by the way, james dean died today, but 53 years ago.

dreams

was visiting my sister at uop (completely doesn't make sense). and was eating. this random asian girl that sat in front of me during first semester macroeconomics sneaks in and takes my sister's wallet. i tell my sister that is happening. she goes chases that girl. the girl turns around, opens the wallet, gives back sister everything except $9, and leaves. so i am angry, i want to get back at the girl. so i think think think and then i think her name is shirley! which i dont think it is. i dont even know her name. she is also like 2-3 years older than me. so oh well. anyways, with the name, i tell the police and take her to jail. on the way to jail, i get distracted by an aquarium and i walked in. i saw my high school friend, danny, cooking (makes sense, all he does now is post pictures of his food). and then i dont know what happened. suddenly everyone is netting fish. theres 2 tanks, saltwater and freshwater. and we can choose which one to net a fish from and keep. everyone did the freshwater. i saw a reedfish (ropefish) and was like omg i want it! but some guy who i dont know caught it first. then i wanted those transparent eels, but they changed into ghost catfish. suddenly i saw a crab that looked saltwater. i was like, hm maybe i should catch that, it seems saltwater. it would be cool to have one of the few freshwater saltwater crabs. then i saw the dory (from finding nemo) fish in the freshwater. so i was very confused. so confused that i woke up.

rofl. can this get any more discouraging?

so i was reading jpopmusic forum, because i like to lurk there. anyways, theres some guy thats like all anti america or whatever. its fun because he talks a lot about how america is so bad with wasteful gas, and hamburgers, and other silly stuff. but he never talks about how any other country is doing better. so i don't know what country he is in, because his location says "fluffy clouds" or something completely lame like that. but i think he should compare countries and say what is better. and be pro-something, instead of anti-america. it is easy to be anti by pointing out mistakes and problems. but if there is nothing that is better to support, then there is no real solution. it is just angry bashing. maybe with pro, there will be more of a solution. movies like v for vendetta are like lolol government sucks, so let's blow it up! and then what? everyone wears masks? so stop being anti and be pro! so then you can have pro-life and pro-choice!. that is irritating.

i have gone insane. i want to start aquariums. a bunch of huge ones. one community tank, with large fish from like the amazon or something. another one with guppies. another one with small fish like neons and stuff. and also a saltwater aquarium! too bad i am poor. oh yea, i also want to get a 25.5 inch screen, so i can watch movies and cool stuff. oh well! poor poor. maybe guppy tank though. i will breed them. from the ugly feeder ones to the colorful pretty ones. yay for selective breeding. biology application. reading about the aquarium water and stuff is like hard stuff. talks all about pH and proteins and nitrogen cycle and lots of buffers. good thing i am double majoring in chemistry and biology so i can understand it!

dream journal.

was in kind of neutral 3rd person, i guess. i couldn't do anything except wisp around.

was in san francisco. saw random classmates, and professors. kaela kimura was also there. she suddenly died from some bad friend. (heartbreak or something?) anyways. she suddenly grew out of the ground and was a carrot. she said how it is not fun to have no feet. suddenly she is ghostly again. there were 3 other dead people as ghosts. some scientists were trying to bring the dead ones into some form, so they can get their revenge or whatever.

then i had to go pee.

i think it is weird that i have really bad image recall, so i can't even think of anyone's face. but in a dream, just the thought of that person makes that person there. or whatever. people in my dreams don't usually have a face, but i know exactly who they are. like once i had a dream that had some person i had never met in my life. yet, in the dream i knew exactly who it was. its like image memories and the idea of the person are in separate places. and dreams just play with ideas.

i listened to veltpunch's "paint your life gray" album yesterday. and today was quite gray. did not as well as i wished on a test. accidentally called out of country. and then the housing management company doesn't want to pay for the exploding toilet.

someone called me on a taiwan cell phone today. but i didn't pick up, because i was in class. so i saw the call, didn't think and returned the call. then they said "wrong number". so now i just paid like $20. sigh.

bad day. spilled tea. disorganized achem lab. urine on carpet. not something that i want to remember. but i write it in here anyways. so maybe i do want to remember all my irritating days. i don't really write happy things in here, so when i get bored i read this and realize how much my life sucks. even if it doesn't suck so bad. it is just not a simple random sample of my life. it is a skewed sample. but what can i do. it is a observer bias or whatever. as long as my error is systematic. it is okay. then the error should be calibrated and be much lower. but it is not. i can get precise but not accurate. what basic statistics and anal(ytical) chemistry. it is so basic, it is like acid, but the opposite. alkaline batteries.

so the toilet cracked last night for no reason at all. and there was water everywhere. at like 4 AM wow. annoying. hate my life.

IOC considering pending Beijing doping cases
By GRAHAM DUNBAR, Associated Press Writer
3 hours, 47 minutes ago

blabhlahblahblahblahbab....

Vadim Devyatovskiy and Ivan Tsikhan tested positive for traces of testosterone after the hammer final Aug. 17.

.... blahblahblahbab

maybe it is because they are men!

imagination starts with imitation

i bought this new jacket! it is fire-retardant!

fire!

save myself! retard the fire, jacket!

it saved my life

that is a retarded jacket!

apparently retard is not allowed at university.

greater fool

i meant to write something. but i just forgot this and left it here. there's really nothing of interest these days. i go to school everyday. study for microbiology only, because it is so much and i am paranoid. study and memorize all the terms, and maybe one will be on the test. irritating, but i guess all tests are like that. just lucky if i memorize the right words. and i've been pretty lucky up until now, i guess. go to research and start reactions. then leave. wait overnight and then work up the reaction. lots of work, working with chemicals, breathing in fumes, and stabbing self with broken glass. glass pipet stuck into my hand today. it was like i was pipetting blood. i should work for biology instead of chemistry. la la la. listening to shiina ringo. after she left her solo career and came back. it is annoying. she's releasing everything again. in some special giant pack. so she can make it super expensive and everyone will buy it. everything is "re-mastered" and all that garbage. it is like evangelion. 10 years after release, let's make new movies of the same thing. just redraw everything and use computer effects! and shiina ringo is 10 years also. must be a japanese thing. i ate a lot today. i am going to be fat. i ate my normal dinner that i cooked. except i had 1.5 the normal amount, because there would only be 0.5 left, and that is not enough for tomorrow. so that was a lot. i also ate one hot pocket thing. those are okay. i guess. then i was invited to eat cheese sticks. so i ate two of those. after exiting the university center, i stumbled upon the japanese club, nikkei club or whatever. they were having some food and stuff. so i ate there too. i ate a peach too. i ate strawberry cheesecake ice cream also. and ritz crackers. if i was taking physiology, i would have to count calories or something like that. then i would realize my obese failure. but that class is only offered in the spring. and i probably won't take that class anyways. so i don't know of my failure.

i don't know why i am watching anime.

because you are asian,.

i hate anime. i can't stand it!

because you need to fill the void in your life that normal people fill with sex.

i guess so..

oh no! my shoes touched the ground! what am i going to do?

pick them up?

is it really that easy?

yes it is. unless you're suddenly retarded, again. now shut up, i want to eat my nectarine!

i'm stuck in a permanent yesterday. it never ends. i guess that is why it is permanent.

i wonder why they decided to make movies and photographs in rectangular formats. lenses are circular, so how does light suddenly become straight sided. they shouldn't cut off the sides, then they'll the most out of the light image! and it will be cool. pictures can be circles! i think it would be interesting. maybe

nothing to say, except the obvious. there is no obvious. so there is nothing to say.

i dropped cell biology class because i am too lazy. i'm tired of school. everything is quite discouraging. so there is no use taking that class. take it next semester if needed. procrastination. i am the best.

what lies north of the north pole?

in 10th grade i had a nosebleed in my "things fall apart" book. i still returned it to the school. i wonder if it is still there. it was quite a bloody mess. yea it's probably there. school is too poor to afford new books.

you are the reason.

big fish in small pond. how did it get there? swam there? born there and grew too big? probably took a wrong turn and got stuck. good thing it is not a shark, or it would die from lack of movement. but it is still uncomfortable. hopefully it can find a stream to the ocean. oh wait, it is not a saltwater fish. i guess it can only shoot for a larger lake. held back.

it is important to define variables. last time i was working in php, i couldn't get anything to work. then i realized i didn't define variables. no wonder nothing works.

today i was working with concentrated hydrochloric acid, which is cool and all. too bad i needed 5% HCl solution, so i do my dilution very well. i fill up the water first. then i get ready to add acid, because acid goes into water, not the other way around. or else hot and blow up and die. maybe. but whatever. so i had my pipet ready. and then i twisted the cap of the concentrated hcl bottle. i thought, hm. maybe i should do this in the hood. but too late, i already died. so lesson learned is to work in the hood.

important tips for computing and chemistry.

BIPOLAR?! MAGNETS AND CHARGES. CURRENTS OF A SEA OF ELECTRONS. WHERE ARE THE PROTONS? THEY JUST HOLD IT ALL TOGETHER AND NOT DO MUCH BECAUSE THEY ARE WEAK. I AM WEAK, SO I JUST LET IT GO. NO I DON'T. HAVE A NICE DAY.

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where is the typo?

THANK YOU.

life can only get worse and worse.

just saw the trailer for kitano's new film "achilles and the tortoise" coming out on the 20th. it looks like he might actually be making a movie with a real story and not intentionally bad! looks really good. too bad i have to wait until next year for the dvd release. enough time to buy a new harddrive.

if you shoot to the left of a rabbit and then to the right of the rabbit, statistically, you have killed the rabbit. it is dead. i'm really good at averages.

i'm slowly converting my website towards php. that way it will be easier to change stuff. everything will change at once and all that. so far, reality sucks and movie sections are now in php. its just easy stuff in php, since thats the level i am at, but whatever. it will also save kilobytes of space! which could make some difference on those new solid state harddrives. its so cool! too bad it is cost inefficient. dollars for gigabytes instead of cents! nevertheless, (like my first time typing that word) i kind of want the asus eee pc thats on sale quite a lot recently. probably because solid state harddrives are cheaper now. but yea! its cool. 8 inch screen or something. for like $300-500. too bad no cd drive and max 20 gb harddrive. oh well. dell released one also. they are cool.

why don't they call tyrosine "phenolalanine"!?

rofl

rofl. some places censored some power rangers part because of "its morphin' time!" sounds like it's morphine time! yay. drugs.ss.

weird chinese of today. 關心 means to care for, to be concerned with, stuff like that. but 關 is to shut down, close. 心 is a heart. so when chinese people care for others, they just turn off their hearts. which i think means that they don't really care. chinese people don't have time to care anyways, they are busy with math.