing all weird and in black and putting on eye shadow makeup junk. but they still have those saggy wrinkles. silly people.

today i realized that i dislike finals with free response questions. because it takes forever to grade them. and all i can do is sit here and wait. the suspense is killing me. because one of those free response finals were in a borderline class. and i watch as he inputs other assignments. and my grade bounces back and forth. its intense.

i dislike half-days because i have too much extra time. and i dont use time efficiently. i do the same amount of things on a normal day as in a half-day. so i feel sad because im wasting my time. and time is important. at least we are taught to think that way.

people are so competitive. even during the time they take the finals. one person coughs. and then everyone starts to compete. its like. they want to spread the plague and show their plague is better than everyone else's. and everyone just has to breathe. so the room gets all hot and nasty. and sickening. and. i HATE B+'s. because i get some retarded B+ in APUSH and im angry. because i should have worked harder or something. and its stupid. its so close. and its so far. and its the same as a 80%. its all the same! i hate it. im going to ask my teacher to lower my grade. so i can be cool. and brag about how close i was. and that i didn't get that one letter grade under. i hate this. cant wait for tomorrow's finals.

i f331 50 w45t3d: btw i'm talking to you and random people because i'd rather look stupid than study for finals

it begins.

i have too much time. but not enough to do. except study. school has a tendency to bore people. as does the work and stuff and all that reading. so much. yet so little.

i f331 50 w45t3d: JUST EGG MY HOUSE
i f331 50 w45t3d: I NEED FOOD

finals are coming up. but it hasn't hit me yet. but somehow. at this time. my internet is starting to lag down. so i guess its a good thing. because then. ill get so bored, ill start to study. and then ill be okay. but somehow its like another side is fighting. my playlist on random is selecting all these very. uninspiring songs. they are so silly and sad. and angry and blah blah. instead of selecting instrumental music that i can study to. its all this talking and blah blah. so its a battle. of whether to work hard and study. because theres no finals tomorrow. tuesday, wednesday, and thursday. only worries are apush and chem. both quite borderline. on the two ends of the final week.. i should. begin.

life isn't so easy. if it wasn't so easy, who would live? no one in his right mind would go take a challenge. unless people like to get challenged. but then that means humans are stupid and illogical. because if life had a bunch of challenges and people loved to fight it, it would all be meaningless at the end because everyone is dead. but if people dont like challenges. then they were stupid for making that quote in the first place. so people in general are stupid.

rubik's cubes are fun. except i can never solve them. i always get one side. and then when i try for others. that one side gets messed up, so i never complete it. therefore, i conclude that things cant be completely in parts. it has to be done all at once. or it will all crap out. and mess up. therefore integration by parts is stupid. because you cant divide things into parts. its all a mess. and it craps out itself. and its stupid. or something.

everytime i wake up. i feel weird. and im still sleepy, so i rub my eyes. and its weird because it feels like my eyes fell out. i hear a squishy sound and suddenly, my eyes are like lovely again. squishes my eyeballs back into where they belong. and then my eyes start hurting and i fall asleep again.

good. thats nice. i dislike leechers. they just download a bunch of junk. and dont share much. and it sucks even more when they download at like 1.2 kbps. but i dont feel like banning them. cuz im nice. but i decided i will. because they suck. and they commit lechery. and go do bad things. not really. miyavi is funny because hes such a bad singer. but hes honest about it. and his instrumental stuff sucks. but thats all okay. because hes honest. observe:

Onpu No Tegami Translations:

I'm not good at piano but, would you still listen to me?
Even though I'm playing the three cord, would it still get through to you?

I always, always, had something I wanted to tell you.
But I'm bad at putting them into words, and it's embarassing,
so I put it into notes.

Even if my throat gets torn into pieces, even if I get a polyp.
I will go on shouting for you, for you, for all my life.
...That's what I have decided just now. Yup, I have decided.

there is a dir en grey song called 'the final'. and finals are approaching. so it seemed like a great song to fit the mood. and it does! 'the final' is about suicide. it is "A song that's not even seeking the proof of living." so i think its time to study. "Let's put an end... The Final". yay. study is fun.

it would be interesting to be a celebrity that no one knows about. like mana from malice mizer / moi dix mois. cuz he's like unknown. no one knows his real birthday. people know the date, but dont know they year. and people dont know his real name. apparently he never talks or smiles in public, so no one knows anything about him! and yet hes a famous celebrity. that would be so funny. laughing at everyone know nothing. or maybe he's just not famous enough.

lol. chiaki kuriyama just has to stab a boy in the balls in every movie doesn't she. in kill bill, she kills that guy asking her about ferraris. and then in battle royale, she kills that boy that wants to sleep with her. and in the azumi 2 trailer, shes stabbing some guy who is leaned over. so sad. but its funny.

momento was funny. because its annoyingly backwards and the movie runs in like rewind. and i think it would have been easier to watch if it was watched in rewind. but it was lovely thinking of all that crazy stuff fitting together and junk. i want short term memory. so i can accidentally kill the wrong people.

all things that have a beginning have an end. except for circles. because they have infinite beginnings, but no end. but it really depends on relativity. because the circle could also have infinite ends, but no beginnings. or no beginnings and ends. or infinite beginnings and ends. but i like the infinite beginnings, and no end. because then it disproves that silly quote from the matrix.

whoever created the harddrive's file storage method must be pretty silly. because he likes to fragment every single file into like a billion pieces, so once you open a file, the harddrive has to take a billion hours to scan through the whole drive and pick everything up. its really annoying. and i am defragmenting right now and it feels much faster. harddrives should just keep all files together in the first place.

wow. sonim can make some really disturbing music videos. so this blind girl almost falls and some boy catches her before she falls. so they talk in gibberish japanese and then suddenly blind girl gives boy a doll that she made. (she makes a bunch of random dolls throughout the video). boy is like wtf after girl walks away. throws doll away, but feels bad and picks it up again. girl sews stuff. boy fixes cars. and suddenly they meet again. and meet and meet. but soon, boy is like some gang member or something and hes getting beat up in his room. but girl is sewing in her own room. boy never tells girl this. and one day. girl is like 'omg. im getting my eyeballs changed. no more eyeball cancer'. and boys like 'yay. you can see my bruises'. and so boy heals and girl gets her surgery. and girl is going to go meet boy for the first time. and when boy is walking to the meeting point, an evil gang member walks up and stabs him. music stops. and he falls down. and girl gets to the point but hes not there. and then boy lying on ground. and in his hand is that doll. and theres blood on the ground. and the girl is just looking around. and an ambulance drives past and so sad.

i think my body is failing on me. i walk around and randomly i am pained. sometimes randomly, my nose bleeds. when i wake up, i feel so sore from nothing. strange things. and a few days ago, randomly, i was coughing up blood. it wasn't much. but it kind of scared me. it was probably a bloody nose that. came out the wrong opening. maybe. i dont know. i have to minimize the soda.

so apparently, romanian pop with a techno touch also exists in this world. its just a bunch of happiness and random beats. it makes me want to jump around. kind of like german pop. which is funny too. because everyone thinks germans have deep menly voices. but apparently german girls have girly voices. and they can do happy weird music. and music is such a weird thing. because it appeals to different people. and everyone has different tastes. one day, one super band should take over and make a song that the whole world likes. no exceptions. they'd be rich. and thats the only song they would need to make.

little bugs live in your facial tissue. they are unhappy. you should treat them better. there is civil unrest. i wish i could have happier bugs. they rebel and kill each other. even your little bugs are unhappy. treat them better! angry and sad. its a great depression in the facial tissue. an elephant can paint and the paintings sell for thousands, but the owners get the money, and the elephant is still forced to work and work. its stuck in bondage and cannot buy its freedom. the moon controls the tidal waves. or maybe. the tidal waves control the moon. the world should experiment. remove the ocean and see the effect on the moon. or see what the moon will control next, now that theres no more ocean. then we drown in our thirst.

the words "surely tomorrow...", are valueless trash
I know, I'll mimic a suicide, maybe that'll make it a little easier.

MUCC has funny lyrics.

after finishing battle royale, i am convinced that the author must be a pedophile. his book is too detailed. and so like high school life. and describes even the most intimate details about each person. like height, weight, skills, clothes, and how many people he has done in the last few days. they are 9th graders!. its really weird. its like the author has the disturbed mind of a high schooler. one problem i have with the book is how a girl can keep a razorblade in her "bright pink silk panties" (as they are described in the book). wouldn't it be really annoying and painful if that razorblade is sliding around and cutting. because mitsuko goes crazy on this one boy and starts taking off clothes. and when they are on the grass and doing their stuff, SLASH. what silliness.

i thought i had seen it all. until i downloaded the 55th kouhaku thing. its like a huge japanese music show thing with a bunch of different types of music. i was skipping around it because its 4 hours long. and then i suddenly see 5 black guys jumping around yelling and rapping about something. so i am confused. so i slow down and watch. apparently they aren't black. just hyper japanese guys with dreadlocks and afros. its funny. because they are japanese. and jumping around with microphones trying to get the crowd excited, but it didn't seem like it was happening. then suddenly it ended and some traditional japanese singer took over.

garden state was a pretty good movie. its just really random and weird. but kind of deep and weird at the same time. and everybody knows him. and its so sudden. in a second, they are boyfriend, girlfriend. and everything is great. they go swimming and dancing around randomly. but it all flows together somewhat, which is lovely. it was a funny movie. and the soundtrack is beautiful. and the girl is crazy. and i like how old friends greet each other after years. "HOLY SHIT".

and michael moore has turned emo because he won peoples choice award and hes wearing emo glasses! another victim.

so apparently, my room got so messy, my mom took the chance while i was at chinese school to throw away random plastic bags and clean up my pile of textbooks that i throw around. so now, its all neat, but its disorganized because i had order before. i was messy, but i was organized. and i knew where my stuff was. now i have to let entropy take over and move everything to disorderness because universe entropy is positive and disorder increases. i think thats stupid. its just an excuse.

* Entered room Stoner Rock
[mu fanchu] ive given up stonerness for a little while. you kind of lose sight of things when you smoke everyday for a year

* Entered room emo
[Rubber Ninja] lets talk about cool emo thigns to do
[Rubber Ninja] like cry
[|marking.these.states|] or beating the shit outa rubber ninja

[flyslaier] i have a band called
[flyslaier] ......
[Rubber Ninja] metallica - one
[flyslaier] takero mucho
[Rubber Ninja] ogmgomgo
[Jakeyy] NO ONE CARES
[Jakeyy] -caps
[Rubber Ninja] yeah
[Rubber Ninja] i care
[Rubber Ninja] so shut p
[Jakeyy] =]
[flyslaier] metallica sucks hard!!!!!!!
[Jakeyy] Ok
[Rubber Ninja] so does ur mom!
[peef2] wtf is takero mucho
[Jakeyy] I suck harder!
[Rubber Ninja] ..
[Rubber Ninja] k
[peef2] mexican punk?
[flyslaier] cool
[Rubber Ninja] yeah
[Rubber Ninja] mexican emo
[flyslaier] yeah
[Rubber Ninja] OHHH LIFE IS SO AHRD
[Rubber Ninja] HOW CAN I LOVE
[Rubber Ninja] WHEN I HAVE NO MONEY
[flyslaier] mexican punk is gerat!!!!!

so i joined the emo room in soulseek. and met a random emo girl that likes mudvayne.

[[Dani]] amazing
[[Dani]] wwe are liek mudvayne buddies
[[Dani]] we should wed

but before that, i got in a few arguments and was called an ignorant fool.

[peoplsayimamoron] Are you trying to insinuate(sp?), that emo music is most previlent in bands such as Dashboard Confessional?
[peoplsayimamoron] You are in fact an ignorant fuck.

and so i got the definition of emo

[peoplsayimamoron] Emo is short for emotional, all music is emotional, otherwise it wouldn't be made.
[peoplsayimamoron] Emo began as a more melodic form of hardcore punk, made by people who wanted to try something new, instead of the grindy DC sound of the time.

and so i learned something. but there was a confusion of emo definition..

[NoOtherOne321] punk has nothing to do with emo
[NoOtherOne321] not real punk
[NoOtherOne321] and real emo
[peef2] whats real emo
[NoOtherOne321] they're mixed a lot now
[[Dani]] emo evolved from the 80s hardcore scene
[peoplsayimamoron] Yes, real punk had to do with real emo.
[ThyPhillipCat] CHARLOTTE!
[iamthelazerviking] sure it does

OH MY. a big fight was created. within themselves. its pathetic i think. and so. i conclude, emo should agree on a definition before they start rebelling and crying.



[[Dani]] haha just cuz its the emo rom.. doesnt mean we are dumb low lives who kill ourselves

curse ayumi hamasaki. her and her darn remixes. after the release of every album, she has to release a few remix albums. so its like 5 albums at once. and she uses lovely djs like ferry corsten and so i must get them all. its hard. but EVENTUALLY! i will get them all. i have 21 albums!. im about 1/2 way there. and she just released a new album in december. so i should be expecting 3 more remix albums in a few months. sucks to my assmar. sometimes i feel like i want something. but then i think about it. and i dont know what i want. sometimes i feel like i dont like anything. but i think about it and i dont know why. which gives me a very strange feeling. and i get very confused.

I see, I find, I make sure.
I stare, I'm fascinated, I'm satisfied, but
I look up, I see, I compare.
I despise, I stray, I'm abandoned.

what do those words mean. i dont really know, but they seem all cut up and random. and so they either seem deep or just stupid. deep things are always so simple and strange because they seem kind of simple, but not everyone can think of it. just strange things. i learned today, that bob marley is cool music to smoke marijuana to. buffalo soldier. how else could you think of such a random title. must be the. plant. plants are weird. how can special plants be so special to create such weird effects. and they are so special that they are illegal. such useless plants.

it would suck to be in a really famous band that everyone likes. for example, dir en grey. had a "code of vulgar[ism]" concert. and they got encored like 12 times. it must suck because they had to play for like another 48 minutes at least. sucks sucks. and being dir en grey must suck even more, because kyo (lead singer) seems to like to hurt himself on-stage cuz hes so masochistic. he does things like bite down on his cheeks and draw blood, scratch himself until he like bleeds, cut himself, and beat himself with a microphone. and so, if they get encored like 12 times, then the crowd will still expect kyo to do all those things. so that sucks. because then he has to hurt himself for another 48+ minutes.

now THIS is a devoted chiaki kuriyama fan
dumping 200$ for a few magazine clippings.

i dont like rap and i dont like linkin park. so what does amerika make for me? linkin park + jay-z. so i thought, since they are both negatives towards me. i thought maybe, it would be a positive, since double negative is positive. apparently math is wrong in america. because it just created a very unoriginal song. (numb + encore - numb lyrics - encore music + "what the hell are you waiting for?"). and you have music to make money with. because it doubles the audience and it makes it stupid. and amerikans like stupid things.

today, i learned that one should let their friends die. it saves money. because in art class, person told me, during break, he went to a party where people got drunk. and he didn't drink so he decided to help his friends out by driving them home. well, they got pulled over, and even though he didn't drink, he still got a misdemeanor. and now has a lovely fine. so if he let his friends die, he wouldn't have to pay that money.

maybe. everyone likes the same thing, all have the same tastes. just that they see things differently. for example. maybe everyone in the world might like blue. but someone else sees green as blue, but it taught blue is called green. and says he likes green. but in reality, he likes blue. because no one knows what others think. so everyone might have their own view on something. and it could all just be named differently because of teaching.

Final Dr Pepper Count: 3044.8 Fluid Ounces.
1 Fluid Ounce = 30 Millilters.

91344 Millilters.
91.344 Liters.

Approx: 69.3260% of an average can a day.

Disgusting.

i drove back from Reno/Tahoe and encountered every single type of precipitation. snow, hail, and rain. precipitation sucks. because its so cold. and its slippery. but whatever. on the way there. a 4 hour drive took about 12 hours because of traffic and snow and junk. its great. i counted cars. that is all.