calculus is beautiful. i'm happy i'm in pchem:thermo. get to learn all these cool multivariable calculus things that i didn't really learn when i took the class. so wonderful. the derivatives and all. also meteor shower tonight/tomorrow morning. maybe will see. they dont have a word for today's morning. they shouldn't have tonight then. it should be today's night.

dna needs protein to replicate. protein needs dna to be written. which one came first? huh. like chicken and egg. even in the egg, when its developing, which one is formed first? huhuh. chicken and egg in the chicken and egg.

another annoying physics to chemistry change. change in internal energy = Q - W in physics. and then in chemistry its change in internal energy = Q + W. just that W is a negative number usually. or something. annoyances.

once i read a claim that evolution and the 2nd law of thermodynamics contradict each other and can't both be true, so evolution can't be true. kind of makes sense. since the 2nd law of thermo says entropy of universe increases. disorder! and evolution claims things get better. which means more order. but the thermo law says its the whole universe, so things can get more ordered and the rest gets more disordered. or maybe that getting more complex and better is really disorder. or maybe the 2nd law of thermodynamics is wrong. or maybe both are wrong. everything is so unsure.

i like how the people the run DC++ is like a secret society. so mysterious and cool. its so interesting.

classes with no correct answer. or no wrong answer. whatever.

"Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are good is like expecting the bull to not charge because you are a vegetarian."

quote found in profile. quite lol. too bad i still want the world to be fair. and i want to be bad. that would be ideal. you know. but i'm not good and the world isn't fair. so its like i eat meat, and the bull still charges. i like meat. but im cutting down some. bad for people. proteins. too many nitrogens. i guess.

zomg change schedule tomorrow/today. lack of updates. need school to start. kind of tomorrow. but only classes after 3. dont know why. have one class after 3. but dropping it and replacing it with thermodynamics. so too bad. no class. hopefully.

got my keys today. the day after i move in. lols. this school is so magical. zomgomg.

moved in. it feels good to be at school. kind of. cant wait for school to start. after i get everything signed. major added. and classes changed. and everything going my way. hopefully. then ill be happy. if not. cry.

Recent Regents’ Scholarship winners had a 3.87 average high school GPA and a composite SAT reading and math score of 1337.

bored. so reading school catalog and stuff. and 1337 appeared. so cool zomg. moved all my music to other computer. so i only have like 2 songs on this computer. keep listening to the same songs. have them all memorized by now. lolol. and now looking through transfer agreements between community college and school. time to email and complain that my stuff isn't transferring and being articulated. and then hopefully they will be nice and fix it all. and then i will have no more general education anymore. except for pacific seminar 3. cant get out of that.

its weird that the audio and video in my dreams aren't completely synced. the audio is about two seconds faster than the video. so i was like huh. and got completely confused. so weird. there was also a mosquito in the room yesterday. annoying things. ended its life.

is IQ measured by by mental age / physical age * 100? because they should stop saying there are kids that are 14 that are geniuses with 145+. because its so much easier for young kids to be geniuses. say theres a 1 year old with 2 year old mental age, then he has 200 IQ? WOWO genius! then he continues at his same rate, and hes 2 with 3 mental age. too bad hes only 150 IQ now. so yea. people are always complaining that we spend billions of dollars to educate the retarded and dont spend so much for the gifted. gifted people should find things for themselves to do. people shouldn't have to help them. and they should be really wowwed when they are like 25 if they still have genius numbers. or whatever.

rewatched dolls. greatest movie ever. almost. so sad. its like the most ideal. except not really. too bad the world will never be like that.

rewatched beginning of ping pong. so funny. like the intro.

"dont jump! you'll die."
"die?"
"yes. you won't amount to much if you're dead."
"i won't die. i'm going to fly!"
"fly?"
"i can touch the moon no problem"
"yes! thats the spirit!"
"i can fly!!"
"YES YES YES!"
*jumps*

i want school to start. annoying.

i woke up with plain white t's "hey there, delilah" in my head. its annoying and i dont even like the song. quite annoying actually. my thermodynamics book came today. i bought international edition. because they are nicer. and cheaper. and theres usually two types. the black and white asian ones. and the color europe/australia ones. i like color, so i usually pay a little more for those, since it is better quality paper anyways. so yea. apparently they send me the cheap international edition version. annoying annoying. so now i have to argue and tell them i hate them. and stuff like that.

sitting. without thoughts. oh. forgot i was writing here. sorry. too bad you wont notice because it doesn't give a time or whatever. like instant message or something. and again i am distracted. this entry will take a while to finish. yea. theres nothing much to write anyways. so bye bye.

lol jay chou and his new movie. "secret". it's pretty weird. its like the normal love story with the bicycle scene zomg. except jay chou has to be diao and add chopin and weird stuff. chopin didn't really do much. and weird stuff was weird. but yea. if everyone wasn't so secretive and annoying, then there wouldn't have been all this problem in the movie. and asian people should stop being so passive in movies. since movies are supposed to be perfect worlds, they should stop making asians like the real asians. and then there wouldn't have been the problem of everyone thinking girl was insane and boy being whatever with girl 2 after girl 1 disappears temporarily. and jay was like lolol lets add random joke things in the movie. but they were kind of awkward and useless. changes the whole mood. and beginning was kind of eh. random <333 for no reason. and its weird how jay is so pwnage at piano in the piano battle and destroys the other guy. but then he complains when the other girl plays some song kind of fast. and yea.

on a completely unrelated or related note, time travel is the weirdest thing. things dont even work out. if time is one straight line, then people in the past would have met the people in the future. and then future people would know that people are from the past. and stuff like that. illogical.


lol bicycle scene!

so apparently drinking bottled water hurts the environment too. because it takes oil to make the plastic. oil to fly it and distribute. and flying also creates greenhouse gasses. so that means. dont drink any bottled water. just drink tap please. so then bottled water companies are like "wtf! stop ruining our business!" so yea. too bad everything causes greenhouse gases. or at least somehow ruins the environment. driving does too. they should shut car companies down. after no one can individually drive, they'll see that public transportation makes those gases too. and no more public transportation. computers waste electricity. they should shut down computer companies and all hi-tech industries. music industry takes up a lot of resources. concerts, plastic cds, distribution. balhbalhb. they should be shutdown. movies too. shining a bright light for 2 hours. everything should be shutdown.

anyways. watched love letter by shunji iwai. sad movie. kind of. he's a nice director. and writer. interesting stuff.

"I'd like to see what dragon-infested worlds these lads live in to make them be so free with the word 'commonplace'."

- Philip Larkin

when his work was criticized for being boring and normal and commonplace. llool. but yes. i think people should stop living in fantasy.

lol that guiliani's daughter isn't going to vote for him. or something. supports obama instead. too bad the daughter is still 17 and can't vote. so too bad. unless its already thinking of the future and she's 18 and going to vote then. but thats assuming she will vote. angsty teenagers dont vote. they should ask guiliani's ex-wife if she supports him. more interesting than annoying teenager daughter.

tired. working hard. giving myself lots of pressure and stress and problems. but i guess thats life. college better not be the best days of our lives. because it sucks. and if it gets worse, ill be sad. even if it was great and wonderful and all, it would still be going downhill and that's not something to look forward to. the last day of life is the best day of life. maybe. or a few days before. since its like zomg cancer, pain, and suffering. but even then, i think one would be happy to live each day. appreciate life and all.

unless it really is the best days of our lives and everyone is an idiot and looks forward to worse days. or maybe worse days aren't that bad. i dont believe in anything.

server crashed. annoying web hosting. ive never really had good web hosting. except for hasweb. they were good comparatively. but i went for the cheaper xfluro. and i guess you get what you pay for. oh well.

bored today. decided to stab myself and bleed. and then test my blood sugar. 86. after fasting. so no diabetes. i think. ill probably get it later in my life. oh well. good thing i dont like sugars too much. i can just eat protein and fat all day. and ill never have diabetes! clogged arteries maybe, but no sugar in my blood.

watched sakuran. interesting movie. i guess. predictable. really colorful movie though. did a very good job. and shiina ringo did the music, so soundtrack was wonderful. only reason why i watched it. anna tsuchiya or however you spell that name was the actress. shes kind of weird. dont like her face too much. it scares me. and she looks white. like one of the tatu girls. and i just searched her up. and wowow apparently half russian. but yea. looks really weird. and the story is kind of eh. girl gets sold to brothel. then becomes oiran. which is basically the best whore of all. and then she's the best. and she doesn't like life. the end. with lots of cherry blossoms and stuff like that. really dont get why its called sakuran. supposed to mean confusion. maybe its just supposed to confuse me. oh well.

back in the northern california. much better here. i think.

sometimes i have weird dreams that wake me up and i dont know what happened. i cant remember anything that happened in the dream. except that it was annoying. and then i cant sleep. and then i fall back asleep. and the dream that i cant remember somehow continues. doesn't make any sense. because if i didn't know what it was about, then i don't know how it could continue. but oh well.

hi. the days are boring and hot. so cal is boring and hot. and the freeways are crowded and if one person slows down, then everyone slows down and cries. its a team effort.

okay lols. i checked my email and found out that texas a&m still has a record of me. back when i applied to the school. and i never really sent them anything that said i wont be going there, so they never took me off the list. apparently i have an ID and everything from there. but now they said i haven't registered classes for two years and so they are deleting me. which is good i guess. so i wont have my social security and other identity theft things stolen like at ucla. stupid ucla.

found internet in la. but dont really know what to do. that is all. internet isn't that important. actually it is. i'm just being lazy.

LA traffic is so messy. and clogged. and congested. like my arteries. fat is great. i like it. not really.

lol. yakuza cut off their fingers to apologize. so when bob the builder was supposed to be imported to japan, they considered redoing all the drawings becuase bob only had 4 fingers and that would scare children. bob is obviously yakuza.

fight or flight. feed and breed. rest and digest. so many ways to remember parasympathetic nervous system. only fight and flight for sympathetic. wowowow. oh well.