education is depressing. in chemistry, we learn that there is something called entropy. and we will all fall apart and become atom particles and never form back together again. you cant stop that! in biology, there's evolution. we're just another step, we're a random accident, we won't exist in a few more years. too bad we can't stop mutations. in economics, everyone is greedy and no one will share. thats why people want profits. and thats why they wont get any. in math, there's numbers that never end. and they describe the world. we're all doomed. doomed to doomage. even in art, it fell apart once people stopped drawing what they saw. and drew what they percieved. i hate school.

college is so overrated. it's not that fun. tomorrow is going to be horrible. because it is wednesday. i hate wednesdays. but it is a new day. i guess i can try to make it great. too bad i cant. i fail. like a failure. ua is a cool word in swahili. it means flower or kill. i want to be named ua. days with nothing to do are depressing because they are times to think and thinking always creates problems. same with boring classes. they are depressing also. whatever! almost done with one semester. not really. 3 more weeks, then final week. then christmas. then a few weeks. then back again. life is dull. but that is what school is preparing us all for, right? a dull life. theres a scheduled outage at 7PM for blogger today. so i have to finish writing something before then or else i cant publish this post. which probably would be a good thing. since this post is just crying and complaining. without the crying part. because it would be weird. yes it would be.

whatever happened to mucc!? what happened to the band that was all about despair. and faking suicides. and telling all the fuckers in this world to go die?! whatever happened to being sick of dreams. being sick of life?! now they are all happy and balloons and dancing and frolicking in the fields. and wearing glasses! it must have been the name change. oh well.

i hate school. especially lab. why am i doing this? i dont care about people's health. fix your own body.

there's only one memorable song though.

okay, i spoke too soon. the first half of the album sucks. the 2nd half is decent sad music. what i expect from ayumi. so is it still worth buying? hm.

the new ayumi hamasaki album SUCKS. like the last three albums. or whatever. omg. so bad. no wonder she is not jpop queen anymore. but the cd i dont know if i want to buy it. because ive bought every one of her albums from before. am i going to let this one album break the tradition?! i still have chance to preorder it. because if i buy it, it has to be the limited edition one. since my last 2 albums were both limited edition versions. thats another tradition also. harhar. but i think its good to stop buying ayumi albums now. i will now switch to shiina ringo! i guess. sigh. disgusting album. sigh.

happy birthday to shiina ringo. she is now 28. wowowwo. its okay though.

black friday. bought nothing. did go to compusa's 9-12 sale yesterday night. stayed until 1:30. played piano with friend with the keyboards. and played tic tac toe and connect four on the macs there. since there really is a need for network connect four or tic tac toe. also took over all the macs with pictures of ourselves. since they have some cool x-ray effect with the webcam. so took creepy x-ray photos and then set them as wallpaper. it was pretty weird. that is all. came back with nothing. nothing to buy anyways. by the time i got in, everything was sold out. even display models. harhar.

i cooked the turkey this thanksgiving. it was quite bloody with lots and lots of weird organs in a bag and a neck stuck in the body cavity. it was quite odd. because i couldn't find the neck. and then it randomly fell out when i picked it up. wowow. anyways. it was a cold turkey. and my hand was cold afterwards. but thats okay. i want turkey. black friday shopping? i want to. but i dont have any needs or wants. i am thankful for all of you.

Knowledge is power. Power corrupts. Corruption is a crime. And, crime doesn't pay.

i am standing here not really i am sitting down i am going to try and write this all without any punctuation it will get really annoying but that is cool because it will engage the reader more the reader will be more engaged as they try to figure out where all the breaks and punctuations should have been it also makes the writing more deep because people might see punctuations in different places and then it will give different feelings and then it will feel more deep there will be symbolism and everything maybe just because i am too lazy to dot the end of sentences myself it is almost thanksgiving it is tomorrow and i am thankful for many things i am thankful for you too and everything else we are only thankful on one day out of the year then it is black friday shopping and we can be horrible and kill each other for great deals but after being thankful. oops i failed at not punctuating crycry

i really cannot wait until february 2007. album releases from dir en grey. and shiina ringo!!!!! even though she said she quit being solo like 3 years ago, SHES BACK! ZOMG!!!!! GWLKRGWLRg cannot wait. she did release a download only release of one version of one single. which is quite cool. more more more. soon. oh yea. ayumi hamasaki also has a new album in a few days. i need to get that also. and i have ordered rammstein's limited edition voulkerball dvd/cd. it should be arriving. today was also the release of some compilation album with mono doing one song on it. i want that song. and i like post-rock. so i need to buy that compilation album also. wowowwowow.

home at last. wonderful home.

i dont really care what type of people get on a 6 person lifeboat when there are 10 people. this doesn't affect what a good society is. as long as i am on the boat, i dont care who else is on there. pacific seminar is stupid.

so at the hot topic here, there's some black employee that is really obsessed with japan, the music and anime and stuff. he always talks to me whenever i go because i buy the overpriced japanese magazines that hot topic has. he always says he wants to get more bands in. more than just dir en grey. he wants orange range and other stuff. he did get SHOXX magazine. more than just cure magazine now. pretty cool. oh well.

"Does this dress make me look fat?"

"Your fat makes you look fat."

it's really foggy here at night. its pretty cool. the lights do weird things and everything! yay.

entry number 1337

"This is a great way to solve the case! Just ignore it! Then the culprit will kill off everyone that is a nuisance and the remaining one is the culprit!"

"That's a wonderful process of elimination!"

people are so evil. theres no such thing as people thinking for others. its always just for own benefit. i think we are killing ourselves because of evolution. we got the power to reason and annoying emotions. how sad.

anyways, this is post # 1336. the next one will be 1337. harharharhar.

409 and lysol work well to kill ants apparently.

theres a huge ant problem on my floor. its all because of the recycling bins! wowow!

it doesn't matter in the end anyways.

most of the dir en grey tickets for the february north american tour sold out in 10 minutes of presale. sigh. its not like i can go anyways. since its all the way in LA. and kyo needs to stop bleeding and start singing. it was cool before. now its getting in the way of the music. most of it is just screaming and rawr-ing. i guess that gets the blood out and into the crowd. but wow. dir en grey is dead. what kind of single is called "agitated screams of maggots".

i remember that in 8th grade, my science teacher told me that there was more to life than school. since then, my grades have declined and i never figured out what those "things to life" were. sigh.

i'm nothing. there's no memories of the future. not even memories of the present. because its always memories of the past. time changes. my shoes are dirty. i could wear dirty shoes or switch shoes. but will wear dirty shoes. because they are sandals and those are easier to wear. i dont even know why i wear shoes in my room. i dont really. i just dont like touching the ground with my feet. theres broken tiles on the ground. it is in the shape of africa. its the size of africa also. my hair is falling out. it is getting long, so hair falls out faster i guess. or it could be of the nonexistent stress i have. its okay though. stress will start next semester. i will have chem, bio, physics, and a pacific seminar class in religion. which i think is funny. because its religion among a bunch of science classes. yay. and then next year i shall i have ochem, microbio, physics, public speaking. and then next year 2nd semester i shall have ochem, anatomy, physiology, and some other course. and then ill be done with all the undergrad stuff! but only if i get into pharm school. my whole life is planned out. thats what i can do with this stressless first semester, without bio. but i need to take that this summer. so i can catch up. because im a loser in 3 year plan. yesterday, i looked at a bunch of pictures of the past. like high school. and i didn't feel very sad. im sick of the past.

i think the band positions of rin toshite shigure are pretty funny. well, only one. one guy gets the guitar and vocals. the girl gets bass and vocals. the other guy gets drums and sadism. ...wtf?! and he doesn't look like the one that would be sadistic. they probably just gave him that job because everyone else had 2 roles. and a singing drummer would be horrible! i think the boy vocal should get sadism also because hes ugly and looks like a girl. an ugly girl. i need more music from them now. omgomg. too bad i have their discography. need live recordings or something. do they even exist? oh well.

i watched some movie yesterday. i already forgot the title. and the main boy's name was the title. which is pretty sad. oh well. its about some boy that plays girls and the girls want to kill him. oh! its something tucker. i dont know. whatever. i learned a lot from that movie. i think im going to stay single for the rest of my life now.

dir en grey is back in the US in february 2007. in LA. again. sigh. oh well.

i am going on a post-rock frenzy. omgomogmogm i love it.

i'm not a confusing person. i understand myself perfectly well.

WASTE OF MY FUCKING SERVER SPACE! HOW DO I TURN THIS SHIT OFF.

wow blogger beta is annoying. and making new pages for each post.

Watching the shepherd giving his sheep good food and tending to their needs, a person might think that the shepherd actually cares about the sheep for their own sake. In fact, however, he is feeding and caring for them only because he wants to prepare them for sale or for slaughter.

im done with nothing.

i dont care much about politics. because i think there is loss either way. no one cares about the people. no one is really willing to do something for another. its all evil anyways. theres no benefit to. so whatever. but now we have to write an essay in pacific seminar that has to do with politics kind of. which is lame! now i have to get involved and get out of my ignorance, which i liked being in. bah.

i have this bad habit of getting bad grades in classes that i dont think are important. in middle school there was mock trial. in high school, there was japanese, english, history, and yea. but i cant let it happen in college! bah for pacific seminar. it feels so useless. because it is. sigh.

windstruck sucks. dont watch it. its supposed to be the prequel to my sassy girl, kind of. but it still sucks. they both suck. but windstruck has x japan's "tears" which is an awesome song. therefore, windstruck has some coolness. but not much.

i want to eat something salty.

productive day at home. got a virus on my computer. prescribed drugs with mcafee. didn't work. searched on yahoo answers. and found a script that is designed to play with this virus. because it infects registry and files. and everything. and so i went into safe mode and murdered it. i also went to the high school homecoming dinner. because friends were eating. so i went along and got a free dinner. because they paid for me. i drove them. harhar.

so i didn't expect to come home this weekend. but apparently i did. eh. oh well.

philosophies are silly. we spend lots of time to discuss and argue and talk. and the only real conclusion there is is that we are all doomed. suicide is the only way out. but that is doom also. we are doomed to dooming.

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sometimes life feels like a dream. like nothing is really happening. that is how my dreams feel like. they just feel so weird that it feels so fake, and therefore nothing happens. therefore, my life feels fake? then what is life?

Who gives a crap about the butterflies and rainbows in your life? Would you watch a movie about happy people who do happy things in their happy lives? No. You pay to watch people's lives go to shreds because then your own miserable existence doesn't seem so bad.

its annoying being a pre-pharm student because of spam mail. you know how spam mail always sells people viagra and other drugs and stuff? well, sometimes they just label the subject "pharmacy" or something. so i think its important. and i open it. i think i'm going to switch majors now. bah. drops of 3 molar HCl fell on my hand. my hand also smells like acetic acid. and lab calculations took 1 hour. sigh.