muscle doesn't always weigh more than fat. If you have 2 pounds of fat and 1 pound of muscle, then the fat outweighs the muscle.

i read that in a japanese forum. and i was like wtfwtf! of course 2 > 1. wOWOW. whatever. stupid japanese. did you know the dir en grey guys have myspaces?! its all fake of course. but its so funny. they are all friends with "hide", which is a dead japanese singer/guitarist. haharhahrar. and they all write fobby. "I love eat". but really. they had to have been great fans to write these myspace profiles. because there is so much inside jokey stuff. and i am going to be happy in my own happiness. and toshiya's myspace name is "totchi_me". HAHRHARHAR. well, i thought it was funny.

rofl. ebay bootleggers are getting so lazy these days. usually dvd bootlegs are supposed to come with cases and everything. now they just come with disc and the paper thats supposed to cover the case. and before, rammstein shirts were usually bootlegged with weird designs. now they just sell the iron-on transfers. harhar.

so today, i discovered i was so cool that even a random goth person will say words to me. so i went to library to return the faye wong album i borrowed. and then im dropping it in the box. and this random goth girl (whoever knew that goth people hang out at the library) is like "wow! cool shirt!" or something like that. and im like "huh?" and she was like "rammstein rocks! yay!". and then i realize i was wearing the rammstein shirt and so i was like yay! and life was great. but im guessing she was just surprised to see a scrawny asian boy wearing a german large shirt. because germans are huge. so its like. even larger than large. well, not really large. its just that its wider. because germans are buff. kind of like the opposite of japanese people. japanese large is like american medium. which is okay. because i can wear american medium. yes yes. and this is lame.

9 more days of school. WOWOW! i cant wait. zomgomg. so fast. almost done. and a bunch of more redundant stuff about how time flies. and. hm. shopping is GREAT fun. especially shopping for 8 hours. or whatever. and clockwork orange is interesting. too bad i was really tired when i watched it. so i didn't get any of the symbolism. not that i ever do anyways. that explains my awesome grade in english. in art, we have to make powerpoints of artists and stuff. and then the teacher knew we wouldn't finish. so he finished everyone's over the weekend. harhar. too bad its all low quality and crappy now. all this random crap. wowow. similarities between 2 paintings that have nothing in common!? im doing japanese prints. and he randomly put in some european painting or something. and said that if i compare them, there are lots of similarities. i think its bullshit. because really, having a window that shows the outside scenery, having 2 women in a painting, and having a half-oval shape doesn't mean the paintings were related. so i cant wait until im done with that class. and english is great. because we have a final video thing to make. and theres no idea of what to do. like my life.

yesterday, i finished cowboy bebop. quite an accomplishment. considering its an anime. and usually they dont hold my attention long. like i got to episode 2 of bleach and was like screw this. and stopped. i like cowboy bebop because it seems all episodic. but theres actually this random storyline throughout the whole thing. not really. but its good. most of it is pretty funny throughout. but then it suddenly gets all angry and sad near the end. and i bet everyone has already seen that anime already because its so famous. so i wont babble on.

this world sucks because we cant say opinions suck and are useless and stuff like that. because if we did, we are having an opinion. and it doesn't make sense to have an opinion against an opinion. but all opinions are right. so i am correct that opinions suck and are useless and stuff like that. whatever. anyways. the library is cool. because it has a gym now. and the actual library section in the library is still smallish. kind of. but its cool. and i found a faye wong cd there. !!. so cool. and life is almost over.

GO AWAY COLLEGE BOARD. remember how on oct 2005, the test was cancelled and moved to some later day? and so i decided i would go to a different place and take it there. and then later they charged me because it was a registration change and crap. and then so i emailed them and they said i dont have to pay. and then now they are mailing me again! capitalistic bastards! i dont want to pay! and i dont think i should be paying for it anyways. IGHRLKWJGLRKWg.

so i decided to clean my drawers out becuase i really have nothing to do. and i came across my collection of m&m wrappers. in 10th grade, i used to eat m&m's like everyday at lunch. and then i would bring the wrapper to 5th period and stick it in one of the pages of the textbook underneath my seat. it started out beginning at every chapter. and then i finished every chapter. so i started doing pages. i think i filled up the first few chapters before the year was over. the book became really thick and heavy. and then year ended and i took them all home and stuck it in my drawer. and yea. i find them again now.

also, i found my old stash of electronic gaming monthly magazine. that i got back in the old days. and i found THE egm magazine that i had been looking for. number 167, june 2003. page 26. the reason why i found out about dir en grey. and for those that dont know, here is a scan.



yea. that picture was like wowow! and made me super interested. and the next day i asked a japanese classmate about them and he sent me songs and life was great. (but omg that angry reader must not have been a good dir en grey fan because he spelled it Dir en Grey. ITS Dir en grey!!!! harhar. and only japanese music fans get so personal when their favorite bands are attacked. so odd.) and for those that actaully read that article thing and are wondering what was on page 24 of egm 166, i dug through all the magazines to find that issue also. and harhar. it was pretty funny.



i f331 50 w45t3d (7:31:00 PM): you should be proud that you discovered that fact
i f331 50 w45t3d (7:31:03 PM): go tell the world on unpurposed.com
i f331 50 w45t3d (7:31:07 PM): that goatse shaves

YAYAYY no more math forever. finished math 78. so i think there should be no more maths. pharmacy only needs up to like calc 1 or 2 or something. i think. but whatever. no more math!! no more reasoning. no more thinking! im so excited. well, theres still stats. but its after ap test. so its all meaningless now. yayayayay! life is good. good is life.

this weekend is fanime. which is some super japanese otaku convention. held for the entire memorial weekend. where all the anime freaks can all gather together and watch anime. they camp and sleep there also. and buy japanese stuff. its like $40 for a pass, where you can buy expensive japanese stuff that you can buy for the same price online. yea. i think ill just borrow someone's pass to go in and browse. maybe. or i can do homework at home. did you know if you switch n and m in fanime. it becomes famine. harhar.

awesome art of the day. (not really). by ives klein



so cool zomgomgomg. harhahra. paint women blue please. then push them onto canvases. its so artistic. plato or some greek philosopher says art is bad because it appeals to the emotions and emotions are the lowest form of the soul. so art is bad. too bad this art doesn't appeal to my emotions. therefore it is good art. so groundbreaking!

ll lidoxstarr ll (11:14:35 PM): it's some ugly russian song abe wil prolly like

wow. facebook has this new "wall-to-wall" function for all the stalkers! its so cool. it posts 2 people's wall conversations in order of time. so dont have to keep clicking back and forth to get into other's conversations. or maybe its an old function. but i just found out now. yay. what odd functions they make. facebook is annoying because they spam email. and those are the only messages i get on my college email.

japanese bands that are coming to america this summer:

dir en grey
hyde (from l'arc~en~ciel)
mono
mucc
moi dix mois

what is this?! and 3 of them are debuting in america. mono is coming back because they always do. and dir en grey is coming back for second time. wow. too bad i cant see any of them except dir en grey. which is okay i guess. saves me money. but id like to see mono live. powerful instrumental music. and id like to see moi dix mois just because its freaken mana. japan's best crossdresser. ever. bad music. but whatever. omgomgomg.

edit:
forgot the pillows.

friends are weird things. like sometimes they disappear. and then suddenly i meet them again. like years later. and most of the time i dont even remember them anymore. because i have bad memory. and on those few times i do remember someone, they dont remember me. so yea. i think its okay when we both forget each other. then life is okay. and my point is. i dont like all these random people friending me on facebook. sometimes i think they are old friends that i forgotten. but then they dont look familiar at all! usually, even if i forgotten, at least ill think the face looks familiar. but these people! bah. and im not mean enough to reject their friending offer thing. so i just leave them there forever. sigh.

my post for today will be lyrics. because i am so lame like that. but i will not be so lame to just write the lyrics and leave them there for you to decipher and try to find symbolism and all that crap. because being vague is lame. like what i do a lot of the time. instead, i will go and comment on these awesome songs. because i love my songs. or i wouldn't put a post about them.

anyways. this is lyrics to the tokyo jihen cover of "dynamite". not the original brenda lee version. because it makes such a big difference.

Dynamite!
Hey! baby when you kiss it's dynamite!
Hey! baby when you hug and hold me tight
I just explode like dynamite!

yes. happy happy. so happy. im glad i can use that quote function again. yayayay. and now. a part of "kenka joutou". by tokyo jihen again. yayayay.

Stop it, honey, snooty!
Why don’t we just look at our bullshit then?
Iffy, crappy, scrappy!
You would be best off far alone.
I am really so sick of you.
And I hate you.

shiina ringo likes love songs and hate songs. i love shiina ringo. but really, i hate her. i cant make up my mind. like shiina ringo. thats why she sings all these random love songs. and then one day she decides to stop singing. goes get married to some guy. has a daughter. divorces him 10 months later. (or something like that). and then sings again, but now they are all these hate songs. but theres still the random love songs. because we cant escape love. omgomg that sounds so.. something. i should go start my own band now.

how to use yahoo japan's auction!? omgomg. currently theres fra-foa's aojiroi tsuki single PROMO edition being auctioned. and i want! omgomg. it just has one more song than the normal single. and its a radio edit. but omg. want want! and theres people that actually sell their first album!!! which i haven't been able to find anywhere else!. and two other singles that i dont have. which if i got, i would have 5/6! and then omgomg i would be so close. ahH!HHHH. must learn how to use yahoo japan auction. but bah. even if i could read japanese. they probably wouldn't ship to america. sighsigh.

so i just changed my graphics card fan. and omg im so happy. because i was reading reviews on that fan. and it involveed all this crazy taking apart stuff and bare silicon and high chance of damaging. and like on newegg.com every other person said it screwed up their graphics card. so i was scared i was in the 50% failure rate. but so far its okay!. yayayayay. so now. cold! so cold. cold like the night.

omg this hot temperature is so hot. its like. the sun is closer. making my computer fry. omg artifacts everywhere. not old thing artifacts. computer artifacts. agata kristi's "secret" is a funny russian song. it has some random guy screaming and making weird sounds. and the main singer is doing the low talking type of singing thing. and its all creepy music. harharhar. and now the guy is getting tortured and hes dying. or something. it makes me giggle. like pools of blood. apparently spraining ankles can cause blood to do some internal bleeding thing. and then theres a pool of blood in the bottom of your foot or something. thats what people said. so i wonder if you can swing your foot around and have the blood slosh around. i guess not. because its like a bruise right? and swinging bruises around dont slosh. right? unless im getting lame bruises that are not working correctly. like my computer fans. wtfwtf. so hot. like shiina ringo. not really. her eyes are weird. left eye is larger than the right one. but that is okay. she makes happy music. and i am happy.

huh. i can sell my family value tickets for $300 now. (and apparently they are mosh pit tickets. zomg!)

money.!
or dir en grey.

oh. life is so hard.

a D m IrALkATAY: I would sit in borders reading them
a D m IrALkATAY: and put them back on the shelves
a D m IrALkATAY: I even bought some
a D m IrALkATAY: and then returned them!

roflmao:


anyways. in other news. I AM GOING TO SEE DIR EN GREY!!!! at family values!!! with KORN and DEFTONES and stone sour and flyleaf. omgomogmomg flyleaf sounds cool because its a metal female fronted band. but the girl is ugly. so eh. harhar. but omgomgomg dir en grey!! tickets for the closest section!! i might be able to touch kyo's blood! i paid extra to get aids. omgomgogmg.

huh. whats wrong with conformity? its not like we lose anything by conforming. and its easier on our brains because we can think less. what is there to lose!?

its so hard to wake up now. so lazy. nothing to look fowards to in the day. sometimes alarm beeps and then i turn it off. and just lie in bed. looking at the bottom of the bunk above me. (i have a bunk bed for some odd reason. and i sleep on the bottom one.) and then i just lie there and go back to sleep. and then i cant sleep because i always have to go take a piss eventually. and then i get up and shower. with the shower door that doesn't close well. and i go eat bread. its the same thing every day. or is it everyday? hm. whatever. spelling errors are okay. i am dyslexic. but not really. i can just use that as an excuse. because people always use their own problems as excuses to not do something. like me. i dont talk much and dont talk loudly because i tell myself that i am quiet. so i become that. and yea. but whatever. i like being that way. it makes me so vague and un-understandable. downward spiral. for all my grades and everything. it is finals week for college classes. cant wait to finish them. then much is over. 3 weeks of school i think?

just kidding. 4 weeks. art class is a joke now. actually, its always been. but now we go make a powerpoint presentation of an artist. and teacher thinks hes so cool. so he explains how to bold and underline and tries to explain image size using the kilobyte size. (not resolution size, so he thinks all those gifs are tiny). you know it is an art class when you spend more time picking an artistic font instead of actually writing material and content. like some people who make fancy layouts for websites, but dont have anything on the website. teacher told me that times new roman was lame. but i think its nice and pretty. but it is not. opinions are not welcome. theres a door here, but it will not break.

im getting senioritis towards this blog. huh. i dont know if its 'towards'. at first i wrote 'on' but that didn't make sense. but then i dont think any preposition works. so whatever. insert your own preposition to make it work. and the internet died, so i wont be able to post this entry for a long time.

that was supposed to be posted yesterday

i f331 50 w45t3d: and apple is doing like
i f331 50 w45t3d: opposite of reality
i f331 50 w45t3d: the low end models are white
i f331 50 w45t3d: high end model is black

that was posted today.

omg the vagueness of it all.

two years ago, i wrote this:

thanks to ms bergantz, i now have a paper that has a self-evaluation. since it might actually become somewhat useful sometime, i guess ill answer a question a day or something.

6. What experiences have shaped your growth and way of thinking?

Going to high school has changed me. Life is different. yay.

yea. and thats the only question i have ever written and answered. so much for a question a day. but i think i can answer this question now. even though college apps are all over. i think. actually. i cant. because i dont care anymore. so yea. too bad. oh! heres another post from the may that was 2 years ago:

have you ever felt happy and depressed at the same time? like something is so sad, but its happy? or something is so happy, but its so sad? or something? neither have i.

yea. what weird things. i'm writing this post to check my blockquote tag to see if theres any css attached to it. because im too lazy to read the code for my site. because ive retired from that nonsense. if all goes well, there will already be code and these quotes will be indented and all cool. like some layouts from blogger already have cool blockquote things attached to them. yea. so time to test.

edit: apparently only indents. so i must edit code. i dont even know why i am doing this. its not like i quote a lot of things. i only quote myself. and this is like only once. oh well. something to do is good.

17, lighter fluid, stolen charcoal, mermaid, tanning, flying umbrellas, crab things, 17.

harhar.

this was post 1100, btw.

today i had 4 free class periods. to do whatever. out of four classes. i guess thats good. but there is nothing to do at school. so i sat in the corner and cried.

hi everybody...
i wonder if anyone remembers...
when i still typed like this...
like...
a long time ago...
way back...
before i even had this blog...
i dont even know why i suddenly typed in long sentences and put everything together. and jumbled everything together into long paragraphs. it was a really odd thing. i guess i just woke up one day and decided to write in chunks. but i almost forgot all about it. until some person showed me a xanga and xangas always make me feel sad and suicidal. and i reminded me of my old blog. and so it was lame. but whatever. i dislike the old days. always live for the future! or something.

i f331 50 w45t3d: 41 minutes 8 seconds to calculate pi on this desktop
i f331 50 w45t3d: 32 million digits that is
i f331 50 w45t3d: save to text file
i f331 50 w45t3d: 35.9 MB
i f331 50 w45t3d: zip becomes just under 17 MB
i f331 50 w45t3d: too large for email

I've just been letting everything pass me by , but oh well. What can I say? I've just been hanging out doing nothing, but eh. Basically not much notable going on. My life's been completely dull these days. Not much on my mind lately, but pfft.

Current Mood: unenthusiastic

hahahaha. i cant believe i forgot all about the random journal generator!

once i had a dream that i was playing a game. and in the game we had to guess other people's words. so my word was "nurse". (i dont know why). but we were supposed to give a hint. so my hint was shiina ringo. and no one understood. and so they could never guess my word. and they all got angry at me. and sent assassins to kill me. i felt so rebellious. it was great. im so underground. lzol!

adventures in hot topic part 2. so today i went to hot topic and looked at the wall. and couldn't find the dir en grey shirt. and so i was sad because my neighbor already got the deg shirt from that store. so i asked the most asian employee. its hard because they all have black hair and are so emo. and that guy didn't know. and i was like wow wtf know your bands that you sell more please. and the guy was like sorry and he went to ask some black employee. and the black employee was like oh yea we have shirts. and was like !LL!L! and they put the shirts in the hardest place to find. kthx. whatever. i got it. its the zombie shirt. which is really ugly. but omg dir en grey shirts in america. for the price of a normal shirt! not that $30 nonsense!!!

roflmao. the new dir en grey dvd of "tour05 - it withers it withers" should be called "kyo smokes too much - dir en grey instrumentals" or something. well, thats what i think after seeing "the final" live. its not really a hard song to sing compared to the other songs. but he skipped like most of the song!. like he did well to the first chorus. let out that scream at the end of the chorus. (with a lot of energy). and then suddenly, stopped singing. he just stood there and acted emo and was like omgomg suicide. and he started talked to himself or something. except i couldn't hear it because he didn't talk into the mic. and he screamed randomly. the screams were in the microphone. so thats all i could hear. so its lame. kyo must be smoking too much and his lungs cant stand singing anymore. and he has really hairy armpits in this dvd. ... yea. so i dont like the dvd. but there were a few good things about the dvd. like lots of blood! blood everywhere. thick blood dripping out of mouth. blood moustache. blood beard. blood everwyhere. mmm. and the random zoom up of this random asian guy in the crowd. it was pretty funny.


it zoomed in really close to this guy's face. roflmao. i bet he was getting killed by all the fangirls around him.

today, i was doing my business in the bathroom. not in a stall. one of those standup toilets. and then suddenly 2 white boys walk in together. (seems kind of odd because boys dont usually go to the bathroom together.) and then they stop in the middle of the bathroom. theres lots of unclaimed toilets! what are they doing?! go unbutton your pants and go piss! and suddenly they put down their backpacks. so gross! the bathroom floor where everyone pisses on the floor and all that nonsense. and one of the guys pulls out a sandwich bag filled with little plant leaves in it. and then he saw me. and then he told his friend "your mom wanted me to get her some pesto." and then i suddenly understood. he was just getting his friend's mom some spices for good cooking. what a good boy. and he even made sure no one saw him by going to the bathroom! i bet it must be really good pesto. secret recipe.

on a totally unrelated topic. i finished my ap tests. all TWO of them. omg so hard. stats on tuesday and art today. it was a difficult art test. it was just mainly sticking those ap barcode identification things on the art pieces and the grading sheets and everything. i almost failed. because i almost ran out of barcodes. but i really want to keep the barcodes this year omgomg! its the 50th anniversary of ap test. i bet my ap booklet will be worth lots of money in the future. special edition. mmmm.

hm. so in english we are reading "the things they carried". which is a book about the vietnam war. and in this book its talking about cowardice and how its better to follow one's belief and not go to war if not agree. but i was thinking. the author must not really think the war is that bad anymore. because. sure, its bad. but if he ran away to canada like he said, then he wouldn't have been able to write this book. and then he wouldn't have been able to win awards. and stuff. oh well. its a good book though. well, first 4 chapters are interesting.

so i just drove back from santa cruz because i had to go get slides for my art stuff. and oh my. its quite scary. mountain roads are weird. it was okay driving there because all the turns were on the uphill. but on the way back all the turns were on the downhill. so i thought i would die. then ayumi hamasaki's "winding road" started playing. and everything was fine. i risked my life for art. what a crazy way to die. if i wanted to risk my life, i would try to get to a dir en grey show or something. but then actually being at the show is also risking my life. because its like suicide. crazy loud so i can go deaf. and crazy goth fangirls with chains and spikes that are dangerous. and the lead singer bleeding everywhere spreading aids. did you know korn's lead singer got the nickname HIV because in high school he was always beat up. so he named himself HIV so people wouldn't make him bleed. yea. silly silly. and korn is also sponsored by adidas. hahahaha.

WOW ART TEACHER DOESN'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO SPELL PALETTE.

ughH!HGH. library is so lame. so. friend borrowed this dvd from the library. just because she saw it had chiaki kuriyama on it! yay! so she let me borrow her borrowed dvd. and then im so excited and giggly. and i put it in and get ready to have some horror movie that i can be like omgomg all over. but! its all scratched up! omg. it doesn't even play! theres cyclic redundancy erroR GOMWRGRLG. !!! bah. people at the library are so mean! i take out the dvd and see theres huge circular scratches on it! its a perfect circle. sigh. so i cant watch this silly japanese movie. oh well. time to study for art ap. because i really need to study for art. oh wait! there is no ap test. oh yea. ap portfolios are due this friday. and someone in art told the teacher she wouldn't be here tomorrow becuase of ap calculus. and teacher was like "huh!? ap tests started already?! this early!?". and i wanted to say "wow you're an ap teacher". but i didn't. because im not like that.

i really should be studying for stats. but i'm not. because i really shouldn't be. because if i dont know stats by now, i think its pretty much hopeless. so whatever. i've studied a lot during class. i'll study tomorrow. i have all morning. because stats is afternoon ap test. and i have to wake up early tomorrow because tomorrow is tuesday and that means 0 period math 78! i can go get my midterm and quiz back tomorrow. and theres only 6 weeks left of school. quite fantastic. kind of. i guess i'm supposed to be sad i'm leaving everyone and all that stuff. but. i dont know. i guess ill feel that way later. im procrastinating it. and weather is hot. hot hot. and with my computer on. its even hotter.