i still dont understand why people put their school addresses in their AIM profiles. how come people dont ever put their home address in their AIM profiles? huh.

i hate labs.

my head hurts. i want to gouge out my eyeball.

wednesdays are miserable days. but today is not wednesday. so it is not miserable. but that doesn't mean all miserable days are wednesdays. so today could still be miserable. but it is not, i think. what am i saying? i need to study economics. today is halloween. but i dont think i will crossdress today. but that is okay. because i crossdressed for halloween parties that were before this halloween. so i shall post some of those crossdressing pictures.



that is one. my quota for the year is finished.

laibach (a fascist band) did a cover of rammstein's "ohne dich" (without you). and they changed the lyrics. instead of "without you, i cannot be" it became "without me, you cannot be." harhar. i love laibach. they are super fascist so they dont interact with their crowds at their concerts.

yay more cancelled classes. now i dont know what to do.

i always get myself into such troubles.

oh well.

another thing about that indian movie that made it different and cool. the way the person died wasn't cancer or leukemia or some other cancer. it was just heart attack. which makes MUCH more sense symbolically.

you know, i still dont know if rin toshite shigure's lead singer is a boy or girl. i know the background singer is a girl. but is that singer a boy or girl!? sometimes he sounds like a boy. sometimes she sounds like a girl. s/he has a high voice. and s/he looks like a girl. but also a boy. aguhahgh! and they aren't visual kei. they aren't boys that dress up as girls. its odd that its easier to tell visual kei bands. but not these bands that dress normally! wtfwtf.

so i watched this movie called "kal ho naa ho". it's an indian movie. and it's 3 hours long. and the title means "tomorrow may or may not come". and therefore, it was quite emo. so here's the story. girl is sad. and she hates her life. her friend is boy2. boy2 loves girl. then boy1 comes into girl's life. girl loves boy1. boy1 loves girl. but boy1 has to die. therefore boy1 tries to make girl love boy2. so girl can have love when he is dead. it's pretty sad. sadder than most of the normal emo dramas. i guess that is why it won 16 awards. anyways. i am confused about the time. because daylight savings is lame lame!

i have a pound of pretzels. so good. salt and dry things. love love love. buy me pretzels. there was a frat party today/yesterday. since it is past midnight. but its pretty cool. i walked over. and then there was a huge bouncer with a beer can costume. and he said we needed to wear a costume to go in. so we walked away. and went home and cried. since we're not accepted. and then since we didn't even get into the party, we cant even drink our sorrows away. oh well. it was kind of scary anyways, since all these huge white people and smoking and weird stuff. so i just played kungfu with a swiffer.

the new eisbrecher album is quite awesome. its really industrial/dance. and wow. i heard samples before and i was like wow wtf. they sound so bad now. and then i decided to listen to the album. and it is quite cool. its nice how every song fades into each other. awesome awesome. i like eisbrecher again. much better than eisbrecher (the album), which was more rock. with electronics. this one is more industrial. wowowo!. beautiful. anyways. saw 3 came out today. need to watch.!

wow. i opened up my lab notebook. and the edge of a page was eaten up by that acid. sigh.

someone was smoking in the dorm or something. and then its central air conditioning. so yay. everyone can enjoy strong second hand smoke! yay!

i think i got some acid or whatever on my lab notebook. oh well.

consumption function is a funny phrase. that's why macroecon is a fun class. not really. but i like consumption function!

i'm going to drop life. too bad i am way past my drop deadline. drop deadline was way back in the first trimester. but now i am what. in my 27th semester? plus like 4 years of nothing. or something. so now, if i drop, i get a big F. F for failure. therefore, i shouldn't drop life. if i drop, i have to retake again. so i guess i should just finish this course normally.

theres a minor planet named rammstein. and it was named after the german band. thats pretty cool. i want to travel there. maybe in the future.

and holy shit. a rammstein demotape sold for 725 euros. freaken insane.

korn's lead singer, jonathan davis, stopped drugs and alcohol in 1999. 1999 was the year "issues" was released. their last good album. probably their best. it was all downhill from then. the connection, i don't know. but i think its a weird coincidence. i think jonathan davis is a really cool guy. he had "HIV" tattooed on his shoulder, so when bullies beat him up, the bullies would be afraid to beat him until he bled. he also plays world of warcraft. and has a lvl 60 character. harhar. highest level. rofl, his blog is really funny.

what up guys and girls
im chillin at home happy as all hell
i get to chill with my babies
went to dr today platlets all good
happy bout that too
well im still waitin on the blog people
to fix this shit so i can put pics and
vids up hopefully soon they will
get it fixed intill then just boring text
take care yall

thats from after his sickness about his blood platelets. harhar.

i think it's weird that like every chemistry lab quiz/exam has a reference to alcohol. and even in the lab book. for example.

A word of warning, most chemistry professors are weird and enjoy the puzzle of balancing redox equations and therefore want to expose their students to this pleasure. We'll start with the oxidation of ethyl alcohol by dichromate (this is the way blood alcohol is measured if you get arrested for DUI).

odd. eh. and i think it's odd that i can redox by half reactions. and not redox by oxidation numbers. wtf!

i am feeling bitter. bitter like bittermelon. is that redundant? i don't even know why i'm bitter. i just feel like it. well, this bitterness just makes me more bitter. therefore i'm blasting korn, only into my ears though. because i dont want to disturb my roommate. this reminds me of like 9th grade. when life sucked. but i guess it makes sense. since both are freshmen. anyways, i'm really liking korn's trash, here to stay, good god, falling away from me, and the entire follow the leader album. go find those now. and drown yourself in such hate. i dont even like it. but whatever.

but i guess i am, because people think i am. oh well.

i hate school. i'm basically here for 3 years to take 12 semester classes plus a bullshit 1 unit class. too bad prerequisites are so stupid. and i didn't take bio this semester, because my 3 year layout plan said i'm not supposed to. but i'm done with almost all my ge's. all this extra time. what am i supposed to do?! and they dont even have bio 51 2nd semester. so i cant just start bio with all this extra time i have. unless i could take 61 first, before 51. but that is odd. and i dont think it will even let me. life is so hard. i am so bitter.

i got a spam mail selling me organs.

i think the most amazing thing i have ever learned in my life (so far) was the integral. everything else seems kind of intuitive. like, gas laws. if you increase pressure, of course the volume gets smaller. if you have a larger volume, obviously theres more air. economics. if theres too much supply, then lower price and sell the extra. and stuff like that. but whoever knew that the un-slope of a curve could be the area under the curve. thats like, wowow wtf! but only integrals are cool. derivatives aren't as cool.

i watched grudge 2 yesterday. its funny watching movies in stockton, i think. because everyone here is a gangster. and then when a random thing pops out, someone will yell "WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT OMG!". and then it doesn't seem that it is very scary. even though it wasn't that scary. except when miyuki died. because that was just weird. and frying pan to the head is pretty funny. i love silly things like that. and i cant believe the miyuki actress was misako uno from jpop group AAA. i thought she would have been some american japanese person. not a person that is actually japanese japanese. but how does she know how to speak english!? its okay though. because we're all going to die. with hate and everything.

my life is incredibly dull at the moment. i need some excitement. oh wait, it's school. we are supposed to study. i feel tired. but not. after i drink energy drinks, i think i slow down even more. it is having bad effects on me. what to do?

so person i know was like omgomogmg lets go to taiwan during the summer for study abroad. and i was like omgomogmg okay. and then we searched it up. and found out taiwan was fall and spring only. so too bad! and anyways, the only thing we could study there was chinese. and chinese culture. thats all! so person was like omgomg lets look at china. so we looked at china. and there is a summer session. so yay! but then we saw "chinese bootcamp" for the first two weeks. and its 4 hours a day of rigorous chinese training. so no. and its freaken simplified chinese too! wimpy ugly chinese. so i guess i am not doing any of the cool things that cool people do.

anyways. i bought a soundcard for laptop because there was a 40$ rebate. an audigy 2 zs. too bad my laptop uses the expresscard slot now. and apparently the soundcard uses the now-outdated cardbus. so wowo! how was i supposed to know!? technology changes too fast. and no refunds. which is lame. so i'm going to get my rebate and then sell it on ebay. which is it listed right now. i better earn money. i had to walk all the way to the mail room!. which is so far away.

i was asked if i ever read back to my old posts. and i do. and i really don't like my old self. i think i am glad that i changed to whatever i am now. but maybe the future me wont like myself right now. or maybe its better to not be able to remember, then i wont hate myself. or i will hate myself for not being able to remember. whatever this blog is almost 4 years old. i originally wanted to only do it through high school. but i still haven't stopped. even though i kind of have, with stupid one line posts now. its okay though. because i dont care. its not fair. wowowow. thats from FIR's i dont care. its a funny song. they got really angry and it became not typical chinese pop. tomorrow is friday. yatta.

did i tell you people that someone gave me her fish? and she had the same 1 gallon water bottle that i bought. oh well. so i had 7 fish. then natural selection took place. and now i am down to 3 fish. fish need their room also. oh well. at least i know these three fish are strong! hopefully.

when someone flushes the toilet, all the sink water turns hot. it's pretty cool. it's also pretty hot.

i have my dress for halloween. now i need to grow longer hair.

rofl, who knew that wireless could have an effect on my soundcard. so apparently my sound was getting all weird at random times. and then i was like wtfwtfwtF! so i tried many things. and then i turned off my wireless, and it works fine now. wtflol?

i bought a new 1 gallon water bottle for my fish. it was on sale. i need to drink a gallon of water. i need to go to the bathroom. i also got a bubble/filter thing. so there can be air for my fish. so they dont suffocate under water. but it is quite loud. i think i will turn it off at night. it is making my fish fly around. because they are still in the small 2 liter bottle. i think i will mod up my 1 gallon water bottle and make it cool. maybe.

getting any? is a funny movie. it was considered kitano's suicide movie. where he lost reason and he decided to make a purposely shitty movie. and so, getting any? was made! yay. its so cool. basically, its about some guy who just wants to get some sex. and he sees on tv, some car sex. so he goes off and buys a car. and then that doesn't work. and then he gets a convertible. and that doesn't work either. and then he tries to get first class tickets because he thinks they will be 'serviced' by the attendants. then he tries to be a famous actor. he even sells his grandfather's organs. and yeayea. in the end he turns into a fly and dies. and his last words was "car sex". i thought it was a funny movie. but it was really stupid. and it does seem like a theatre suicide. but oh well.

swimming is kind of enjoyable.

energy drinks before sleep, causes really weird dreams. anyways, i have 5 goldfish now. they are kept in a 2 liter pepsi bottle. i don't know how i'm going to get them out of the bottle if they grow larger. oh well. thats a later problem. i have to worry about keeping them alive right now.

WOW. 11 more peaches.

18 peaches for 18th birthday. how symbolic. i am eating my life. one year at a time.

18. i can do whatever i want. except consume alcohol and probably lots of other things that i don't care much about. but i will focus on school. because midterms are great fun!

at school, everyday feels like a friday.

or maybe i am just weird.

china's underground rock scene is pretty funny. well, actually i think all chinese rock is underground, since communists don't like that stuff. like silver ash. it was some rock/crossdressing band that got pretty famous. and then one day they died. and resurrected as a band called "toy". which makes pop music now. i guess the government got to them. anyways, im listening to this band called "cold fairyland". and one of the band members plays a pipa. its quite odd. but its cool. too bad they use wimpy simplified chinese.

omgomg its chiaki kuriyama's birthday. harharh. i cant believe i forgot. whatever.

so youtube was bought by google for $1.65 billion. good job. now they are rich for making a video upload website. which i find kind of stupid. but whatever. anyways. those founders made a video and posted it on their featured on first page. and the comments are really funny. i want to cry for humanity.

enersha1 (14 hours ago)
how did this get featured

yea. how did it get featured? youtube doesn't own youtube anymore. google does.

cloud1031 (13 hours ago)
you guys sold urself out -_-

lololol. its so cool to be independent and make no money lolslolZzllozlz. so some smartass makes a smart comeback.

DrumStickz (13 hours ago)
1.65 Billion Dollars.

That's like having a million dollars, ONE HUNDRED SIXTY FIVE FUCKING TIMES! If you're retarded enough to turn THAT down, then you must be fucking INSANE.

rofl. no comment.

i went to buy a rockstar drink today. i wanted double size. but i accidentally bought a triple size. they tricked me. i hate my life.

lolol i have two exams on day after birthday.

i like moon cakes.

i f331 50 w45t3d: cup noodles
i f331 50 w45t3d: when i was little
i f331 50 w45t3d: the stylized Os always confused me
i f331 50 w45t3d: and i always read it as cup needles

okay, thats weird. i was listening to AJICO. and on one of the live albums, i saw that there was dave brubeck in the credits. and i was like omgomg. because dave brubeck is that jazz musician that university of pacific loves to talk about. because he's so cool. and hes famous. and he's alumni. and now he's really cool. because he worked with AJICO!

i interviewed a pharmacist today.

HxaMaxH: omg im gona facebook gackt
HxaMaxH: uc tokyo

one more hour of class from 7:45 to 8:45 and my week is over.
no class on thursdays.
and random day off on friday. that is why.
i will go home.
and maybe interview a pharmacist.
since i need to interview two in this semester.
and i only plan on going home twice this semester.
tomorrow.
and thanksgiving.
i have peaches.

its been a while since i last listened to 'the brilliant green'. brings back memories of a few years ago. but memories and emotions attached to them are useless. because they are just problems that are caused by our third brain. in pacific seminar reading, i learned about brains. and we all have three. 1st one is a reptile one. theres some second one. and the 3rd one is the emo one. but i learned the general theory of love. and the difference between 'loving' and 'in love'. its okay though. i want to be able to use my reptile brain more than the other two brains. then i can live like a robot. i will be able to direct my emotional life in the same way that i bid my motor system to reach for a cup. that would be cool. then i can be like 'omg i hate you all'. and mean it.

pacific seminar book says reptiles don't have an emotional life. i want to be a reptile. or not.

papa roach like 6 years ago when i liked them.


papa roach now.

i think its so funny that they have become so emo. and everything. and their new cd just came out apparently. and its pretty emo. actually they became emo on their 2nd album. and now its the 4th. first album was still pretty good. and this album is pretty okay for an emo album. its just punk emo. and they still never fixed the problem that all their non-single tracks feel just like filler. which was okay for their first album because there were kind of a lot of singles. last resort, between angels and insects, and broken home. okay fine, its 3. but there was like 11 tracks. new album has 15 tracks. and 1 single. to be loved. harhar.

it rained today.
i didn't bring an umbrella.
i was going to get it next weekend when i go home.
but apparently, rain came faster than expected.
and i am stuck inside.
but i am always stuck inside.

azN xrE taRD BOI: gas laws are more important
i f331 50 w45t3d: gass
i f331 50 w45t3d: ggggaasssss
azN xrE taRD BOI: KE = 3/2RT
i f331 50 w45t3d: lolol pwnage
i f331 50 w45t3d: and i thought you were talking about the election
i f331 50 w45t3d: prop for gasoline etc.

thats a random computer generated girl. technology is crazy now. except hair. they will never get that right.

i slept at 5 this morning. i was watching ping pong. and bug me not. i need to get the ping pong soundtrack. supercar made a bunch of the songs! yayay!. and bug me not is just a cool movie. the girl can talk to bugs. then after that. lots and lots of alanthebox.com movies! yayayay! then sleep. because sleep is good. then woke up. and went to lunch. but its not really lunch. its called brunch here. because on weekends theres only two meals. brunch and dinner. and dinner is lame. because it ends at 6:30. and then they open the other store that meal plan doesn't really cover. and costs money. so mean. but its okay. because i have lots and lots of peaches. not really. i ate them all.