last post of the year. so i bring you.
what i want to do / new year resolutions / whatever:

- study harder. (harder classes will need harder studying i think, so it will be an easy one.)
- learn enough chinese to read newspaper. (mom says 500 characters. 2 a day? eh.)
- learn to talk taiwanese instead of being only able to listen. (or just learn more.)
- be able to understand cantonese conversation. (diu ne lo mo. ham ga ling. pok gai.)
- learn liebestraume on piano. (its only 4 pages. too bad my hands aren't that strong)
- less idle sitting. (but what to replace that with?)
- i know! watch more movies. like trying to finish all of kitano, miike, kurosawa films. (and more chinese movies too.)
- save money.
- talk more. practice speaking in front of large crowds. (so i dont fail public speaking when i take it next school year.)
- find out what i want to do. (not like i can change.)
- care more.
- don't do all of this. (this way, i will never be able to finish this whole list. and i can be the failure i am.)


happy new year. 1 more year.

dir en grey is pretty funny. so they got one music video in america. saku. its a horrible video. about kids and cockroaches and death. or something like that. so mtv's headbangers ball (the show that does all the hard rock blahbalhbahb) had some voting thing to vote the best video. and saku was somewhere in the nominees. but mtv was stupid. because they allowed multiple votes. so, since dir en grey has rabid crazy fangirls and whatever. they all voted a billion times each. so dir en grey got first. rofl. and the host of the show was like wtf. "you guys will NEVER guess who got best metal video of the year." rofl. he was pretty pissed off. stupid stupid.

chengekinsucks: you know what
chengekinsucks: the women's bathroom was closed yesterday
chengekinsucks: so i went into the men's
chengekinsucks: and nobody said anything

「何が悲しい?」と尋かれたって
何も哀しんでなど居ないさ
丁度太陽が去っただけだろう
微かな希望と裏腹に
ごく当たり前の白け切った夕日を迎えた

東京事変 「落日」

turn left, turn right is a cool movie. its about these two people that met as kids and were like <333. but girl lost boy's phone number. so they never got each other's calls. and then in the future. they meet again. and they trade phone numbers. and then it rains. and it gets smeared. and so they cant ever reach each other. its a funny movie though. since they live right next to each other. only 1 wall between them. and they never know. and they are always near each other. but they never know. harharharh. cantonese people are funny. especially when they make movies in taiwan. so they speak mandarin. and its weirdly pronounced. but whatever. easier for me to understand, since they talk slower. no one in that movie could speak good mandarin. since takeshi kaneshiro is half japanese half taiwanese, so he speaks more japanese. and gigi leung is from hong kong. oh well.

usps is the lamest thing ever. i bought something on ebay. and it was supposed to arrive today or tomorrow. and from my room i can see the mailbox. so around the time that the mail comes, i look out the window and see the usps car drive. they were putting in the mail. and then they got in front of my house. my package is going to require a signature, so that mail carrier woman should get out of the car and walk towards my house. she didn't do that. so i guess my package tomorrow. so after my 3 hour nap, i wake up. and my mom put a "sorry we missed you!" paper telling me to go pick that package at the post office. and its dated today. wowow. didn't even come out and ring the doorbell. lazier, please!

accepted. is an odd movie. kid cant get into college so he makes a fake college. and blahblahbahla. it teaches you that rejects need to get accepted sometimes. and that good instutions are evil and anarchy is best. something like that. i think that that idea of "chasing your dreams" at college and "learning what you want" is a stupid excuse to have this fake college where people just do whatever. there needs to be rules. and, if you chose a major that you like, then you can chase your dreams and learn what you want. your own fault if you didn't choose an interest. and plus, its not the "best days of our lives" because if it was, then there would be no meaning to live after because it cant get better. kill yourself.

COMING SOON: EXTE

Taking the genre to new lengths, Japan's Toei has unfurled "Exte," a horror pic about hair extensions that attack the women that wear them.

but it has chiaki kuriyama. i need to see.

casino royale. wtf? that movie made no sense at all.

weird dreams. i had a dream i went back to high school to visit or something. and then i found out i was enrolled in math 73 again. oh my god. horrible nightmares. multivariable calculus comes back to haunt me. anyways. merry christmas. got back from skiing. or whatever. playing in the snow. since i am too lazy to ski. anyways. on the way back, we went to some chinese resturant. and the special of the day was crocodile meat! so i ate some. and its quite interesting. i also ate frogs. i like how in chinese they call frog meat "sweet chicken" or something. so i was confused for a while. but whatever. both are quite cool. i love reptiles and amphibians. mmm.

home at last.

i took a dump for the last time this semester. well, i think. next time i take a dump, it will be at home tomorrow. 1 more final. and then i can go home. and be bored. but whatever! study for next semester's classes! harharharhar. maybe i will. sigh. it's okay. whatever.

good spam.

What's wrong? asked a piglet. But the minister, who from the first had
been ill at ease, now became positively angry

one more final done. one left. anyways. in april, mono and world's end girlfriend are touring together! omgomgomg. coming to san francisco. on a friday! much better than dir en grey's february tour to san francisco on a sunday. i think i'll go to that mono and world's end girlfriend concert. that one will be really cool. i want to meet the members of mono, especially that lead guitarist, since he looks like a bum. and also want to meet that guy that is world's end girlfriend. wowowow. too bad i still dont know how to get to san francisco.

a lot of my hair falls out when i study. or attempt to study. or whatever. it is really weird. good thing my hair isn't that long yet. actually it is pretty long. oh well.

so oddly, i'm into rap music now. cantonese rap. with lots and lots of swear words. it gets me excited. not really. but it's pretty funny. since the only words i understand in cantonese are all swear words. and the phrase for "hello." but thats never used in rap songs.

reminder to self: dont eat grapefruits for breakfast before finals. grapefruits = citric acid. stress or something = stomach acid. citric acid + stomach acid = lots of acid. 10 molarity maybe. but whatever. its okay. life is okay. first college final. and it is over. time for 2 more. yatta.

i would have been a good engineer. just sit there quietly and solve equations. then get all the credit taken away. i could have lived with that. too bad i'm in pharmacy. whatever. go chemistry.

omg dir en grey is coming to san francisco feb 25! which means, i might be able to go! but it is sunday. concert starts 7:30. then end probably 10-11? and get back is 12? wowowwo. class next day! i wish i knew my next semester schedule. then it would be so much easier. but whatever! i will buy a ticket! but i still dont know how to get there. sigh.

STUDY STUDY STUDY. It is time to study.

so, i was playing maple story. and i was walking around. and i see this hot looking character. so i followed her around. and then she randomly disappeared. because she runs fast, she is like 8 levels higher than me. then i go off. and get killed. after dying in maple story, one gets sent back to the wonderful city. and in the city! i see my love! i run towards her. but she instantly says "i wont help you. stop following me around. go away." its pretty sad. i even got rejected in an online game. but at least she noticed me! har.

yay.

life is great! i dont remember any calculus at all! sigh.

rain rain rain. there is rain everywhere. it is flowing down the windows. and making dripping sounds. it is so cloudy. dark and gloomy. i wish i was special. but im a creep. yay. radiohead is so cool. the rain part wasn't radiohead though. that is from the rain outside.

why did you hide my toothbrush? it is so annoying when you do that. sigh. im going to stomp on you like an insect. what was your name again? i didn't get it. i'm sorry. world's end girlfriend - "all imperfect love song". 25 minutes of nightmares. although i usually cant last the whole time. usually quit at like 23 minutes. but wowowow. i like it when the guy goes ktsktsktsktsktsk. or whatever. i also like it when the piano lines randomly die. its like. a nightmare. everything is fragmented. i haven't had nightmares in a long time. i guess that's good. that's why i am listening to these nightmarish songs. oh, i know why i always quit at the end. the song gets hopeful. ahnokonyieu. thats what the guy says. random stuff. its okay. next song will be mono - "com(?)". nice moodswing music. with lots of distortion. no voices at all. nice and angry. then i think i'll listen to mr.children - "kurumi" and cry about memories of the past or something. because that song makes me think of back in the days. thats what its about anyways. music is annoying.

almost done with 1st semester. 1 week of lectures. then 1 week of finals. then home. alright then. lets go! fight

i ate very good ramen today. nice and spicy. makes me cry and sweat. and to celebrate i shall quote lyrics from nan quan mama's "what can i do."

What can I do 我的愛
碰到了你 壞不起來
What can I do 你的人
像泡麵 無所不在

Translation:
What can I do, Once my love
met you, it could not turn bad
What can I do, You are
like instant noodles, you're everywhere

everyone has to deal with the monotony of each day. no one is special because everyone is. a lot of things happened today. not really. but there's always hope. i want to eat ramen.

so ive been told that i seem to like to forget things. and i guess i do. but i usually remember things that are worth remembering. so i dont remember anything for tests and stuff. because they are not that important. i wish i could just remember everything. but the brain is limited. not really. but mine is.

so i watched densha otoko. the drama. in like 4 days. during the week i had 3 exams and a final. oh well. it worked out better than i expected. so yay.

so, dir en grey is releasing this fanclub only dvd. which has 2 dvds. the 2nd dvd has a bunch of stuff from america. even the family values. so i wonder if i can see myself in the crowd.! i did see the recording people point cameras at the crowd. hm. too bad its fanclub only.

last day of chem lab. last day of pharm orientation. so free.

i always lose motivation near the end of the semester. it is unhealthy.

this is so sad. rammstein's limited edition dvd/cd thing sold out in presale. and i bought it in presale. but i didn't get it. so then they emailed and said that there would be a second press. too bad, even the second press sold out. and i still haven't gotten it. and i preordered it 8 days before the actual release. wowowoww. and now the copies on ebay are like $200! WTF!

Max says: y does bear dissolve in water?
abraham says: why?
Max says: cuz its polar
Max says: L!O!l1oL!O!L

so i threatened to cancel account, and i got unsuspended. i have to remove that folder that is causing a lot of activity though.

rofl. apparently my website is so popular (which is complete stupidity), that my host suspended my website. so right now i am going to post on blogspot. or something. they wanted me to buy a personal server, which costs $90 a month at cheapest. and since i was a longtime customer, i would get a HUGE $10 off! wowowow. too bad thats still way over 10 times what i normally pay. so i guess i will try this for a while, until i solve something, or whatever. none of the images will work. oh well. whatever.

i am just an effect. no cause at all.

NEW SHIINA RINGO DVD IN FEBRUARY!!!!! GOWRMGOMRGWORMGOWRMGOMGG. i'm going to be so poor, since there is also an album. sigh.

it costs money to drink water, which is the 2nd most essential component for life. i think i will harvest air and sell it.

people are annoying. complain about water shortage. complain about the environment and stuff like that. don't live! living causes pollution. driving causes pollution. riding a bike does too! because some chemical plant had to make the rubber and metal and stuff! there was pollution. you cant escape! and pollution will always grow faster than it goes away! so we're all doomed! so in the long-run, we're all dead! we should think in the short-run and think about our own self-fullfillment. kill trees! and pollute the world. create smog. and make bigger holes in the ozone. it won't become a big problem until after we're all dead! let's eat babies.

saw iii is also a cool movie.

3 more weeks of school. 3 more tests and 4 finals. i think. maybe i counted wrong. but whatever.