i used to be so much more interesting. a bitchy little kid. annoyed at everything. complaining about everything. now i'm just boring i hate my life. but i really don't. i'm just pretending to hate it. nuclear power plant. unclear power plant. spell right. left.

118/125 medical schools require physics
116/125 medical schools require general chemistry
117/125 medical schools require organic chemistry
82/125 medical schools require biology

why is biology so randomly low!?

fluorine is a slut. it reacts with everything.

solv, solut (to loosen, explain) - absolve, dissolute, absolute

solvent, solute... mean the same thing!? so confusing. its just a matter of reference anyways. especially when they are 50/50 solutions.

its really annoying. it is hot now. so i open the door. and cold wind should flow in to cool everything. but it doesn't. it just says there. then someone is working on something outside and poisonous fumes flow in! at least cold air should flow in! let me die without sweat.

white people in china is horrible. why is the forbidden kingdom made? wowow. what a no good movie.

carbohydrates are naturally D. amino acids are naturally L. why?

i'm cold. but it is like almost summer. i have an urge to play final fantasy x again. but it will probably go away. like most annoying urges. i want to learn chinese, but it is too much work. i want to fix my bad multivariable calculus and differential equations. but that is too much work also. i just want to. what? i wrote a lot already. not enough though. need to proofread. hi everybody. oh no. oh no.

tuesdays and thursdays suck. i smell like thionyl chloride and then t. vaginalis media. it stinks. i'm eating ice cream.

i couldn't make a decision. i felt torn like a hymen on prom night. flip flopped back and forth like a nematode.

i seized the moment like a epileptic. took chances like i was in a rave.

good stuff to write?

my mind thinks it is sunday. but it also thinks it is saturday. i thought i had work today, which i have on sunday. but then i wasn't studying like i normally do on sunday, so i must have known it was saturday. but then in the end i realized it really was saturday.

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Subject: Greetings!
Date: Sat, 19 Apr 2008 08:38:13 +0000

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free money!? for 185 USD!? wow it can't be real.

it would be cool to be so sure of finding a link between a bacteria and stomach ulcers to drink a culture of the bacteria and then cause an ulcer in self! best science ever. too bad helicobacter pylori.

覺得很失望。神經病﹐奇怪﹗
無望﹐絕望﹐失望﹐希望
maybe more 望.

is it bad to feel miserable over a 81.5%? but why do i feel like that? annoying. irritating. aggravating already irritated.

omg. suddenly realized i forgot about pi day this year! wow. that sucks. skipped 3/14 and didn't even know it. that is what happens when i'm stuck doing some lame majors about pv=nrt and counting cells and stuff like that.

i'm not very bright. instead i'm very dark. huh. wrong opposite, i guess. overlapping words. it takes me forever to do anything. especially things like this. what? this that. anyways. i have a headache right now. because my head hurts. what a tautology. like tautomerism. but that is in chemistry. same thing redundant? not really! if tautomerism was redundant like a tautology, then no reaction would work very well. well, not all. but some. mostly chapter 17 and after.

Anti-Emo Riots Break Out Across Mexico
By Alexis Madrigal
March 27, 2008 | 5:42:52 PM
Categories: Current Affairs, Music

Riot police have taken to the streets of several cities in Mexico to ... defend emo kids?

A series of attacks on dyed-hair, eye-makeup-wearing emo kids began in early March when several hundred people went on an emo-beating rampage in Querétaro, a town of 1.5 million about 160 miles north of Mexico City.

The next week, shaggy-haired emo teenagers were harassed again by punks and rockabillys in the capital, prompting police protection and a segment on the TV news. Most recently, a Mexican newspaper reported that metal heads and gangsters have warned Tijuana's emo kids to stay away from the town's fair next month.

But the so-called emos are organizing, too. Last week, they demonstrated against the violence, pictured above, and Wednesday some met with police in Mexico City.

"They're organizing to defend their right to be emo," wrote Daniel Hernandez of LA Weekly on his personal blog, which has provided stellar coverage of the whole affair.

Music-based subcultures have permeated Mexico's major cities for decades, fueled by constant migration from rural cities. But only in the past year have emos begun to make their presence felt in the streets. In response, many of the established so-called tribus urbanas like punks and metalheads are responding with violence. The emo-punk battles are reminiscent of earlier subculture fights among various factions, like the Hell's Angels fighting hippies at the Altamont Music Festival or the Mods taking on the Rockers.

But while videos of Mexican teenagers with pompadours advancing on equally baby-faced emo rockers seem like scenes from a south-of-the-border version of John Waters' Crybaby, there are ugly undercurrents to the story.

First, by some accounts, the emo subculture is identified with homosexuality in Mexico. As Mexico City youth worker Victor Mendoza told Time.com: "At the core of this is the homophobic issue. The other arguments are just window dressing for that."

Gustavo Arellano, the author of Ask a Mexican and an editor at OC Weekly, said that the sexual ambiguities cultivated by emo fashion helped set the group up for targeting by more macho groups.

"What do you do when you are confronted with a question mark about sexuality in Mexico?" Arellano said. "You beat it up."

Forum posts show similar sentiments. One person wrote on a government youth-website forum, "detesto a los emosexuales," which translates as "I hate emosexuals." Emosexual is an obvious play on homosexual, especially in Spanish, where the H is silent.

Many of the attacks have been planned, or at least fomented, on violently anti-emo websites like Movimiento Anti Emosexual, which features videos of physical violence sprinkled liberally with anti-gay sentiment. Last.fm's Anti Emo Death Squad group has almost 4,000 members.

But Arellano said he thought the riots could have a positive impact here in the US.

"It's a great clusterfuck for the American mind's idea of Mexico," Arellano said. "This teaches the rest of the world that Mexico is not just a bunch of cactuses and sombreros."

Photo: Mexican emo kids gather in response to anti-emo violence by metalheads and punk rockers.

Credit: promrguez

it's hard to do polymerase chain reaction without taq polymerase. because it just becomes chain reaction. that doesn't really do anything useful. attach, fall off, attach fall off, a cyclical chain. electrical forces, but not enough. need that taq. thermus aquaticus. i think.

coffee, tea, or me? i really can't decide. can't i mix coffee and tea?

i was thinking. time to make a post. go to blogger.com! but then my fingers typed yahoo.com and that is my homepage. so i was wondering why i wasn't going anywhere. wondering if my internet had slowed down a lot. anyways i forgot what i was going to type. oh. i was going to talk about hofmann. who is this man? he has an elimination. and a rearrangement named after him. is it the same hofmann? organic chemistry is so fun.

stop poking me. i got toothpaste in my eyeball.

i finally listened to all of boris's "dronEVIL" album. or is it DRONevil? i dont know. i think first one. anyways. it is a double cd. cd 1 is called drone. cd 2 is called evil. drone is boring. evil is louder. they are just different music for 1 hour. but the way it is supposed to be played is both at the same time. so i played both at the same time. and it was quite long. yay.

i dropped my alarm on my face this morning. it hurt. then i fell back asleep.

i'm really bad at typing seqeuence. see i got it wrong. i always type it that way. i don't know why. there must be something wrong with my fingers. anyways. i'm writing a lab report for genetics. and dna seqeuence and protein amino acid sequqence everywhere. i guess i got another mutation there. wow. duplication! i like duplications.

it's really annoying that everytime i want to write, i forget. also when i do get to type it, it doesn't post right away because ftp is bad on the website. so it doesn't get put up. and then i dont update for a while. and so it doesn't show that old update, and its like even longer than usual. but whatever. anyways. i hate microsoft office. stupid thing can't even save correctly and corrupts itself and so i lost my lab report. wtf.

is it really already april? only a few more days of school. not really. a few more weeks of school. but it is okay. i am fine and dandy. busy all day. 8-5 all day. almost everyday. work school more school sleep. wastes so much time. makes me unhappy. but it is overall quite happy. sometimes. but not always. everything is variable. no constants. nothing defines. nothing at all. annoying huh. change one thing, change another thing which affects the other thing and cycles around and around. i dont miss writing here.

i watched "the lives of others". its a german movie. about east germans wiretapping suspicious people. and then some guy gets really into the lives of some people. and he is like zomg convert. and then east germans dont like that. but everything is fine. the wall falls down.