i think i will change to a glucose-only diet. anything else is just inefficent for my cells.

almost 1/12 done with this year. wowowowo.

i think its good to be able to read chinese. then i would have realized that these packets of food that my mom gave me were actually pineapple cake. i suddenly realized that when i remembered the first character. and guessed the rest. so now i have like 20 pineapple cakes. and green tea. life is great.

i wish people would be more passive. life would be better.

木村カエラ - あの頃
Kimura Kaela - Those Times

Hey you,
do you remember those times?
It's not that you should ever forget them
[they] were like a dream...

If we could turn over a page,
I want to go back to those times

I didn't know that
everyone is happily tied together

But, but
we can't go back anymore
But in that case,
I will cry some more

Hey you,
As far as I'm concerned, you're a wonderful person
We aren't together right now, and so I can't be sure

If I realized it at the time,
I wouldn't have left you alone

There was so much pain
that I couldn't put my arms around [you]

But, but
we can't go back anymore
Please
[let me] go back to those times once more

But, but
we can't go back anymore
What are you doing [now]?
Are you happy?

i hate lab. always gives me headaches. good thing today we made aspirin. it was supposed to be crude aspirin so it would be useless and would probably kill us instead. but whatever. gets rid of headaches. too bad my aspirin got all weird. and i got very little of it. and then during the recrystalization, i got nothing. eh. harhar i love life.

lolol windows vista is incomplete. service pack 1 is already under development. lololol. i want that ultimate bill gates edition. so cool. even the box looks fancy. like the user interface. too bad you need a super computer to run vista. like one of those old computers that look up a room. except with the latest parts.

today my physics professor accidentally forgot the arrow above the variable to show its a vector. and when he found out he was freaking out. like omgomgomg we need that arrow. i need to respect my numbers and equations. omgomogm.g ggom. today i learned that if i dont respect and love my equations then they wont treat me well either. oh well.

the world officially ends on tuesday. with release of windows vista. wowowow use more resources for pretty things please. i want simple. i want windows 95 with improved features! not graphics! i dont want animated recycle bins! i dont want three dimensions. i want two! goddamnit.

its really dry here. i think. or i'm not eating enough vegetables or something. or im just dying. i had 3 bloody noses the last two days. its great fun. bleeding from the nose. one of those times, i looked at my biology book. and then blood started pouring out. its weird. biology is great! im supposed to study right now. but im listening to 'maximum the hormone'. some random japanese indie band. i think they are indie. they are too weird to be mainstream. but it is kind of like system of a down. with happy punk rock. hahahahhaah. oh well. study study. that is all we can do here.

bohr got a nobel prize for getting the correct answer the wrong way. i like how in school, they always teach all the wrong ways first. then they fix everything later on. kind of like my chem ap teacher. when he taught gas laws, he didn't tell us to use kelvin tempertures in pv=nrt. he said college will straighten us out.

ProjectJ is back!!! the website that basically got me into japanese music! when i first found it, i listened to like every band that was listed on there. found shiina ringo from there. and fra-foa! wowowow. too bad it was like last updated in 2002. and then one day it disappeared. in like early 2006 or something. and now its back! but under .org instead of .net. but whatever! the site is back and updated!! wowowow

i dont really care if our rights are restricted at schools. school is for getting good grades. and i really suck at giving speeches. i already said that two days ago. but its good to repeat things.

chinese metal bands (the ones from china, not taiwan, hong kong, or some other chinese speaking area) are so weird. they sample a lot of random things. theres one song that samples like a bunch of random news stations. and one that samples a bunch of american metal songs. like slipknot or mudvayne or stuff like that. and now im listening to a song that samples counterstrike! wowowowow. more random things please. wahtever. and they are weird also because they use simplified chinese. and it looks ugly. and i cant read it. not like i could read that much traditional chinese anyways. oh well.

im so bad at giving speeches. and i never talk in class. i hate talking in front of people. its so hard to change too. i wish i could change. but i cant. im a loser. im a creep. i wish i will have some quiet job in the future. just hide and do my job. but i cant. because im supposed to be a pharmacist. and we need to talk to people. i hate people. maybe research? but then what am i going to do. ill need a phd for that also. and dont get paid that much for research. oh well. maybe ill just. i dont know. i'm just going to drink green tea. because it tastes great.

today physics professor basically said that if you didn't know that integrals were areas, then you were a failure. failed life and everything. don't understand anything either. good thing i know integrals are areas. i am not a failure. because of that. but i could fail from other things.

wowowow. watched GTO again. too bad my dvd that i burned it on is like deteriorating or something. annoying! i hate deteriorating discs. i hate compusa. for making bad dvds. dvd burning is so buggy! i hate it. why dont they release technology when its more perfected. and not lame. like cd burning now. or something. whatever.

so i seem to have a problem not hearing my alarm on the days i want to hear it. like today. and wednesday. i wake up. and its past 7:30. and my alarm is already turned off. i guess i automatically turn it off in my sleep or something because i made sure i turned it on. so weird! but whatever. i still wake up in time for class. just no time for food. oh well. anyways. my physics teacher is kind of funny. he spent like 10 minutes complaining about the quadratic formula and how its useless and we'll all make mistakes. and we should just use our calculators. and how eventually we just learned everything for nothing because we can do everything with our calculators. well, i thought it was funny.

the bird people from china. is a cool movie. its about a salaryman and a yakuza end up in some place in china. and they meet "bird people". tribespeople far away from other civilization. and they realize how bad technology is. and how good it is. and how tradition is great. but can also be bad. true for everything. bad and good. depending on how one looks at it. miike's movies are great.

first day of class. and i wake up almost late. 10 minutes before class. so i run to class. sishgishgishgsigh. oh well. chem, bio have interesting professors. physics has a really arrogant one. well, he seems like that. but whatever. religion one is kind of interesting also. but we have to kill a weekend go to work with poor people or something. oh well. life changing experiences. i dont want to change my life though!

so i got lipgloss as one of my late christmas presents.

this was a spam i got in the mail.

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why you should never meet people online.
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Chinese teen kills self when blind date turns ugly -- report


Agence France-Presse
Last updated 04:40pm (Mla time) 01/05/2007


BEIJING -- A 17-year-old boy in northeastern China was so disappointed with the looks of a woman he met over the Internet that he hanged himself after seeing her face-to-face, state media reported Friday.

The unnamed teenager first contacted the woman -- known by her chat moniker "Qunjiaofeiyang", or "Flying Skirt" -- using the popular Chinese online messaging software QQ, Xinhua news agency said.

The girl described herself as a beautiful 19-year-old and the pair chatted on the Web for weeks before arranging a December 26 rendezvous in the nearby city of Mudanjiang, in far northeastern Heilongjiang province.

The boy arrived to discover the woman far less attractive than advertised and 10 years older than him, Xinhua said.

The boy immediately returned home, lost his appetite, and four days later hanged himself from a tree.

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Source: http://newsinfo.inquirer.net/breakingnews/infotech/view_article.php?article_id=41820

back at school. hey guys, did you know the summers are hot? and winters are cold. its pretty cool.

back from that trip. met people at ucsd. met people at ucla. met cousins. drove around southern california. why do they make cars be able to go so fast if its not legal. eh. oh well. driving for long periods of time are boring. must play games to pass time. like driving up to trucks and getting in front. then driving up to next truck. and repeat.

big trip tomorrow. going to san diego. going to be interesting. go!

wow. really cannot sleep. i drank too much tea. how annoying.

so i just watched this movie. "last life in the universe". its a thai movie. first thai movie ive ever watched. but it also had some japanese in it. japanese actors and stuff. trilingual movie. makes it confusing. thai, japanese, and english. anyways i really dont know what happened. it was confusing. it mixed time around, mixed dreams into the story, and even mixed the characters! wowowow. oh well. from what i got. its about this librarian. and he has this weird obsession with death, since he's a lonely man. he is going to kill himself one day. and then he sees a girl get hit by a car and dies. and then that girl's sister is there also. and girl's sister and him become friends. and then thats about where i got completely confused. so yea. anyways, it had a nice story about a lizard who woke up one day and found out it was the last lizard in the universe. all his friends and family and enemies were missing. and the lizard thought it was better to have the enemies than to have no one. and the lizard thought what was the point of living if there was no one to talk about. and thats all the story there was. which wasn't really a story. but whatever.

yesterday i was drawing a self-portrait. i couldn't get the ear right, so i cut it off and threw it away. contact lenses make my eyes dry up, so i just gouged out my eyeballs and threw them away.

i used to like titling my posts. that "titling" looks weird. but "titleing" looks weird too. eh. anyways. i used to title my posts. but i titled before i wrote. so i guess i must of known what i was writing back then. but then again. most of the titles back then were just "huh" "i dont know" or something stupid like that. whatever. faye wong is awesome musics. and san jose city college just called me to join the marines. so i joined. just kidding.

okay, so i bought the rammstein dvd thing limited edition a while back. in october. but since it was great. it was sold out before i got it. so they said there might be another press. so my money waited. and then 2nd press went out before me. so i got nothing. so finally i decided i would ask for a refund. since im not getting anything. and wowow i get my refund. i had to pay in pounds, since its european. and there was exchange stuff. and from the time i bought it to the time i asked for refund, american currency already depreciated! OWOWOW WTF. i lost like two dollars. this is retarded.

first post of the new year. doesn't feel much different. life is the same. oh well. watched pulp fiction this morning. at like 2 in the morning. very funny movie, i think. really like the movie story method. worked kind of well. except for all of uma thurman's part. what did overdosing and whatever have to do with anything? oh well. it was pretty funny.