questions of the moment. wtf does "hey miss girl is very fond of child" mean? and what does that have to do with a song called "umbrella"? why do asian bands add engrish to their lyrics? do asian people understand the american language anyways? questions to ponder.

hahahahaha. "into the sun" is number 9 in japan oricon movie charts. for those of you that dont know what that movie is, which i expect everyone to not know. it is a movie by steven seagal or whatever. that guy that makes bad action movies. and all that nonsense. it didn't even to go theatres in america. so why is his movie number 9 in japan? probably because of the 15 second cameo by chiaki kuriyama. well. i thought it was funny.

apparently i screwed up on my rebate forms for my case. it was $50! so i was going to go cry in the corner because i won't get my $50. but then the mail comes and apparently i didn't put enough postage. so i guess two wrongs DO make a right. well. at least a chance to correct everything.

i dont get why people put reminders in their profiles. do people really constantly read their own profiles, so they will suddenly realize they have things to do? oh well.

i will finish all my college apps today.

i just lost an ebay auction. i am depressed. anyways. my hair is dry and i wear a hoodie. therefore as i pull my head through the hoodie, my hair will make static. that is why there is static in my hair. apparently, good art takes less time. i slapped together a masterpiece (in my opinion) in 15 minutes. and then made some other nonsense in 5 minutes. and showed teacher both. he complained about my first one and said it sucked and why i even showed him that. and then he loved my 5 minute art piece. probably because it was mostly black and white. and he's colorblind. so i wonder why he even thought of going to art school and deciding to teach art. ugh. people are so stupid today. and i want my ebay item! it takes forever to find fra-foa items to buy! and its only one seller. ive bought two fra-foa things from him already. i need to get this next auction.

well, since i decided to respond to someone's blog, i am forced to put this in my journal. but that creates problems. because i dont allow comments on this blog. but that is okay. because then i dont have to waste time doing this for you readers. whatever. it is just a waste of space. but ill still post it here, so you can pretend to be me and answer it for yourself.

1) Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2) I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3) I'll pick a flavor/color of jello to wrestle with you in.
4) I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5) I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6) I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7) I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8) If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.

today i went to target. i saw a person that looked like alanthebox. and i was like omg its alanthebox! but it wasn't. his name was like ronarjwlgkwg. some random name. and thats all. i am sick of art now. it is useless. because (according to philosophy) it appeals to the emotions and the emotions are the lowest part of the soul! theres 4 levels. and emotions got put there. what silliness. no wonder there is so much debate about everything. but whatever. i must write my college essay for texas schools about an imaginary guy that can potentially teach me some things.

how far are we supposed to plan ahead? because if there is no limit, we should all just plan for our deaths. but thats very hard to do because that could happen any time. so i guess we're not supposed to plan ahead that far. so i dont know how far it is. and are we supposed to plan for the other possible problems? because that is infinite.

so far ive had no sleep today! 11:45 PM yesterday with kevin i went to compusa. apparently 15 minutes early can still take an hour to wait in line to enter. when i enter i see that 200 gb harddrives are gone, so i go to what i need next. the case. i got the last case. so then i wait 3 hours in line to get my stuff. it is that long because everyone that works there is hired seasonally and everything that anyone buys has a billion rebates to it takes 5 minutes to print everything. after that i go with danny and ed. and go to frys. get there 30 minutes early. and line loops around the store. but they let us all in at once. i run for the 300 gb harddrives. and i get the last one. but they restocked after they were all gone. and i get other stuff. and i come home. and i fix up my computer. and the new case is beautiful. the end. sleep deprivation is a wonderful drug.

and someone bought 5 tivo's.

happy turkey genocide day. (as my english teacher calls it). today i used a leaf blower to clean up stupid leaves that fall. its harder than it looks because leaves get stuck. so i almost finished blowing and then i hit a tree and then a billion more leaves fell down. sigh. that is why autumn or fall sucks. winter is the best. because everything that should be dead is dead. and its all nice and clean. rain cleans everything. and its so white. only in snowy places. its almost as white as overexposed japanese rockers. they like overexposure when they take photos. they are so white that sometimes their noses dissapear. its gross. whatever.

D0nk3X: my parents said
D0nk3X: il lget my thanksgiving dinner
D0nk3X: after i finish my apps

ugh. the new utada hikaru song (passion) is really annoying. it want to delete it because i dont like utada hikaru in general and the transition to chorus is really awkward. but its actually a nice song. and its nice and calm and i like this newer style. so i cant decide!

anyways. my (mom's) car was being weird. brakes were making loud annoying sounds. so took it in to check. and apparently the parking brake got all screwy. so confusing. cars are stupid. useless mechanical machines.

philosophy is a silly class. right now, the class is about religion, and obviously that is a very philosophical topic, so theres many philosophers that like to talk about that topic. they have argument of evil and teleological proof and a bunch of other junk. and now i am reading about some philosopher and his conclusion was that God exists to those who believe he exists and God doesn't exist to those who don't believe he exists. which really didn't prove anything at all. philosophers are useless.

!I AM DONE WITH UC APPS! only texas a&m and texas austin left! and those are due in february. so im going to go do nothing for a while! and it's thanksgiving weekend! we better have a lan. or i will be very disappointed. EVERYONE ELSE FINISH YOUR STUPID APPS. i need lan! i need unreal tournament! sighsigh.

okay, wtf. my bandwidth spiked from about 2 gigs (since beginning of this month) to 8 gigs. in one day. which is really strange. and none of my big files are being downloaded. and i dont think i have anything that is worth being hotlinked. so i am very very confused. i have like 200+ megs of bandwidth from the NETHERLANDS!? and 500 more from germany. eh. wtf. and what's even stranger is that the number of people visiting didn't increase. its still what it normally is. and this is a useless post.

3 day week. i am very excited. 1/3 of week is over. tomorrow's big thing is talking to art teacher about my future in that class. or something. because teacher wastes time and we are all behind on our portfolio. so bah. im going to tell him that i'm changing my concentration theme to colors. and ill just print out pieces of paper with different colors on them. and submit them. and say that other idiot "artists" made that and called it art. so i deserve a 5 for the ap score. everything is art. anyways. art is a gross class. i wish i never signed up for that. stupid me. but alas, i am stuck. anyways. metamorphosis is an interesting book. reading that in english. about emo guy that turns into a bug. its like the dir en grey song "mushi" (insect). so its cool. anyways. once 3 days are over, thanksgiving. and then black friday! i might go camp out in front of fry's to buy cheap computer parts! i want a new computer case and a 300 gb harddrive and ill buy everything else thats on sale. that would be so wonderful. xbox 360 comes out tomorrow. which means xbox price should drop! and maybe on black friday, it will be even cheaper! and if its sub-100, i might consider buying one. but they already have hacked ones with lots of games in it. so those are nice too. but whatever.

i just checked to see if xbox 360 was backwards compatible. and i found out that dead or alive 4 isn't going to be one of the launch titles! so how is xbox 360 expecting to be successful!? impossible. but xbox 360 is backwards compatible with some titles apparently. which is stupid. might as well make everything work. but they have to make some emulation nonsense. microsoft sucks.

but i ramble too much.

ive decided that the only three words you need to know in japanese to listen to dir en grey songs are as follows:

sayonara (goodbye)
kokoro (heart)
namida (tears)

simple enough!. so go memorize those words, and then you'll understand everything dir en grey has to say to you.

gackt's music is even easier! just know "mouichido" (one more time) and you've deciphered every one of his songs.

so now if you ask me if i understand my music, i will answer yes.!

i had a splinter in my finger today. i neglected it until it started hurting. so i took a needle and stabbed it out. i wonder if people in the old days used to die from infection from a splinter. hm. maybe.

i'm not lonely. i can talk to myself. but he always tells me things that i already know. i wonder why. in japan, there was a radish that was growing in the asphalt and it was murdered. it was found decapitated one day. and the top half was found and its in intensive care now. because they want to save it. because its inspiration to those who are discouraged by tough times. its very nice. i wish almaden had things growing out of asphalt here. besides weeds. but there is nothing. so i remain discouraged. its strange. the most random (and interesting) news always comes from germany and japan.

do you use both shift keys on your keyboard? i only use my left one. my left hand dominates the keyboard. it takes up almost all of the bottom keys. all the way until b. it also dominates everything on the top until y. thats why i will never get one of those split keyboards. i will never change my ways! which finger do you use the press the space bar? i use my right hand. my left thumb is weak because of that. he does nothing. and my right pinkie is weak. i never use him for nothing. i press enter with my right ring finger. i type weird. but it is not i who is weird. is it everyone else!. die. oh yea. i also only use the left alt and ctrl keys also.

omg! my copy of rammstein's new album (limited edition!) came today! i am so happy! its strange. i only support about 3 artists/bands. rammstein, fra-foa and mikami's solo project, and ayumi hamasaki. not so much ayumi because she has too many albums. but i have 15 albums (overseas ver.) of hers (+ one bootleg)! also not so much fra-foa + mikami chisako's solo project becuase they are rare. so its impossible to find. but i buy whenever i see it! and so rammstein is the only band i really support a lot. because they are easy to find and release few cds. but id also like to say that ive tried to support more bands! like dir en grey. i bought their GAUZE album. but it turned out to be bootleg, so i stopped buying their stuff. i also have a bootleg of gackt's MARS album. sigh. bootlegs are stupid.

bah. 3 posts in a day. one post to make up for yesterday. one for today. and this one will be for tomorrow. maybe.

! i just realized. that today is 6 months after i got my driver's license. which means i can drive people now! so all the people i drive around, i can do it legally now! except after midnight. because that takes another 6 months. fantastic.

yay. school in an hour. and then its over and at 2:36 i can make my way home. and enjoy another 3 day weekend of nothing. school is the dull. on math 73 days, i just sleep because its 0 and 1st period. and then 2nd period is my most feared class. its art class. with a bipolar art teacher. so im always afraid its going to be one of his bad days or he'll randomly mood swing and kill me. 3rd period is english. probably the most productive class i have. and its a normal class! next is stats. yim just tells stories and all that good stuff. hm. this reminds me that today is his first part to his "lost years" story. (the years between high school and college.) then its lunch. when i have my daily dr pepper. and then physics! except without the exclamation mark. it should have the opposite of exclamation mark, which i dont think exists. the class is just nonsense experiment to see if physics can be taught online. bah. and then there is gov. which is a low effort, nothing ever happens class. and then i go home. and the next day i repeat it. how great. there is a break tomorrow. and i have nothing to do.

so in government we have to each propose a bill. one kid in class decided he wanted to legalize marijuana. because its a normal class and thats what kids in normal classes do. anyways. he also wanted to encourage smoking pot and driving under the influence because it "makes people too high to get road rage." and this other guy wanted to lower drinking age to 17. so he started his presentation by asking the class how many people like to get drunk. and lots of hands went up. school is pointless and dull.

rofl. im rank 6 in a class of 69 people. for philosophy. at community college. and i have a 84%. shows how low standards are there. i want to continue living like this. low standards are fun. anyways. finished application for UOP. need to do urbana champaign by tomorrow if i want priority, but apparently they dont tell you that a counselor signature thing is required until after the application is sent. so that creates problems because counselor packets were due long time ago. so i guess im not going to college. UC apps are next. and then the texas ones. due in february! but, i just want to go to UC. life is happier in california. i think.

212-479-7990. thats new york rejection line. to reject people. and hear sad poems. anyways. http://www.rejectionline.com/copycat.html has lots of other phone numbers.

it feels like sunday. but its saturday. because of veterans day. it threw off my schedule! but its a nice thing about november. so many holidays! yay. lots of days off = more time for college apps!. yay. after college apps i think i will be goal less. and then ill have nothing to do except for sitting around. how lame. oh well.

songs about months are lame. it makes it seem like its only workable during that month. which i guess could be a good thing. (yay greenday song can go die now).

whatever. i am discovering lots of music now. all the older bands. like luna sea and kuroyume. wonderful stuff. but they are all dead. so i guess that makes it easier to collect. because no new stuff will come out. unless they are like tupac. and somehow making new albums and stuff while dead.

its almost december. which means. another JUNIGATSU NO (december's) LOVE SONG by Gackt! since he releases a new version every year. and somehow they are all different. anyways. the good version is 2004. which is the version im listening to right now. which brings me back to the topic of songs about months. they are lame because even though gackt's month song is good, i only listen to it in winter.

art is stupid! everything is art now!. apparently theres also an art of photography called "camera toss" where you... toss the camera. and set the exposure for a long time. and hope camera doesn't break. its so stupid!. its just chance and abstract! ugh. it might create something thats nice to look at. but its accidental! and i hate accidental art. because luck sucks and im never lucky. i am just envious. sigh me.

i think that college essays aren't that hard. just think about self and write the opposite.

i was going to commit suicide, but i haven't finished my homework.

rofl. there's a guy on facebook that is befriending all the chang's on facebook. its pretty funny. but i dont know whether to accept or not. because its kind of weird. but whatever. its only facebook. its just going down the same path as myspace. vile disgusting website things.

ignorance is bliss. i was happy until sat scores came out. therefore, ignorance is bliss. i am not happy that i dont know enough stuff to get a good score on sat. therefore, ignorance is not bliss.

i hate this world.

so theres another school shooting. eh. people are so strange. sometimes lol looks like binary. especially when they type it like lOl. and repeat it a lot. but it doesn't matter. i just wrote two completely differnet topics together. today i looked through my files and saw so many incomplete movies! they aren't even a style close to mine anymore. its weird. maybe i'll compile all those movies together and release it as one. im trying to upload and my speed fluctuates a lot. from 40 to 32 kbps. oh my. 8 kbps.

rofl. the most searched phrase to find my website is "no one cares".

my mom says i can quit piano if i find a job. !!!. now i must find a job.

i wish i was a synesthetic person. because apparently they mix senses up so they hear colors and stuff. if i had that disorder thing, then i could be able to see movies out just by listening to a song. and i would be a master at making movies. i think i suffer from this disease a little. because everytime i highlight something, my neck bone itches a little. and i must twist my head to make it happy. its strange. !!

har. i was watching cnn or something and they has some report about anorexia and how bad it was and it had stories about how girls were near death because of their stupid self-esteem problems. and then the first commercial was for diet/weight loss pills. what frivolity.

me: im going to go kill myself now
contrariwise28: haha
contrariwise28: yay!
contrariwise28: less competition to get into berkeley
contrariwise28: my evil plan all along
me: evil you
contrariwise28: hehe.
contrariwise28: soooo!
contrariwise28: get on with it!
contrariwise28: wimp.

i love filming. i love editing. but i cannot spend my life perfecting a movie. becuase that would just mean failure in everything else. sigh sigh. doing poorly in many classes. must work harder. impossible! bad music is detrimental to health. suicidal thoughts pour into my mind when i listen to the radio. german music is on the return. and. sat scores are not appearing. its 2 weeks late. what the ____?!. i am angry. im not going to get into college because of collegeboard. and i censored myself because im so cool. goodbye.

okay, so i was filming the hamlet play for english class. and i was gertrude (hamlet's mom). so i had to crossdress again. same dress as halloween. so my dad now thinks im crazy. and my mom said i should just go get a sex change and be a girl.

sometimes i wish i was a turtle. because then i could just hide myself in my shell and then be away from everyone. but people would still make fun of me. and i wouldn't know. because im in a shell. apathy is such a dreadful thing. its killing me. i am struck down. or maybe i'm not apathetic enough. and i think i am.

question: "do you think nice guys finish last?"

answer: yes, becuase nice guys are too nice and everyone takes advantage of that and they get killed

another interp: hm. or maybe. it means nice guys die last and all the mean guys die first!!! so its like nice guys winning. oH! double interpretation!!! symbolism!

contrariwise28: math can make my day
contrariwise28: that's sad huh?

rofl. i was reading rammstein interviews. and they were asking about the stage makeup.

TdK: what is that brown stuff that u have all over you on concerts.
Flake: That'S a secret that will be revealed now!
Flake: We smear instant coffee all over ourselves.
Flake: No makeup holds as long.
Flake: And no makeup smells as good.
Flake: In the beginning, we used normal coffee.
Flake: But I went crazy on stage because I had a caffeine shock.
Flake: That'S the reason why I shake so often on stage.
Flake: Later we used caffeine-free coffee.
Flake: Since then, our music has gone soft.
Flake: As you can hear now.

school is stupid. everyone is stupid. especially in the "normal" classes. but that is expected. because its normal. and no one in those classes have any motivation to do anything. so im in classes with potheads and stuff. sometimes they are interesting. but at other times they are just stupid. all they talk about are drugs and drinking and stealing clothes and parties (with drugs and alcohol of course) and making fun of losers. it is so stupid. but even in the "smarter" ap and honors classes. everyone is so stupid. because they just complain about grades and college and thats all. and if they dont talk about those things, its about fantasy-whatever-sport. and i dont care. so therefore school sucks. and i dislike observing stupid people. but that is what i do.

i miss my good stoner friend from last year. he was cool because he didn't talk about stupid things that kids in normal classes talk about.

so i was reading the best buy ads. and i started looking at cd players. one claimed to have skip protection. and one next to it claimed to have skip-free protection. so which one is the one that stop skips? oh, how this world is so strange. flammable and inflammable both mean the same thing. does the same apply to skip and skip-free? hmm.

f a t s h e e p1: rofl hella concentrating!
f a t s h e e p1: in the last few hours
f a t s h e e p1: my work has been
f a t s h e e p1: "Additionally, Shakespeare "