roflmao. apparently the fight yesterday between those two girls was because of myspace. (well thats what i heard). the girl wanted to be some other girl's friend, but she rejected her. and then she got mad at her. because she was like why did you not befriend me!? and she was like i dont know. and she started being mean to her. and she got mad and then they fought. and i like my use of vague pronouns. thats why i own the sats.

"Myspace is super fun, you get to make a profile about yourself and make friends and your page can look however you want! If i didnt use myspace, i wouldnt ha ve met many of my good friends!"

final news. all my college crap is over now. 8 out of 9 schools. which is 88.8888888%. uiuc, ta&m, taustin, uci, ucd, ucla, uop, and ucsd. and then reject from berk. so life is good. its easier without berkeley. so therefore: ucla or uop. ucla is electrical engineer. and uop is pharmacy. and i could go on about the pros and cons about each. but they equal to about the same and its useless anyways. no one cares too. so. bye.

THEMOMO fac TOR: and write your excuse about why they should have accepted you
azN xrE taRD BOI: and what would that be?
THEMOMO fac TOR: threaten to commit suicide or something like that

from our awesome physics program:
"MAGNETIC FIELDS ARE PRODUCED BY MAGNETIC OBJECTS, SUCH AS MAGNETS"

look! i'd rather somebody picked up a crowbar and battered out my brains - than go back mornings! i go! every time you come in yelling that goddamn "rise and shine!" "rise and shine!" i say to myself "how lucky dead people are!" but i get up. i go!

thats from "the glass menagerie".

i live because dying isn't as fun.

i used to wonder. wonder if people should just do what they are good at. or if they should pursue what they are interested in. that following dreams nonsense. so i think i have found the answer. i walk into art class. and it just hit me. of course people should just ditch their interests and just do what they are good at. its because people are following their interests that everything is mediocre. or just crap. for example, art teacher. he is colorblind. he does not deny it. so really. why is a colorblind person doing art?! because he is interested in this art thing. and so now everyone else has to suffer. its really retarded. so if people did what they are good at, everything will be fine. bahbahbah.

in other news. theres was a big girl fight during lunch. too bad it lasted all of 10 seconds because they started it right in front of principal.

and. in even better news. DIR EN GREY! neighbor used her connections to get her and me floor tickets to their first concert on their new tour. august 1. "inward scream" tour!! yatta! floor tickets! guaranteed a or b block! so i will be near the front! maybe close enough to get bled on!. ill come back hiv positive. but that is okay. because i would have seen dir en grey live! and tickets aren't even on sale yet. yay for having a neighbor who has friends in dir en grey fanclub. !! well. she said her friend will get the tickets. but i still need to figure out how to get to japan... should be in taiwan at that time. so its good.

so. at school its not uncommon to see people doing all these drugs and stuff. like chewing tobacco. walk into the bathroom and see like 5 guys in a stall around the toilet and suddenly a big plop into the water. yea. but. ive never seen anyone actually do that IN CLASS. so he is like chewing. and he has an empty water bottle in his jacket. so every now and then he will stick his face into his jacket to spit. ha. it was pretty funny. well, i thought it was.

so i thought that i could be gone forever from flash and moviemaking and that nonsense. because i sucked and it took up too much time anyways. so i didn't reinstall any of those programs when i reformatted about a month ago. now english class has some video to make and i have to make this stuff again. sighsigh. but whatever. it is fun. and i have lots of time to waste. its some propaganda project about "brave new world" and i have to make some ad about soma, which is the happiness drug. so everything needs to be happy. i think i want to make it like kaela kimura's "real life real heart" video. it has live action and then random drawings everywhere. thats happy isn't it? yes, kaela is really happy. so i am inspired.

roflmao. someone found an eraser at the dir en grey new york concert. and they posted an entry on the dir en grey livejournal community to see if anyone lost their eraser. roflrofl. makes my day happy.

theres unhappiness, but no unsadness or unanger. so in reality, there are 3 negative emotions and 1 positive one. this world is so sad.

so i was watching d'espairsray dvd. and apparently they have footage from their san jose concert. well, it makes sense to. its their first concert in america after all. so im watching. and trying to look for myself. but i dont see myself. i guess its because i wasn't fangirly enough and didn't say retarded things like "~~~aishiteru desray<33 ^ ^" and other junk like all those other fat white girls. but its fun recognizing all the highways and downtown area. i see a classmate. so she is famous. and she also went to the dir en grey concert in la! which is crazy. i cant believe it. she ditched school for like a week. UAHGH. so lucky.!! kyo sprayed his blood all over her (and the people near her). omg im so jealous. sigh sigh. like really. i am so jealous. and she was wearing the dir en grey shirt today. made me feel miserable the rest of the day. cry cry.

this means nothing to most of you. its just so i dont have to search a lot for the setlist of fra-foa's final live.

1.真昼の秘密
2.夜とあさのすきまに
　(MC)
3.edge of life
4.blind star
5.daisy-chainsaw
　(MC)
6.light of sorrow
7.green day
8.消えない夜に
9.lily
　(MC)
10.オブラートで包んだ水みたいな君に
11.crystal life
12.三日月の孤独
　 (MC)
13.煌め逝くもの
14.プラスチックルームと雨の庭
15.踊る少年
　(MC)
16.ひぐらし
　(MC)
17.澄み渡る空、その向こうに僕が見たもの。
18.君は笑う、そして静かに眠る。
19.月と砂漠

アンコール
　(MC)
20.青白い月
21.小さなひかり。

pharmacy requires public speaking?!
i lose.
marines just called me. harhar.

so i watched 'v for vendetta' and its really strange. about dystopia in britain and people are like omg government controls everything. so this guy named v is like omg im in a mask and i hate the government because the government makes us scared and steals away our individuality and all that nonsense. and so natalie portman is like wowow shave my head please and goes off with v to fight a revolution. and they do. but its like lame because fighting is just destroying everything. kill all the bad people. cut their throats and bleed everywhere. not that much blood. but eh. apparently everyone in britain was like omg i hate the government too. so they all wore the mask. which kind of doesn't make sense because they are supposed to be like individuals, but they all wear masks. eh. and so government gets blown up and then the end. and it makes me think. what will happen the day after? its not like people will just agree and be happy now. another leader is just going to rise up again. v never told the people about anything. just told them to be freethinkers and nonsense like that. (actually im not really sure what he said because he talked really fast and weird and used lots of sat words that started with v). so yea. people wont suddenly form their own government. so we should just always blow up anything that we think is wrong.

and they still have dell computers in the future!? and natalie portman's eyebrows are weird.

uop was fun. ditching school was fun. drove 1.5 hours to be lost for another .5 hours. and then i got there. and it was cool. small school. honors program. what the heck is honors project?! i dont know. dorms are nice. pharmacy school building is nice. problem is. my chem ap is wasted. need to retake that nonsense. and everything. only 4 classes from community college are transferable. so i wasted a lot of time in high school. eh. but pharmacy. 6 years and im done. not 5 because im a nub and i only got into 6 years. but thats okay. because i can get some degree or something in those first 3 years. the last 3 years are pharm school. the first 3 are pre-pharm. but i cant choose if i want to change majors in the future. which is okay. i guess. too many decisions anyways. just choose one thing and fight to the end. ganbatte. i think. anyways. the people i met were cool. well, i only met one girl. because we both went to watch the calc 3 class. because we're nerds. there were only 3 people that went to calc 3. not really impressed with the calc 3 class, but then its hard to teach such lame material. but that is okay. because im pharmacy. and that needs no calc. which means i wasted more years studying math. sigh. !!! but 100% of graduates have jobs right after graduation. at like $60+/hour. money! lots of asians at uop. feel just at home. its nice.

hm. i wonder if thats everything. ugh. decision making sucks. they gave me a free t-shirt. i am won over! oh god, what if i end up there?!

school is pretty lame. especially art ap. what the heck. he's making us come at normal time for star testing. even though seniors dont have to take that and can come at like 12. hes like "we're far behind so we need all this extra time". well, im sorry. but its not our faults that we spent 6+ weeks making some stupid watercolor painting that is crap. wtf. distort random shapes and color it in and make it a gradient and its art. huh. not our fault that we spent so much time because he never taught us how to watercolor. or even checked our progress. i was done in like 1 week, but since he was busy spending all of class time making artsy bathroom passes, i had nothing to do except wash out all the watercolor and re-watercolor everything. wow. art is so lame. im happy i dont have to go to school tomorrow. im going to be 'sick', but im really going to university of pacific because im cool like that. too lazy to get all teachers to sign some form for going college visiting.

halfway through the week already. and went to school for barely any time. its great. i wish everyday could be cahsee testing. because it is fun. go to 43things.com or something and it shows random things that people want to do. and i think bigger letters mean more people want to do that. so i see there is "Fall in Love" in very big letters. and "Stop Procrastinating" in very large letters. you might not see it, you need to refresh and they will appear randomly. and someone wants to "live instead of exist". how funny. and a lot of people want to take more pictures and write novels and books. and that nonsense. i dont know what i want to do. what about you? dont answer that.

because i am too lazy to post anything. i bring you a picture from the movie "yokai daisensou" or whatever. its known as "the great spook war" in america. its by takashi miike. and has weird random animals. and robots and machines. so here is a hamster/rabbit/dog thing in a microwave. it was a kid's pet, but the evil forces stole it away!

i cant do it. i cant watch 'ichi the killer' all the way through. its just so. i dont know. i watched 45 minutes and i stopped. because. its so... CUT. omg i cant believe i have the cut version. this is horrible. its not fun anymore. i want to see that guy cut his tongue off. i want to see everything. i want to see that guy burning up from boiling oil. but i have the cut version!. UGh. cant believe it. its like 10-15 minutes less. oh well. its still pretty cool. but going to wait until uncut version.

so i watched "saw 2" yesterday. never saw "saw 1," so it was interesting. kind of like how i watched the kill bills. but anyways. saw 2 was about some cancer guy who is like "omg i love my life so im going to put people through tests and see how much they love their lives." so he gathers up a few drug dealers and hookers and some emo girl and some emo boy and puts them in a room and tells him to escape by jumping into furnaces and pits full of hypodermic needles. within 2 hours or all the poison gas will destroy them and break up all their blood and everywhere will leak. so its all bloody and fun. but then. if that cancer guy really cared about life, he would have spent his last few years living his life and not meddling in other people's lives, i think. why should he even care about others. whatever. all the people went crazy and started killing each other. (like battle royale). and it was great. also, that cancer guy says something about evolution, but how natural is it to have some clamp around your face that will smash your face up in 1 minute if you dont cut open your eye to get the key? huh. anyways i think i can go watch 'ichi the killer' now. or any other takashi miike movie. because they should be crazy like this also. ichi especially. they gave out barf bags to everyone that attended the midnight showing of this movie. teehee.

i also watched the new wallace and gromit movie. and bunnies are cool.

omg. i never knew math was so hard. math 78 party today. 6 people all together to try to do 7 questions on this take home quiz. so i guess we are all cheaters. but its impossible! omg. we did 3 questions in 4 hours. and nothing is still accomplished. its almost as hard as choosing college. apparently got into uop. so. must wait for berkeley's decision. and then i can stress if i get in. if not. i can still stress. uop vs ucla. but it all doesn't matter. because my admission is going to get revoked because math 78 is too hard. and im going to fail. blah.

here was some really lame post about dir en grey becoming popular. mostly in america.

"I don't want them to get popular. Cause then all those "new" annoying fans will make me hate them, just like they made me hate InuYasha. I've liked Diru forever, and I don't mind them getting more fans, I just don't want them to become another "HOT TOPIC" Trend."

did that even make sense? how can they get more fans and not become popular. eh. idiot. and how can fans change views toward the band. i dont like dir en grey fans. because all they do is complain. everyday. about everything. whatever.

anyways. school sucks. but im glad its not that bad. because i could be dead. and this is a lame post. almost as lame as the lame post about dir en grey. or even more lame. but. whatever.

oh. heres a followup from someone else:

"I dont know what to think of DeG being compared to Inuyasha, but yeah, that's a good point xD I'd like them to be recognized enough in America for them to feel confident about touring here again in the future."

omg being internationally known isn't popular.

i think its kind of strange that utopia always turns out to be dictatorship/communism or anarchy. it seems like its more dystopia with those, but you cant really create a utopia with democracy because people are individuals and they argue. and theres conflicts. so then individuality is taken away. then theres no more arguments. but then people dont really live. but then, it doesn't really matter, people dont have to live. utopia is perfection not people's happiness. and people that live in a unindividual place would not have experienced individualism so they wouldn't feel any worse. they can still be happy. its only right now that everyone loves individuality so much. but i dont know what i am talking about. because english is hard and "brave new world" is a strange book. odd but its good. like "fahrenheit 451". but utopia = dystopia. positive infinity = negative infinity. the laws of mathematics are all disproven. we lose.

hey. i thought senior year was supposed to be fun. im still waiting. and my grades are dying. i know i said that before. but gross wtf. so low. go away.

today is pi day! so i bring you all the facts about pi from uncyclopedia.org, the content-free encyclopedia!

The common fractional form of pi is 22/7. It is impractical in that it can only be used 22 hours during each day. The two hours in which 22/7 doesn't work typically occur from 8PM CET to 10PM EST (9PM GMT to 11PM EDT). During this period, four major things happen:
-All mathematical and physical laws are reconsidered by the Supreme Court of Azerbaijan.
-The Universe takes a nap.
-All integers unite, becoming indivisible except by themselves and one.

This is generally known in to American television viewers as Prime-Time.

In base pi, the value of pi is 10. This is much easier to remember.

and here is a easy way to compute pi to the 63 digits: take out your calculator and type: 0.3141592653589793238462643383279502884197169399375105820974944592*10. and wow! it works! go try it.

sigh. im reading through all the spam in my livejournal friends list and i see all these dir en grey community posts and they are all like omomgomgomg selling ticket for like $300. and my mom cant go to see dir en grey with me so im selling her ticket. and all that nonsense. and then i see all these lets make underwear for the dir en grey guys. and lets make cards and postcards and billions of gifts because we are such fangirls. and all that silly stuff. but even though theres all that nonsense. theres one thing that seemed really cool. so at the LA show. they want to get like all the people red glowsticks. and they want to break them all right during the first chorus in "the final", since that song is about suicide and a sea of red would be pretty cool. and the venue is like 3000 people (sold out now. so it should be all 3000). and so if they really do succeed, that would be pretty cool. yea.

i have one goal in life. and that is to collect all fra-foa cds. the real things. it should be quite easy now that they have disbanded. but god. their cds are so hard to find! even on ebay. it only appears once in a while. and its always the same album. that i already have. i need their first album. (out of 2). and 4 more singles. (out of 6). once i get that. i can go and get their two dvds. that was only released from their website. and shipped to only japanese addresses. so that will be difficult to track down. but i have all of mikami chisako's (fra-foa lead singer) cds! all 2.5 albums and 2 singles. theres that .5 album because one of those albums is like a variation of another one of the albums. but came with lots of different songs. and i am writing this because i just got fra-foa's aojiroi tsuki single and the sumiwataru...(really long title) single. and i am happy. anyways. go do nonexistent homework.

right now on yahoo, they are talking about a hairy lobster. it is quite cool. i wonder if it is really hairy stuff or just really thing spikes or something that look like hair. because it if was hair like fur, then it would like gain so much weight when under water. and that isn't useful. i think. unless this is one of those things that are going to be extinct soon because it lost in evolution or whatever.

hey people. go watch "fulltime killer". its some asian film. im not sure if its chinese or japanese because it's two main stars are chinese and japanese. andy lau (infernal affairs) and takashi sorimachi (gto). yea. so that movie had so many languages. mandarin, cantonese, japanese, english, engrish. i understood the mandarin the best though. the people that spoke good english just mumbled. so it was hard. yea. this movie is about 2 assassins. one is some emo japanese guy. who wears converses. harhar. i knew he had problems the first second i saw him. he never talked and he shot his friend because he was feeling depressed. anyways. his house cleaner is some girl that suddenly meets some chinese guy. the chinese guy is really silly and is so proud of being a professional killer. so he goes on a date with girl and is like "brb. gotta go kill some guys" so he goes and shoots a few and then injects pure nicotine into the last guy. (because he had nothing to do and extracted 4 cigarettes worth of nicotine.) and apparently the chinese guy wanted to be number 1 and wanted to go kill the japanese guy because japanese guy was number 1. so yea. they have a little fight thing. and chinese guy had problems because he couldn't control his teeth. so he kept accidentally biting into the cyanide thing that people always keep in their mouths. silly him. but it was a great movie.

its about time for an update eh. im currently wearing all black and it is very cold. and i am confused about college. because i dont know major. eh. (and coincidentally, the song that started playing on itunes was yui's "i know"). but I DONT KNOW. bahbhabha. but whatever. i dont really need to know or care about it until all colleges respond anyways. so i will procrastinate it off. and never worry about it. until soon.

today i learned that it is very hard to type chinese. i had to type some essay thing for chinese school because it is graduation time and so i had to type out some nonsense about how i will miss chinese school and everyone and etc. i also wrote about goldfish because they are cool. so typed chinese and it was hard work.

i had this silly dream that dir en grey came to san jose. downtown san jose. it was at convention center. and then. i got tickets! and so i went on that day. and i was like really close up near front row. and then the opening band really sucked. so i went home. and then i forgot about dir en grey. and when i came back it was some other band. i think it was static-x. harhar. what weird dreams. and japanese people are weird because they bow to people even when they are like in another room. and they cant see them. bah.

hi people. being bored. (it is senior year. nothing to do). so i decided i will kill my computers problems once and for all. so i decided to get a new fan. and since i wanted more cooling for my graphics card. and theres no place that directs towards graphics card. so i created my own! with a tape suspension bridge. i am a genius. and that is too many posts for today.

look at that. bah. spiderman is so emo now. especially with that pose and the rain. and its (almost) black and white. well, its monochromatic. and then theres all that emoness everywhere. but that means venom might appear. because venom is the most emo guy in the world. see this. quoted: "The last we see of Venom, Eddie has slit his wrists in an alley and the symbiote is running free looking for a host." so yea. spiderman is really emo. i knew something was very wrong after they played that dashboard confessionals (is it plural? some places put it plural. some dont) song after spiderman 2. vindicated. or something like that. but topher grace is playing venom. (as rumored). since imdb hasn't posted up what his role is in the movie. and everyone else has a role. better be venom. but wtf. topher grace. this is so emo. i am wrong. i am right. i swear im right. swear i knew it all along. cry cry. cry emo boy.

i know this person. she is quite odd. she isn't korean, but she speaks korean. which i think is a waste of brain space. and she also knows japanese and listens to japanese music. and obsesses over asian people. the only thing cool about her is that she watched gto. a wonderful drama. (or dorama, as they say in japan). but its really weird. because she is a sophomore. (wow! what a loser. knowing sophomores!) hm. i met many interesting people this year. she isn't one of them. and i hope that she is satisfied with these 99 words that i had to type up.

hi guys. (and girls.) but i guess that 2nd part isn't really necessary because guys can mean boys and girls. like in english they just use "he" if they dont know gender. or some people say "she" because they are feminists. either way, it is unfair to one of the genders. so people say "he or she" but that is too long so people just say he. so i was being nice by adding that "girls" part. because i am showing that i am not so evil by saying only "guys". but then i put guys first. so that must mean im a sexist. because obviously its not equal. but one of them has to come first. anyways. bye.

blck n whte flm: i don't know how to use an inhaler
blck n whte flm: sucks to my assmar

oh. today i cleaned my fish tank. washed all the algae off the sides of the tank. with the help of steel wool. it is very useful.

harhar. shiina ringo is such a funny character. here is a part from her interview:

Q15: If you didn't become a musician, what would you have become?
A male.

well. i found it funny. its like. japanese people always looking different than what they are. silly silly silly.

i hate the programs that require restart after installing.

i f331 50 w45t3d: lmao one time i put in 2 DVDs
i f331 50 w45t3d: it was pretty sweet
i f331 50 w45t3d: yeah i was like
i f331 50 w45t3d: dual layer DVD drive eh?
i f331 50 w45t3d: i don't see anything happening

got angry (at computer). so i reformatted her. then i realized i forgot to save my emails. (since i use outlook). so eh. we'll see what happens. computer has taught me a lot about how annoying it is to reformat. especially service packs. bahbhabhahba.

my computer really needs a reformat. today. i installed a dvd burner. and then it screwed up and said that my other drive has the same drive letter as the new drive. so now when i press eject on computer, it ejects both of them. but computer only thinks one drive exists. blahblahbabhl. i hate computers. need to reformat badly. too bad it takes so much time and energy to reformat. i wish i could just reformat without losing anything. life would be better like that. yea it would be. and i also need a new heatsink/fan for cpu. it is hot. burns skin easily. melts everything.

actually i take that back about kyo not bleeding. he bleeds in "dead tree". well, before it. but he has blood during "dead tree". but still weak. sad

and kyo looks like he has a split personality. he randomly starts talking through his songs and suddenly hes screaming. and also. he seems like he drank a billion gallons of red bull. because hes always twitching. and when he screams he flies across the stage.

and wtf is with this "child prey" in the middle of the concert. "child prey" is supposed to be their opening song! (well, right after "gds"). but seriously, they need "child prey" in the beginning to get everyone all happy.

so i finally got my hands (well, my harddrive) on the dir en grey fanclub dvd. its called "it withers it withers: bootleg". and its all recorded from handheld digital camcorder at their germany lives. so videowork isn't that great. but its fanclub only so its special. anyways. dir en grey is getting weaker lives. well, not really. i guess their albums are going harder faster than they cant keep up. they started as a pop band basically and just got harder and harder. and now the most recent album is just slipknot-esque music (but with more melody). im skipping around. and i cant find any blood. which is silly. usually kyo is running around with blood everywhere. dripping out of his mouth and all over his arms and chest. but i dont see that! but there is a lot of crying. which is normal. but it doesn't fit with their newer music. because hard rock doesn't really mix so well with emo emotion. and because of all that crying a bunch of lines are skipped. its really annoying. i liked their previous dvds better. (it actually seems like a weaker "code of vulgar[ism]") but their "higeki wa mabuta wo oroshita yasashiki utsu" song is pretty good. its written for one of their fans who committed suicide.

i feel nostalgic, but i dont remember far back enough to be nostalgic. maybe its nostalgia for what i have forgotten.

today should be feb 29. but march 1 killed feb 29. so i bring you the post that i did 2 years ago on feb 29.

"when it was the year 2001, the chinese believd it was year 4699. the hebrews believed it was 5762 and muslims thought it was 1422. what weirdness. calendars are so different. and then the gregorian calendar that people use most now have to add a february 29 every 4 years. but that feb 29 doesn't always work, so every 100 years, they dont have it. unless the year can be divided by 400 and they keep it. but that doesn't work either. so every 4000 years they do feb 29 also."

"heres how it became so. julian calendar was introduced in 46 BC year 709 to romans. julian calendar was off by 11 minutes a year, so in 1582 there was a 10 day error. so pope gregory xiii said the day following oct 4 would be oct 15. they skipped 10 days. and so officially no one was born in france, italy, spain, or portugal between oct 5 - oct 14. britain adopted the gregorian calendar in 1752, so they dropped 11 days out of september. sept 3 - sept 13, 1752. and the new years for 1751 was held in march. it went like this. march 24, 1750 and the next day was march 25, 1751. wonderful."

but then the lack of feb 29 is better this year i guess. because UC schools start giving admissions today! so 2 years ago people had to wait for an extra day! har!